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Posted 04 July 2014 - 08:24 AM
Ok,so first I don't want to promote this or something,but it worked for me.I ate only boiled or grilled chicken for 5 days and I lost 4-5 kilos.I don't know exactly because tomorrow is the final weight in.And as a bonus NO workout.I feel a little bit dizzy,but I tell you that it works 
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 08:38 AM
This sounds great, how much chicken would you consume a day?
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 09:20 AM
alexajj, on 04 Jul 2014 - 08:38 AM, said:
This sounds great, how much chicken would you consume a day?
You can eat as much chicken as you want as long as it is just chicken
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 09:21 AM
serenaa9885, on 04 Jul 2014 - 08:27 AM, said:
wow that is so amazing!! Good job!
Let us know how you with keeping it off as well
Thank you Be sure that I will let you all know about my progress
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 09:22 AM
anonymgirl, on 04 Jul 2014 - 09:20 AM, said:
You can eat as much chicken as you want as long as it is just chicken
Awesome, I might do this after my fast!!
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 09:29 AM
You did a low carb mono. Good work! Let us know!
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 09:59 AM
Shifter, on 04 Jul 2014 - 09:31 AM, said:
Good for you! Did your body not have an amino acid build up?
pardon my ignorance, hence the question.
No I mean,I don't really know but now all that matters is the weight loss
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 10:22 AM
dumbcake, on 04 Jul 2014 - 10:04 AM, said:
Oooh this sounds good. How many calories do you suppose you had a day?
I think around 500-600 ??? I don't know I couldn't eat too much but it doesn't matter how much you eat you should lose about 1 kg a day.
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 10:37 AM
Anyone know a vegan or vegetarian alternative? I was thinking tofu but it has a lot of calories. :/
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 10:38 AM
suffer, on 04 Jul 2014 - 10:37 AM, said:
Anyone know a vegan or vegetarian alternative? I was thinking tofu but it has a lot of calories. :/
The calories don't count so much in monos because you eat the same thing
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 10:41 AM
anonymgirl, on 04 Jul 2014 - 10:38 AM, said:
The calories don't count so much in monos because you eat the same thing
Hm okay, might give tofu a shot sometime! Thanks.
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suffer, on 04 Jul 2014 - 10:37 AM, said:
Anyone know a vegan or vegetarian alternative? I was thinking tofu but it has a lot of calories. :/
If you want to mono, here is a profile that is dedicated to monos and the best results that monos have. She experiments with loads of different monos all the time http://www.myproana....2-mono-dieting/
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Posted 04 July 2014 - 10:46 AM
suffer, on 04 Jul 2014 - 10:41 AM, said:
Hm okay, might give tofu a shot sometime!
You can try in the beggining just 2 days to see if you lose some weight You have nothing to thank me for!
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This is defo my go to list! http://www.myproana....diet-food-list/
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the dizziness might b lack of carbs i get that sometimes let us know the final outcome don't know anything about mono diet but sounds cool
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Al3xa1995, on 10 Jul 2014 - 2:30 PM, said:
the dizziness might b lack of carbs i get that sometimes let us know the final outcome don't know anything about mono diet but sounds cool
I lost 5 kg and i'll do it again starting with Monday
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Posted 12 July 2014 - 07:43 PM
ohmygod this sounds amazing i want to try it.
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imfuckinglost, on 12 Jul 2014 - 7:43 PM, said:
ohmygod this sounds amazing i want to try it.
Good luck sweetie If you want we can do it together I am starting on Monday
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imfuckinglost, on 13 Jul 2014 - 10:03 AM, said:
Me too!! I was just thinking that i will start monday...
Tell us how you both go!!
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Hm how did you prepare your chicken and did you keep to only a certain part of the chicken? Also, if you don't mind, what's your BMI range? And is this the first mono you've done?
Sorry for all the questions, just curious about meat monos 
I seem to eat a lot on meat monos.
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herecomesgiselle, on 14 Jul 2014 - 3:07 PM, said:
Hm how did you prepare your chicken and did you keep to only a certain part of the chicken? Also, if you don't mind, what's your BMI range? And is this the first mono you've done?
Sorry for all the questions, just curious about meat monos
I'm doing my first meat mono... I have eaten my limit and I'm still hungry... I guess I just thought it would be the opposite.
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I'm doing my first meat mono... I have eaten my limit and I'm still hungry... I guess I just thought it would be the opposite.
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herecomesgiselle, on 14 Jul 2014 - 3:24 PM, said:
TOTALLY KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.
OK so first,I would eat any part of the chicken boiled or grilled I am in the normal BMI range and this is not the first mono I've done ,but it's the one which helped me most.In the first 2 days I also felt hungry,but then you'll only be able to eat small amounts because you eat obviously only chicken.Keep calm and I promise you will lose weight
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anonymgirl, on 15 Jul 2014 - 01:27 AM, said:
OK so first,I would eat any part of the chicken boiled or grilled
I hope I could help you
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Heaven1881, on 14 Jul 2014 - 3:22 PM, said:
I'm doing my first meat mono... I have eaten my limit and I'm still hungry... I guess I just thought it would be the opposite.
you need fat to slow the digestion of protein, lean protein is broken down by stomach acid really quicly.
I had steak once, and literally 1 hour later was purging pure acid.
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I did a Coconut Oil Mono yesterday and lost 3.6lbs. I wanna stay in ketosis but eat so I'm doing a Chicken Mono today. Im boiling Boneless Skinless Chicken Thighs.
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I just did this yesterday and ate 900k calories worth of chicken. Today I had gained 400gram. 
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Made all my chicken without oil but a little hot sauce. Drinking 1 gallon water today. Water is my biggest problem. But I've out lemon and vinegar in it so that should help! 116 this morning. Thankyou for following! I'm doing this until Sunday at the very least maybe even longer
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Meet him. Sadness can stimulate a binge but I'm not going to.
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Stay strong, girl! You're amazing!!!112 today have really bad other cravings but I'm sticking to the mono no matter what I need my abs to show already and getting in my gallon water everyday. A little sad because the person I like lives so far and it's valentines but you know what I'm working to look amazing when I finally
Meet him. Sadness can stimulate a binge but I'm not going to.
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Posted 21 February 2018 - 02:24 PM
i promised myself i'd be 129.0 by march 1
i made it to 129.8, then went back up to 132.
so if i can't do it through restriction, heres plan b.
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eat only chicken for 7 days
count calories to the exact oz
log calories every day
goal
129.0 by feb 28
feb 22 - 132.0
feb 28 - 129.6
close enough
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Posted 21 February 2018 - 10:15 PM
mentionable sidenote
i am not doing this for the belief that eating only one food makes weight gain impossible
so bet your ass franks red hot and walden farms dressing will make frequent appearances on this thread
maybe ill even go crazy and treat myself to the occasional non calorie free dressing. this threads getting wild already
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Posted 22 February 2018 - 01:45 PM
day 1
400 calories of chicken ; 10 oz
dipped in hot sauce & walden farms bleu cheese
well.. i dont hate chicken yet lol
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day 2
500 calories of chicken ; 12.5 oz
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300 calories of chicken ; 7.5 oz
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200 calories of chicken ; 5 oz
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day 5
300 calories of chicken ; 7.5 oz
300 calories of b/p on frozen yogurt and grapes
had to break up with my boyfriend 2 days ago. appetite came back a little today and manifested in a small b/p
shouldn't effect results too much.... except my goal of keto
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Posted 27 February 2018 - 09:45 AM
day 6
600 calories of chicken ; 15 oz
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So curious what results did you get?
i ended up 129.6! lost 2.4 pounds
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Congrats!
How did you make your chicken? Just wondering if boiling it is a must or pan-frying it on 0kcal oil would work just as fine.
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gyla, on 01 Mar 2018 - 4:40 PM, said:
Congrats!
How did you make your chicken? Just wondering if boiling it is a must or pan-frying it on 0kcal oil would work just as fine.
grilled it all
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Posted 16 November 2015 - 06:57 PM
Anyone ever done a chicken mono?
I have chicken breast in my freezer that is going to get freezer burned if I don't eat it soon. I cooked some for the dogs the other day and realized that I miss eating chicken. Sooooooo, I was thinking of doing a mono with the remainder...boiled/poached. It's low cal and all protein so it should be filling and keep me in ketosis.
Anyone done this? Or any other mono similar to this? Success??
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I just had two chicken breasts yesterday...was so thirsty I must have drank about 8 16 oz. cups of water with lemon. Weighed 139.4 in the morning and when I got home I was 143. I was too terrified to weight myself this morning . Literally, I had coffee with cream, and what...maybe 700 calories? No weight I would gain 4 pounds from that!!??? Going to try to just have pears today.
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I suffer from major depression disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder,possible bipolar disorder and of course anorexia (for 9 years now)...plus various psychical illnesses.
Since early May I have had my antidepressants switched three times & for those of you who have went through that know it is horrible. The lack of seratonin in the brain makes you crave carbs and sweets and the urge is so powerful you eat just to get s little seratonin in your body.
Starting at the first switch I was 94.5lbs in May then came the major switch to try and control the major depressive disorder...
Paxil--->Zoloft--->Effexor--->Amitriptyline...
My last and final switch was in early December and the withdrawal from Effexor was hell..as I tapered up on the Amitriptyline... As of last Thursday i finished my last taper of amitriptyline at 100mgs and finally he found a drug that actually works for me...
But anyway that is the reason why I gained and have not reached my UGW
I refused to weigh until December 8th ( I weight every Thursday ..I know kinda weird, but that has been my weigh in day since I cut back on weighing from 10 times a day... Slowly and painfully got myself down to weighing once a week.
**103.6** was my weight as of last Thursday 01/08.. The highest I've seen my weight in quite a long time.. So needless to day I was fucking disgusted and went into full blown panic.
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I keep my own personal handwritten diary which will be thrown away once I enter Monday and Tuesday's food intake
Medication is settled..no more excuses..So here I go
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Posted 14 January 2015 - 10:02 AM
2 Thin slim muffin - 80 cals
Kanten pasta with chopped up onion and red & green peppers with go veggie Parmesan cheese - overestimated 100 cals
Turkey a Hill fat free, sugar free ice cream - overestimated 100 cals
Fiber one bran cereal measured - 60 cals
Thin slim cupcake - 70 cals
Boca veggie burger - 70 cals
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Thin slim lemon square- 70 cals
Thin slim chocolate muffin - 40 cals
Kanten noodles with a mini Boca veggie burger - overestimated 100cals
Turkey hill fat free, sugar free ice cream -70 cals
Puffed wheat cereal measured - 60 cals
2 ginger chews-40 calories
Trail mix measured- 140
Chocolate peanut butter cups - 70 cals
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Thin slim vanilla cookie- 40 cals
Thin slim almond square - 40 cals
Fiber one bran cereal measured - 60 cals
Dried fruit measured - 140 cals
Rice cakes - 50
Fat free Pringles - 70
Ginger chew, piece of great tea hard candy - 35
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Weigh in day.. I lost 2lbs.. I am currently **101.6** & not at all happy about it..
Think thin lean protein bar - 150 cals
Natures promise honey nut bar - 140 cals
Seal salt and vinegar pop crisps - 100 cals
Simply scrumptious FF chocolate delite cupcake - 70 cals
Artic zero cookies and cream ice cream measured - 75 cals
Ginger chew - 20 cals
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Thin slim chocolate chip cookie - 45cals
Fat free Pringles -70cals
1/2 pack of Keebler chocolate chip cookie 100 cal snack pack - 50cals
Thin slim muffin - 40cals
Soy trail mix - 140cals
Kanten noodled with mini Boca veggie burger overestimated - 90 cals
Artic zero cookies and cream ice cream measured - 75 cals
Mango ginger chew, 3 great tea hard candies - 35 cals
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Thin slim almond square - 40cals
Tropical trail mix measured - 80 cals
Nature honey roasted peanut bar - 140 cals
Pop chips - 100 cals
Low carb bagel with fat free cream cheese - 150
Artic zero maple vanilla ice cream measured - 50 cals
SnackWell mini chocolate chip cookies (3) - 30 cals
Fat free Pringles - 150
Total = 740
Was doing great until I decided to far out the Pringles and instead of having a few .. I had over two servings... Fail..
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Planned once a week high calorie day to try and give myself a metabolism boost.
I don't count calories in these days, I just use my best judgement, but I went overboard...
MAJOR... HUGE BINGE
Stupid .. Just really stupid..
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Fruit - 40 cals
Thin slim muffin - 40 cals
Sugar free jelly beans - 60 cals
Low carb bagel with fat free cream cheese - 150 cals
Crackers - 110
Dried fruit - 110
Pretzels- 50
Total= 560
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Fiber one bran cereal with a splash of unsweetened vanilla almond milk - 70 cals
Mixed fruit- 50cals
Simply scrumptious brownie - 80cals
Thin slim peanut butter square - 40cals
Kanten noodles with spray butter and a little bit of go veggie Parmesan cheese - 75cals
Biena chickpea snack cinnamon maple flavor - 120cals
Artic 0 vanilla maple ice cream - 100 cals
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Hey you can do it! Wish I had your self control <3
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poison&wine, on 20 Jan 2015 - 08:34 AM, said:
Hey you can do it! Wish I had your self control <3
Thanks Hun .. But that massive binge on Sunday didn't show much self control
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We all have setbacks, there's always the chance to start over anew in the morning <3 I had a mini binge last night so now I'm liquid fasting to make up for it.
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poison&wine, on 20 Jan 2015 - 08:43 AM, said:
We all have setbacks, there's always the chance to start over anew in the morning <3 I had a mini binge last night so now I'm liquid fasting to make up for it.
I can't fast due to orthostatic hypotension, but I will try to keep my intake average at 550... This was such an unplanned setback I was doing so well... My mind was in the right place.. I just don't know what happened..
And good I hope your liquid fast goes well :-)
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Mixed fruit ..little bit - 30cals
Thin slim lemon square - 40 cals
Low carb bagel with spray butter and a very little bit of go veggie Parmesan - 150cals
Thin slim brownie - 45 cals
Creme crackers - 110
Thin slim cinnamon square - 40 cals
Few pieces of tropic fruit mix measured - 50 cals
Total = 465
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Mixed fruit ..little bit - 30cals
Thin slim lemon square - 40 cals
Wow that is super low...
Take care... X
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Posted 22 January 2015 - 05:53 AM
IsButterACarb?, on 22 Jan 2015 - 05:51 AM, said:
Wow that is super low...
Take care... X
I wish that was my intake.. I usually update the rest in the mornings ...because my fiancé hates when I'm on here at night...
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Posted 22 January 2015 - 06:15 AM
Even though I averaged 550 a day the binge was so big is destroyed all my hard work.. I have to figure out a way to stop this damn binging... If it weren't got that one night I would have lost weight... It's just not worth it at all, yet I never seem to learn my lesson.... Self hatred, depression, guilt and oh ofcourse fat are nice terms of how I'm feeling right now
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Posted 22 January 2015 - 06:17 AM
Thin slim chocolate chip muffin - 45 cals
Thin slim almond square - 40cals
Grapes - 110cals (overestimated)
Fiber 1 cereal with unsweetened almond milk - 120cals
Cinnamon maple chickpeas - 120cals
Puffed wheat cereal - 100 cals
Candy - 30
Total = 565
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Posted 06 February 2015 - 08:27 AM
Thin slim vanilla muffin - 40 cals
Thin slim chocolate cookie - 45 cals
1/2 bar chocolite chocolate- 40 cals
Small salad -100
Pretzels - 110
Chia pop aged white cheddar popcorn - 110
Simply scrumptious blueberry muffin - 50
Simply scrumptious vanilla cupcake - 70
Measured honey nut Cheerios - 50
Total = 615
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you really don't look chubby at all
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Posted 06 February 2015 - 12:13 PM
Elizabeth23, on 06 Feb 2015 - 09:30 AM, said:
you really don't look chubby at all
Thanks I guess I look average.. I'm hoping 10 more lbs will put me on the skinnier side..
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halfofmyheart, on 06 Feb 2015 - 12:13 PM, said:
Thanks I guess I look average.. I'm hoping 10 more lbs will put me on the skinnier side..
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Posted 07 February 2015 - 05:51 AM
Pernicious, on 06 Feb 2015 - 1:25 PM, said:
^ ^ ^ ^
Average Skinny You Emaciated
Lol well thank you for the line graph.. Wtf if that is accurate then I have SEVERE BDD
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Posted 07 February 2015 - 06:06 AM
The day was going fairly well until my cousins birthday party at 6:00pm... There was dinner .. Which I didn't know about... I told them I already ate but My daughter didn't each much and My fiancé wasn't hungry at the time... Total lie obviously I just didn't want to eat pasta and every other high fat dish on the plate...
To make a long story short I was called out by my mom.. Telling me I have to eat more... Now this is in front of my whole family plus aunt, uncle, grandma and cousins.. And she said that I do this for control, but I have lost control.. I argued that I didn't, yet with everyone else telling me the disease is controlling me and tells me when and what I can eat and I lost the control... So it was basically prove it by eating the high calorie and greasy shit or let them keep talking .. So to shut them up and prove that I'm right (not really sure I am) I ate and ate and ate... The whole night ... As all eyes watched me... Then when the party was over I cried and I told my mom that she was horribly wrong for doing that to me...
(Meanwhile she attended a theory session with me,purely focused on anorexia and how it is a mental illness and the therapist tried to explain everything to her in the session.... Yeah guess that was a freakin waste of time)
So yeah not a binge.. But as I sit here now I feel I made the wrong decision .. I'm 28 and have had this illness for such a long time..I don't have to prove anything to anyone... I guess I was more embarrassed then anything and outnumbered... I didn't want to get up and leave because my cousin didn't say a word. And it was her party after dinner.. So I just stayed .. But when it was over my mom heard it from me and still yesterday was hearing it from me .. And of course my poor fiancé is left with the crying anorexic...
Pathetic...
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Posted 07 February 2015 - 06:16 AM
halfofmyheart, on 07 Feb 2015 - 05:51 AM, said:
Lol well thank you for the line graph.. Wtf if that is accurate then I have SEVERE BDD
Well I just really hope you can stop at 90lbs... don't want something to happen to you
But I understand and I'm here for you, no matter what. Just be careful okay?... I really care about you! x
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Posted 07 February 2015 - 06:18 AM
Pernicious, on 07 Feb 2015 - 06:16 AM, said:
Well I just really hope you can stop at 90lbs... don't want something to happen to you
But I understand and I'm here for you, no matter what. Just be careful okay?... I really care about you! x
That's my worry too that I won't stop at 90 ...but I will be careful... And I really care about you too... Thanks for your support.. Especially the other day when I binged .. Your the best :-)
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Posted 07 February 2015 - 05:26 PM
Saw your pictures and I had a hard time looking for the 'chubby' one.
I hate it when people tell me I look ok/thin because I'm 100% sure I'm not. But when I saw your picture, it made me think. Are they just being kind or it's just that we don't/can't see it?
You look fab on those photos and I would kill to be that thin! Just sayin. I know you don't see it.
I hope when you reach your goal you'll be satisfied and happy.
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Posted 09 February 2015 - 05:57 AM
alodia, on 07 Feb 2015 - 5:26 PM, said:
Saw your pictures and I had a hard time looking for the 'chubby' one.
I hate it when people tell me I look ok/thin because I'm 100% sure I'm not. But when I saw your picture, it made me think. Are they just being kind or it's just that we don't/can't see it?
You look fab on those photos and I would kill to be that thin! Just sayin. I know you don't see it.
I hope when you reach your goal you'll be satisfied and happy.
Thank you <3
I do have BDD but I don't get it I can see how thin other people are, but I see myself as average..not skinny..
I hope when I reach. 90 I will be able to see something I like...
Good luck reaching your goals :-)
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Posted 09 February 2015 - 06:12 AM
Wafer cookies - 60 cals
Thin slim chocolate muffin - 40 cals
Salad - 80
Sugar free chocolate pudding - 60
Thin slim bran muffin - 50
Total = 290
Trying to make up for Saturday as I must weigh in this Thursday because I skipped last week and my therapist and/or psychiatrist will weight me Thursday anyway...
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Posted 09 February 2015 - 06:14 AM
Wafer cookies - 60 cals
Thin slim blueberry muffin - 40 cals
Kanten noodles with mini veggie burger - 80 cals
Puffed rice cereal - 70 cals
Simply scrumptious cookie - 40 cals
Simply scrumptious banana muffin - 50
Total = 340
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Posted 09 February 2015 - 06:20 AM
halfofmyheart, on 07 Feb 2015 - 06:06 AM, said:
Saturday <3 February 7th
The day was going fairly well until my cousins birthday party at 6:00pm... There was dinner .. Which I didn't know about... I told them I already ate but My daughter didn't each much and My fiancé wasn't hungry at the time... Total lie obviously I just didn't want to eat pasta and every other high fat dish on the plate...
To make a long story short I was called out by my mom.. Telling me I have to eat more... Now this is in front of my whole family plus aunt, uncle, grandma and cousins.. And she said that I do this for control, but I have lost control.. I argued that I didn't, yet with everyone else telling me the disease is controlling me and tells me when and what I can eat and I lost the control... So it was basically prove it by eating the high calorie and greasy shit or let them keep talking .. So to shut them up and prove that I'm right (not really sure I am) I ate and ate and ate... The whole night ... As all eyes watched me... Then when the party was over I cried and I told my mom that she was horribly wrong for doing that to me...
(Meanwhile she attended a theory session with me,purely focused on anorexia and how it is a mental illness and the therapist tried to explain everything to her in the session.... Yeah guess that was a freakin waste of time)
So yeah not a binge.. But as I sit here now I feel I made the wrong decision .. I'm 28 and have had this illness for such a long time..I don't have to prove anything to anyone... I guess I was more embarrassed then anything and outnumbered... I didn't want to get up and leave because my cousin didn't say a word. And it was her party after dinner.. So I just stayed .. But when it was over my mom heard it from me and still yesterday was hearing it from me .. And of course my poor fiancé is left with the crying anorexic...
Pathetic...
Oh honey *hug*
I have been in pretty much this EXACT situation in the past. It is horrible on so many levels...
Hope you are ok. Sorry. I wasn't there for this weekend xxx
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Posted 09 February 2015 - 06:22 AM
IsButterACarb?, on 09 Feb 2015 - 06:20 AM, said:
Oh honey *hug*
I have been in pretty much this EXACT situation in the past. It is horrible on so many levels...
Hope you are ok. Sorry. I wasn't there for this weekend xxx
It was damn miserable.... I'm sorry you went through it too.. And it's ok Hun...
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Posted 10 February 2015 - 05:24 AM
Extra hungry today for some reason so trying to avoid a binge and stay low in cals (not easy)
Wafer cookies - 65 cals
Simply scrumptious cinnamon donut - 90 cals
1 mini Creme cookie - 25
Grapes - 50 cals
Simply scrumptious banana muffin - 50 cals
Pretzels - 150 cals
Fiber 1 chocolate cereal - 100 cals
Total = 565
Yeah definitely ate more then I wanted to today.. My orthostatic hypotension was acting up horribly..notice the 150 calories in pretzels for the extra salt... Medicine was only bringing my pressure up to daily average of 89/50.... Had a neuropsychology exam and really didn't want to pass out there so unfortunately had to do what I had to do....
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Posted 11 February 2015 - 07:01 AM
Weigh in tomorrow... Trying to keep my intake low ..
Simply scrumptious lemon cake - 70 cals
Chocolate rite chocolate squares - 40 cals
Honeydew- 25 cals
Simply scrumptious peanut butter brownie - 60 cals
Small salad - 60 cals
Kanten pasta with mini veggie burger - 80
Simply scrumptious barb muffin - 50
Thin slim chocolate glazed cookie - 45
Total = 430
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Posted 12 February 2015 - 05:20 AM
Weigh in day... 99.0 lbs :-)
BMI 15.9 - finally out of the 16's!
Finally heading in the right direction.. Needless to say, I am happy with this weeks weigh in. Now just have to keep it going..
.....nothing so far
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wow, this accountability is really opening my eyes. Back when I was at my lowest weight of 100 lbs I remember I used to restrict my calories and I would feel horrible - wish you luck
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#5101809Reaching UGW once and for all **<3CLOSED<3**
Posted by on 12 February 2015 - 06:26 AM in Competitions and Challenges
Billythewilly, on 11 Feb 2015 - 6:13 PM, said:
Hey guys, so I haven't been on mpa in ages, struggling with food a lot lately. Could you just delete me off the challenge? Sorry, good luck everyone! I may join another challenge in the future (: xx
Sure sweety.. Hope everything works out for you xo
#5101805Reaching UGW once and for all **<3CLOSED<3**
Posted by on 12 February 2015 - 06:25 AM in Competitions and Challenges
Speaking of updates I haven't got any in 2 weeks!!!!!!! Come on ladies you can do this !!
#5101559Skinny by Summer || Jan 01 → July 01 || NEW THREAD, CLOSED
Posted by on 12 February 2015 - 05:40 AM in Competitions and Challenges
Already sent in an update for you ;-)
#5101518Reaching UGW once and for all **<3CLOSED<3**
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#5101513I will not fail- mini goals for encouragement
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#5101503What time of the day is your last coffee ?
Posted by on 12 February 2015 - 05:27 AM in Anorexia Discussions
PolishSuicidalAna, on 11 Feb 2015 - 4:25 PM, said:
I have sleeping problems too. When you fall asleep? My average is around 3-4 am in the morning, get up at 6. Then on weekends I get more around 5-6 hours of sleep! Yah!
Ugh it's different every night for me..could be 1-3 hours but my biggest problem is waking up every single hour of the night....I wake up between 5-6am also ...usually closer to 6... My dr wanted me to go for a sleep study test to see the reason, but I don't want to..the anxiety of being there would totally screw up the results ..so it would be useless and sleeping pills suck
#5101459<3Watch Me as I Get down to 90 pounds<3.... ******With Pictures******
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Weigh in day... 99.0 lbs :-)
BMI 15.9 - finally out of the 16's!
Finally heading in the right direction.. Needless to say, I am happy with this weeks weigh in. Now just have to keep it going..
.....nothing so far
#5094588banned from myfitnesspal!
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 12:37 PM in General ED Discussions
I just created an accountability on here ..and if necessary use calorie king to look up calories
#5094559What time of the day is your last coffee ?
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#5094500Skinny by Summer // Jan 01 → Jun 01 // CLOSED
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 12:28 PM in Competitions and Challenges
LimitlessBounds, on 11 Feb 2015 - 10:52 AM, said:
So I'm 203.6 today wow. I've come a long way.
You will be out off the 200's so soon!!
#5093756how much to lose
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 11:11 AM in Selfies
purple potato, on 10 Feb 2015 - 6:59 PM, said:
how much should I lose to have a real thigh gap.
What are your stats?
#5093748how much to lose
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 11:10 AM in Selfies
AnythingButOrdinary, on 11 Feb 2015 - 08:14 AM, said:
I am! I love being a mom. It was unplanned, and it's difficult, but sooo worth it.
Same here!! Soo worth it though and my little family of 3 is happy and I couldn't of asked for a better fiancé
And to OP you look great..maybe 5 more lbs might help a little along with the toning exercises..
#50937105'2, 93 pounds. How much more should I lose?
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 11:05 AM in Selfies
#5093695My recovered body. Guess the weight?
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#5093644Skinny by Summer // Jan 01 → Jun 01 // CLOSED
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Forever-Hiding, on 11 Feb 2015 - 05:09 AM, said:
ok well seeing as the poster is out of this challenge so am i x goodluck if anyone stays with this but i need a challenge which is gonna last xx gl tho xx
Patience Hun... JustBreathe is already taking over the challenge!
#5093577Skinny by Summer // Jan 01 → Jun 01 // CLOSED
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 10:51 AM in Competitions and Challenges
JustBreathe., on 10 Feb 2015 - 10:32 PM, said:
True, i'm sure there's a ton of inactives. I'll go through it and do all the deletions & updates then make a new thread if everyone (especially the OP) is okay with me taking over
Thanks for taking over!!!
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#5093402Skinny by Summer // Jan 01 → Jun 01 // CLOSED
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#5093294Skinny by Summer // Jan 01 → Jun 01 // CLOSED
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Pernicious, on 10 Feb 2015 - 10:59 AM, said:
Please let me drop weight on my new diet plan
Please let me drop weight on my new diet plan
Please let me drop weight on my new diet plan
You will... I know it...
Please let me have a decent weight tomorrow morning!!!!
#5092242IsButterACarb? Food and other issues (TW. Always a TW)
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 08:19 AM in Accountability
IsButterACarb?, on 10 Feb 2015 - 07:57 AM, said:
Your not mad... Well maybe you are and so am I!? Quite possibly.. But I have had these days.. I have actually bought $40 worth of pre plan binge food laid it out on my kitchen table and completely freaked out I made my fiancé put it all in the trunk to bring to my moms and tell her it was food we bought and no one was eating... Yeah I cried and cried ... Fuck anorexia ..like you said... And I know all too much about those damn recovery conversations.. Even worse is my fiancé works in a psych ward so he knows all the specifics and annoys the hell out of me.. But the last convo had made so suicidal he never talked about it again... Ugh poor guy.. Hate how everyone suffers over this illness...10th Feb 2015 - continued
To be honest, I'm struggling today. I feel like I physically and mentally pushed myself just that little bit too far and as a result, am in one of those "I fucking hate you anorexia" moods where I have a very real wish to eat loads of shit... But can't actually do it. I don't know if anyone can relate to this... But for me, it feels like the times I really want to just say "fuck it" and eat whatever the damn hell I want are the times when the reality of restrictive AN really hits home. I know you all think I am mad (and to be fair, you have a point) but to be honest, I would give anything to binge the hell out of ALL THE YUMMY FOOD right now... I know everyone thinks not binging is their ultimate dream, and from a weight loss point of view, I can't deny... It works... But eugh. Sometimes, I wish I had the "ability" to eat whatever I crave. Today I literally spent twenty minutes in the bakery section at Tesco. Just looking. I read ALL THE LABELS. AGAIN. FOR THE A HUNDRED BILLIONTH TIME. I felt like everyone was staring at me. I don't think I was being entirely paranoid. I must have looked like such a freak. It all looked so good... There was some stuff there that I was (yet again...) pleasantly surprised by the the cal content (how many times the same information is going to "pleasantly surprise me" I cannot tell you) but... But... GAH.
I did actually buy some chocolate brioche things that are c.150 cals each... I figure that isn't too bad for the amount of yum. They also have quite a long shelf life on them... Which is always good. I'm almost hoping that I get to eat one at some point. If my anorexia will let me or not. Fucking anorexia.
Anyway... Back to the numbers...
Breakfast: ----
Lunch: lentil, cabbage, spinach and potato curry (250) <---I had no clue what to have for lunch today. My food plan just didn't happen. So I rummaged around in my freezer and found a frozen packet mix of lentil, spinach and potato curry that said it was 200 per serving (when made with oil... Which obviously didn't happen... I'm still counting it as 200 though)... But I added some cabbage, a splash of almond milk and extra curry powder to it. I don't know what it was like beforehand, but my alterations made is SO YUMMY (totally worth the extra 50 cals). Will definitely have this again at some point.
Dinner: I have no idea. I feel quite lost
Snack: bran, raisins, almond milk (150) <--- inevitable
TOTAL: I don't even know because wtf is happening with dinner guys? WHAT THE HELL CAN I EAT? I want everything and nothing. Lost. I'm lost.
I did my work out first thing... And seem to be getting a hang of more of the moves... I also did REAL ACTUAL PRESS UPS this morning, rather than the "slightly easier" (waaaaay easier) knees on the floor, feet up pseudo press up. I was (am) proud of that.
I have also walked today. I went further than I originally planned and it ended up being about a 5 mile round trip. This is where I feel I pushed myself too far. I didn't actually want to leave the house at all today. I just felt too anxious... but anorexia said "must walk"... And anorexia trumped anxiety today... I really wish I hadn't gone. It was mentally very tough on me. I cried as soon as I got home, and shouted at my husband for no reason at all
I also feel like I walked too far physically. You know those times when you can feel your arms floating and you can't quite walk in a straight line, and you feel nauseous, and you start getting pins and needles in your legs and weird stabbing pains and are literally afraid to look up lest you lose your focus and fall over? Well, that was me today. I felt really shit. I went too far for even myself. I had to slow down by necessity towards the end.
I want to cry to my husband. I want to tell him how far my ED pushed me today and how horrible that is... But I can't. Because it WILL lead to another "recovery conversation" and I actually don't think I'm mentally strong enough right now to even consider the weight gain prospect without going into meltdown.
How badly does this suck guys?!
If you made it this far.. Thank you. You totally deserve some sort of patience award.
And yeah about staring at the calories of the same foods over and over ..while everyone stares at me .. As I continue to do it all throughout the grocery store...
Funny is that I have more food for myself in the house then my fiancé and daughter combined then tripled.. Some sick compulsion with buying and buying food... Hope not much goes to waste as it does all have long shelf lives but it's ridiculous amounts of food for an anorexic...makes no sense at all
#5092166The Final Countdown (Closed)
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 08:12 AM in Competitions and Challenges
Forestwalksandfairylights, on 11 Feb 2015 - 08:07 AM, said:
SBMI: 21.3
CBMI: 20.9
down 0.4
You have to PM pernicious with that info
#5091970I will not fail- mini goals for encouragement
Posted by on 11 February 2015 - 07:44 AM in Accountability
Freek, on 11 Feb 2015 - 06:25 AM, said:
As soon as I look at a carb I inflate like a balloon. I can still feel it in my legs. With lots of carbs I look like someone in the last stages of heart failure I carry so much water! It's horrible. I definitely didn't have that many calories, even without purging. Mainly salads in fact...but I had bread. Bread is my nemesis. But also my love...
Fasting for as long as I can I think. No food. I need to be much less fat when I see them. The 5k run may be a bit of an issue but I'll go slowly and it should be ok.
We are all going to be so much happier by summer. This is the year I'll be more happy with how I look...
Good luck tomorrow for the weigh in and appointments. I've never seen therapists/psychologists but I'm sure I would dislike it intensely!
I understand now ... So you are definitely holding on to weight!!!
Thanks for the luck.. I'll need it...
Well honestly it took me 4 tries to find a therapist and psychologist I like and coincidentally they were both in the same building.. I don't enjoy going but it helps... And with the psychiatrist if your depression anxiety or whatever is bad enough.. You really have no choice but to see one... It came to that point for me about 3 years ago.. Before then I was just getting medicine from my GP
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Weigh in tomorrow... Trying to keep my intake low ..
Simply scrumptious lemon cake - 70 cals
Chocolate rite chocolate squares - 40 cals
Honeydew- 25 cals
Simply scrumptious peanut butter brownie - 60 cals
Small salad - 60 cals
Kanten pasta with mini veggie burger - 80
Simply scrumptious barb muffin - 50
Thin slim chocolate glazed cookie - 45
Total = 430
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Freek, on 10 Feb 2015 - 07:52 AM, said:
I suppose there have to be bad weeks in order to appreciate the good ones...I just wish I could show some restraint. I'm so weak. So day 1 of my fast today. I'd been eating and purging over the weekend but I lost 3.5 lbs of the just over 10 lbs I gained. So I've 7 or so to go to regain my LW. I can do that before next week I think.
I have my first 5 k of the year in just under 2 weeks and I've been unable to train. Hope I can do it. I'd quite like to fast until then... That might not be smart thought...
Yes that is true...I don't get how you gained 10lbs in such a short period?! If 3,500 = 1 pound... That means you had to eat 35,000 calories over the 4 days (I believe you said) that you were b/p'ing ...I'm sure you still have to be retaining food/water weight...
How long are you fasting for this time are you still planning on the 5 days fasting and 2 days with one meal?
Ugh weigh in tomorrow plus therapist and psychologist both in 1 day!! Tomorrow has the potential to be a really bad day... Or half and half good and bad... I'll definitely let you know how the weigh in goes ...stay strong.. We can do this!
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Lyrholl, on 10 Feb 2015 - 2:21 PM, said:
Yeah I've gotten down to 94lbs before and I'm actually happier now then I was back theN but rather doesn't stop me from trying to get back there
Isn't weird how our minds work.. Yeah I was definitely happier and felt better at 113, yet I still want to get back their too
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halfofmyheart, on 10 Feb 2015 - 08:10 AM, said:
I'm 5'6 also you look about 113 I'd have a better guess if I was able to see the size of your legs..
Damn son o.o you got it, I'm very impressed haha
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Lyrholl, on 10 Feb 2015 - 11:09 AM, said:
Damn son o.o you got it, I'm very impressed haha
Lol well I'm your height so it's kinda easier for me... It's funny because years ago 113 was my UGW ... Now I'm around 102 and extremely unhappy... Sucks how things change like that
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halfofmyheart, on 10 Feb 2015 - 11:58 AM, said:
Lol well I'm your height so it's kinda easier for me... It's funny because years ago 113 was my UGW ... Now I'm around 102 and extremely unhappy... Sucks how things change like that
Yeah I've gotten down to 94lbs before and I'm actually happier now then I was back theN but rather doesn't stop me from trying to get back there
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Lyrholl, on 10 Feb 2015 - 2:21 PM, said:
Yeah I've gotten down to 94lbs before and I'm actually happier now then I was back theN but rather doesn't stop me from trying to get back there
Isn't weird how our minds work.. Yeah I was definitely happier and felt better at 113, yet I still want to get back their too
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well I am 5ft7 so judging from my body I'd say ~50 kg?
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ooh, I just saw you already answered that you're 113, sorry I did not take the time to read all the answers... :-)
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pretty simple
All you gotta do is to BE ACTIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!on the thread,,keep everybody posted on whatever struggles you might be having and how is it going
and
UPDATE weekly by PMing your respective OP
you can choose any day of the week as your weigh in day,,just let your OP know on which day will you update weekly
it will help keep you motivated,,by updating weekly..and you can see your pounds crossed off as you reach your goals
fail to update 2 weeks in a row?you'll be deleted
and by update we dont mean that you absolutely MUST lose weight every week,,we know how hard it can be and how frustrating
you'll be deleted only if you just DISAPPEAR basically
no PM,no posting on the thread,,no letting us know prior to disappearing if there is a geniune reason for disappearing
SO YOU THINK YOU ARE READY TO REACH YOUR UGW??????????
thus thread is gonna be around for a long time,,till every last member has reached their UGW
so it needs to be active and personal
need to rant about anything??
need support??
advice??
this is your family,,your place!!!
we need only those members who are willing to make a collective effort to keep this thread active,,give/receive support for ED struggles,,get to know other members,,,have a family who is willing to take this journey with you,,and will be there for you in whatever struggles you might have(not just ED struggles,,you can ask for support for any problem here)..
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let this challange begin
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Good luck guys
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private, on 04 Dec 2014 - 12:25 PM, said:
good for you!It's been a good day. Yes indeed.
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the following members will update weekly by sending a PM to me
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Sorry to be a pain but would you mind getting rid of the huge gap between my name and stats? xD Kinda OCD sorry :L
Also could my name be typed like this? If possible... thanks
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all those who have not yet provided their stats,please PM me or halfofmyheart,whoever you are supposed to PM to
we are going to delete the members who have not provided their stats at all,or haven't responded yet
hope its going good for all of you
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ATTENTION
hey guys
all those who have not yet provided their stats,please PM me or halfofmyheart,whoever you are supposed to PM to
we are going to delete the members who have not provided their stats at all,or haven't responded yet
hope its going good for all of you
by respond, do you mean people who haven't posted in the thread? My stats haven't changed since I PM'd Ace, so I can't really update.
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nªdª, on 04 Dec 2014 - 7:25 PM, said:
by respond, do you mean people who haven't posted in the thread? My stats haven't changed since I PM'd Ace, so I can't really update.
no,i mean the people who have not provided their CW or UGW yet,,while they were supposed to by Dec 1st
but you are still supposed to update by PMing halfofmyheart weekly
mine havent changed either i hope next weigh in has good news for both of us
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wounded healer, on 04 Dec 2014 - 7:36 PM, said:
my body has decided to not comply with 'normal' rules of nutrition and diet
who maintains on below 500 cals/day..on NO FAT diet
feeling frustrated
Why are you doing a no fat diet? It's all about calories. Your body will burn better if you consume fat. And it's all about the calories anyway. I've been thinking about making a clean eating thread to see what people think about "clean" foods. There is a lot of garbage that people seem to think is food but I've been thinking about whether or not those things might actually be food that I could eat if I tried. Been reading about it. Do you not think that fats are actually food or not clean food?
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littlelittlerobot, on 04 Dec 2014 - 7:50 PM, said:
Why are you doing a no fat diet? It's all about calories. Your body will burn better if you consume fat. And it's all about the calories anyway. I've been thinking about making a clean eating thread to see what people think about "clean" foods. There is a lot of garbage that people seem to think is food but I've been thinking about whether or not those things might actually be food that I could eat if I tried. Been reading about it. Do you not think that fats are actually food or not clean food?
cant generalize like that,there are good as well as bad fats,,
but its not about fats being a good food or not
and you're right at the end of the day its the number of calories consumed/burned
but its more about being a fear food
i mean i kinda dont eat fruits either and they are as clean as it gets so
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wounded healer, on 04 Dec 2014 - 7:56 PM, said:
cant generalize like that,there are good as well as bad fats,,
but its not about fats being a good food or not
and you're right at the end of the day its the number of calories consumed/burned
but its more about being a fear food
i mean i kinda dont eat fruits either and they are as clean as it gets so
Yeah I generalize a lot of things like that though. I only eat a few foods and I eat them every single day. The same foods over and over because to me they are clean foods and safe to eat.
I'm just kind of confused about this.
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sorry it took me so long to find this. ^^ I've been off and on for a while, but I'm ready to get my shit together.
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Lol ok fixed it and since I don't have colored text you made it easy for me by typing out the html code that pops up when I quote you :-)Sorry to be a pain but would you mind getting rid of the huge gap between my name and stats? xD Kinda OCD sorry :L
Also could my name be typed like this? If possible... thanks
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Bye everyone, dropping out.
Hope you're ok.
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Freek, on 12 Mar 2015 - 05:16 AM, said:
Not really hahaHope you're ok.
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Not really haha
I always worry when someone drops out of all challenges. Anything we can do to help? Lots of sympathetic ears on here...may help to have a little rant?
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Freek, on 12 Mar 2015 - 05:36 AM, said:
I am just done with all the ranting.. I just don't have the strength to keep on going..I always worry when someone drops out of all challenges. Anything we can do to help? Lots of sympathetic ears on here...may help to have a little rant?
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private, on 12 Mar 2015 - 07:02 AM, said:
I am just done with all the ranting.. I just don't have the strength to keep on going..
Sorry things are rough right now, hope it gets better.
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Idk what to put here
But I guess I just wanted to say hey
Hope you guys are ok
I'm really sorry that I haven't been active at all...I've held my fingers over keyboard countless times but I seem to be mute or whatever ..
But I'm ok .. Hope you all are too
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Big hugs.I am so very tired of everything...
Idk what to put here
But I guess I just wanted to say hey
Hope you guys are ok
I'm really sorry that I haven't been active at all...I've held my fingers over keyboard countless times but I seem to be mute or whatever ..
But I'm ok .. Hope you all are too
I often find that I log in but can't think what or how to type.
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I have a psych appointment next week and I never know how to express myself - just want to scream. Feel so shit about work tomorrow... All desire to go back is completely gone.
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Shy_Mouse, on 15 Mar 2015 - 09:04 AM, said:
Everything has gone to shit, I was doing okay - restricting, losing, I had routine... Then something happened at work that was effectively me being publicly shamed for something that wasn't true. Now I'm so anxious and paranoid, I'm terrified to return to work. I've comfort ate most the weekend and just keep crying.
I have a psych appointment next week and I never know how to express myself - just want to scream. Feel so shit about work tomorrow... All desire to go back is completely gone.
That's terrible ..I hope you find strength hugs
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Posted 22 March 2015 - 02:42 PM
All the threads I'm following have gone so quiet. I need to be distracted tonight. Really trying to keep away from the blade and way too early for bed yet.
So far I've cleaned the kitchen/living room and the bathroom...I'm running out of rooms to clean.
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HW: 216 lbs (ugh)
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CW: 118.5 lbs
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Posted 24 March 2015 - 02:41 AM
Day 2 of my fast begins. I've lost 2.5 lbs since yesterday. Such a long way to go. Feeling pretty down again today. Fasting used to give me such a buzz but now I still feel empty inside. Maybe it'll feel better when I lose more, when I fast longer. They are the only tools I have to work with. I don't know how to make things better. I should be looking forward to my weekend away with my family but instead I'm dreading it. I will need to get dressed up but I'm really limited in what I can wear as I've new cuts in really obvious places. Wore my 'safe' t shirt to the GP appointment yesterday and it moved a little so she saw them. I'm so white any red marks are so obvious.
Can't focus, can't take too much more of this.
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HW: 216 lbs (ugh)
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GW 1: 160, GW 2: 150, GW 3: 140, GW 4: 130, GW 5: 120, GW 6: 110, UGW: 99 lbs atm but I'll know when I get there...
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Posted 11 March 2015 - 01:38 PM
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Posted 13 February 2015 - 04:23 PM
I have now decided that this CAN NOT continue. From now on I will not make rules, plans or count calories (okay, I might do that....). I will weigh in every thursday and I will update when I have the time. Hopefully from my computer instead of my phone.
Hw this year: 128
Cw: 126.5
UGW:99
Wish me luck!
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Posted 13 February 2015 - 05:55 PM
For the same reason as you, of course, haha. I feel obligated to rebel against my own rules and ruin my progress.
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Posted 13 February 2015 - 10:24 PM
emaciating, on 13 Feb 2015 - 5:55 PM, said:
I'm trying g to live without rules too!
For the same reason as you, of course, haha. I feel obligated to rebel against my own rules and ruin my progress.
I'm exactly the same! It's it is in my nature to mess things up for myself. And to be honest, all the planing and Shit it self makes me want to binge..
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Posted 14 February 2015 - 04:41 AM
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Posted 14 February 2015 - 12:05 PM
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Posted 15 February 2015 - 01:30 AM
Yesterday I bought this heart rate monitor that I will use at the gym to see how much I am burning. Today before work is the first time I will be using it. So excited!
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Posted 15 February 2015 - 11:07 AM
Cals eaten: 800-1000
Cals burnt: 470
Steps taken (so far): 12000
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Posted 15 February 2015 - 10:32 PM
Cw: 126.1 lbs / 57.2 kg
waist: 64 cm
Thigh (thickest part): 54 cm
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Posted 16 February 2015 - 01:09 PM
So today was a bad bad day but tomorrow is a new day. I am now officially broke so won't be able to buy bingefoods, this is good. I have to sleep now, my pills are making me wierd..
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Posted 16 February 2015 - 11:21 PM
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Posted 17 February 2015 - 06:04 AM
Tonight I work so I won't be tempted to binge there, like that!
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Posted 20 February 2015 - 08:58 AM
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I am having both a great time and a horrible time..Hope you're having lots of fun! Followed
Thank you! Now while I am here I won't be able to update my weight but I will try and write something.
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Posted 22 February 2015 - 06:16 AM
I am now focusing on the excersise and being happy more than the calories. This meaning; just at lunch with two drinks and painted my nails. Feel pretty.
My Mother said (yesterday) that I was getting so thin again, it was Nice. Motivation.
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Posted 26 February 2015 - 08:19 AM
Otherwise I am not doing so good, feeling really low today.. Hopefully I will have a weight to write tomorrow but we will see, am a bit afraid of stepping on the scale. Feels like I am out of control, my boyfriend really wants me to seek help and recover but I am not ready to recover from a sickness I don't want to realise I have. Need to atleast be 50 kg before I try and recover..
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Posted 26 February 2015 - 08:55 AM
Sometimes I just feel like I am failing. I can't loose weight but I can't "recover" either. I don't know what to do and I feel so alone in this. I know I can talk to my boyfriend about it but at the same time I know that I am clumpsy with words and he sometimes gets me wrong. This leads to "fights" and my fear of talking gets worse.
I should get up and go out walking but right now I just can't seem to find a reason even to keep on breathing so I don't think I am able to.. I wish I was normal and sane.
I wrote two songs, maybe I could keep working on them.. I don't know.
Rant over.
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Posted 26 February 2015 - 10:30 PM
I hate myself so much.
I just weighed in and I ended up at 57.7 kg / 127,2 lbs.
I know I am on my period and I know I sat on a plane for 6 hours and I know I ate to much yesterday and I know I only had one bm for a week but it still kills me! It kills me to see that I have fucked everything up just by going to dubai.. I forgot to take my meds yester night aswell so I am not doing well.
I have to make a change, I will walk everywhere today! I know I can change this weight and get down to my LW, I know I can. I just need to always remember that!
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