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Posted Yesterday, 08:08 AM
Countdown Day 14/60
SW: 120.2 lbs (54.5 kg) BMI: 22.7 BF%: 27.3
CW: 115.8 lbs (52.5 kg) BMI: 21.9 BF%: 25.4
Steps: 10,826/10,000
Calories Burned: 2179
Calories Consumed: 582/500
Calorie Deficit: 1597
Carbs: 96g Fat: 20g Protein: 8g Sugar: 5g
Intake:
Notes:
Planned on fasting today but I ended up eating dinner when I got home from work. Today was a shitshow. I was so damn clumsy i spilt my monster twice, after the second time i ended up crying and punching myself and nearly spiralled into a panic attack over how worthless and retarded I am. So embarrassing. My boss is a queen though. She told me to take a minute in the back and she went and bought me a brand new monster. I nearly cried again when she gave it to me lol. My bf also stopped by to give me pain meds bc my head was bruised and throbbing, i really walloped myself. Then later in the afternoon I saw bitchface that spurred on my relapse in winter 2020. That was really triggering and I was so happy I hadn’t eaten in so many hours or I wouldn’t have been able to face her. Shes still thinner than me and it gives me so much anxiety thinking about how obese she must think I look.
Anyways I ended my fast at 46hrs. I plan to fast Sunday/Monday if possible. I need to drink more water though. Only had a glass and a couple sips from a water bottle.
SW: 120.2 lbs (54.5 kg) BMI: 22.7 BF%: 27.3
CW: 115.8 lbs (52.5 kg) BMI: 21.9 BF%: 25.4
Steps: 10,826/10,000
Calories Burned: 2179
Calories Consumed: 582/500
Calorie Deficit: 1597
Carbs: 96g Fat: 20g Protein: 8g Sugar: 5g
Intake:
Spoiler
Dairy free
Gluten free
Sugar* free
Alcohol free
Snack
1.5 Monster zero ultra
Dinner
Spicy fire noodles with extra green onion
Dairy free
Gluten free
Sugar* free
Alcohol free
Snack
1.5 Monster zero ultra
Dinner
Spicy fire noodles with extra green onion
Notes:
Planned on fasting today but I ended up eating dinner when I got home from work. Today was a shitshow. I was so damn clumsy i spilt my monster twice, after the second time i ended up crying and punching myself and nearly spiralled into a panic attack over how worthless and retarded I am. So embarrassing. My boss is a queen though. She told me to take a minute in the back and she went and bought me a brand new monster. I nearly cried again when she gave it to me lol. My bf also stopped by to give me pain meds bc my head was bruised and throbbing, i really walloped myself. Then later in the afternoon I saw bitchface that spurred on my relapse in winter 2020. That was really triggering and I was so happy I hadn’t eaten in so many hours or I wouldn’t have been able to face her. Shes still thinner than me and it gives me so much anxiety thinking about how obese she must think I look.
Anyways I ended my fast at 46hrs. I plan to fast Sunday/Monday if possible. I need to drink more water though. Only had a glass and a couple sips from a water bottle.
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Posted Yesterday, 05:04 PM
It sucks coming home feeling strong on a fast, then cooking dinner for my boyfriend and ohgod the smell makes me weak. I made him ginger honey pork and rice. Smells fucking divine. Looks incredible. Literally drooling.
I need to at least get 10k steps in before I eat. Ugh i hate how my headspace changes to ‘eating time’ as soon as I get home. Why can’t i just effortlessly fast at home like when I’m out and about.
I need to at least get 10k steps in before I eat. Ugh i hate how my headspace changes to ‘eating time’ as soon as I get home. Why can’t i just effortlessly fast at home like when I’m out and about.
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Posted Today, 05:08 AM
Countdown Day 15/60
SW: 120.2 lbs (54.5 kg) BMI: 22.7 BF%: 27.3
CW: 114.8 lbs (52.0 kg) BMI: 21.7 BF%: 25.2
Steps: 10,660/10,000
Calories Burned: 2252
Calories Consumed: 1117/500
Calorie Deficit: 1135
Carbs: 198g Fat: 36g Protein: 19g Sugar: 68g
Intake:
Notes:
Yet another day where I plan to fast but end up eating anyways. At least I didn’t full on binge. I definitely went overboard though. Got my 10k steps in and fasted 19 hours.
I joined twitter to trigger myself and oh boi is it working. The fatphobia is insane on there. And im the kind of person that usually says fatphobia isn’t real. But legit they will call you fattie on edtwt for interacting with someone while still at a normal bmi. Found that out the hard way lol.
SW: 120.2 lbs (54.5 kg) BMI: 22.7 BF%: 27.3
CW: 114.8 lbs (52.0 kg) BMI: 21.7 BF%: 25.2
Steps: 10,660/10,000
Calories Burned: 2252
Calories Consumed: 1117/500
Calorie Deficit: 1135
Carbs: 198g Fat: 36g Protein: 19g Sugar: 68g
Intake:
Spoiler
Dairy free
Gluten free
Sugar* free
Alcohol free
Snack
1 Monster zero ultra
Dinner
Spicy fire noodles with extra green onion
After dinner unnecessary shit
Sour cherry candy
1 hot dog with bun
Handful of salt and vinegar chips
Dairy free
Gluten free
Sugar* free
Alcohol free
Snack
1 Monster zero ultra
Dinner
Spicy fire noodles with extra green onion
After dinner unnecessary shit
Sour cherry candy
1 hot dog with bun
Handful of salt and vinegar chips
Notes:
Yet another day where I plan to fast but end up eating anyways. At least I didn’t full on binge. I definitely went overboard though. Got my 10k steps in and fasted 19 hours.
I joined twitter to trigger myself and oh boi is it working. The fatphobia is insane on there. And im the kind of person that usually says fatphobia isn’t real. But legit they will call you fattie on edtwt for interacting with someone while still at a normal bmi. Found that out the hard way lol.
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Posted Today, 05:17 AM
Gained a pound of food/water weight from eating yesterday. (Back to 115.8) I’m fully confident it isn’t real weight but it still makes me feel like dogshit. Doesn’t help that I eat late (6-8pm) then weigh early (6am). Food doesn’t move through my system fast enough. Makes me feel so gross.
Instead of fasting today I’m gonna eat a couple meals. Another 1000ish cal day. Then maybe back to fasting once i’m fuelled with food other than just ramen lol.
Instead of fasting today I’m gonna eat a couple meals. Another 1000ish cal day. Then maybe back to fasting once i’m fuelled with food other than just ramen lol.
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