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no purging at all
Started by quasimodogirl, May 13 2022 05:55 PM
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Posted 13 May 2022 - 05:55 PM
not sure exactly where to start with my new accountability but for those of you who dont know me, im bulimic and have been for several years. recently i have been able to maintain between 90 - 100 lbs really easily at 5'5" but i am just so tired of knowing that my actual life doesn't exist yet because of my addiction. So im going to document my days and intakes here in another attempt to get rid of it forever, so i can be happy
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Posted 13 May 2022 - 05:57 PM
plan
small calorie deficit every day, i will be workshopping this aspect. also, high protein + exercise. purging is absolutely outlawed. i want to keep losing but anything to keep me from purging is way more important at the moment
small calorie deficit every day, i will be workshopping this aspect. also, high protein + exercise. purging is absolutely outlawed. i want to keep losing but anything to keep me from purging is way more important at the moment
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Posted 13 May 2022 - 11:22 PM
5/13/21
intake
ootd
thoughts
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chips 320
yogurt 60
apple 95
jello 5
salad 375
sweet potato chips 85
unpictured chips and salsa 150
1089 total
chips 320
yogurt 60
apple 95
jello 5
salad 375
sweet potato chips 85
unpictured chips and salsa 150
1089 total
ootd
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thoughts
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today was fine as a first day without purging. tomorrow im hitting the gym and am gonna try to eat a lot healthier
somehow i had a lot of thoughts earlier but cant recall any of them right now
i also was able to engage in hobbies
my brother and i watched a movie that neither of us had seen before.
today was fine as a first day without purging. tomorrow im hitting the gym and am gonna try to eat a lot healthier
somehow i had a lot of thoughts earlier but cant recall any of them right now
i also was able to engage in hobbies
my brother and i watched a movie that neither of us had seen before.- StarvingLlama*-* likes this
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Posted 14 May 2022 - 06:25 AM
quasimodogirl, on 13 May 2022 - 11:22 PM, said:
Omg I had no idea you're so pretty5/13/21
intakeSpoiler
chips 320
yogurt 60
apple 95
jello 5
salad 375
sweet potato chips 85
unpictured chips and salsa 150
1089 total
ootdSpoiler
thoughtsSpoiler
today was fine as a first day without purging. tomorrow im hitting the gym and am gonna try to eat a lot healthier
somehow i had a lot of thoughts earlier but cant recall any of them right now
i also was able to engage in hobbies
I wish you good luck with quitting BPing you've got this<3
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Posted 14 May 2022 - 09:42 PM
5/14/22
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last night i didnt sleep until 5 am cuz of how much i wished i could b/p so i basically planned this all ahead of time. i think tomorrow will be this way too but maybe there wont be trigger foods in the house anymore on monday? also had such HORRIBLE body image today. Going to the gym to play basketball and run was fun but wearing shorts made me want to puke because of how aware i was of my thighs. Aside from the bp i definitely notice that every day im working hard to include more activities so hopefully it pays off soon
last night i didnt sleep until 5 am cuz of how much i wished i could b/p so i basically planned this all ahead of time. i think tomorrow will be this way too but maybe there wont be trigger foods in the house anymore on monday? also had such HORRIBLE body image today. Going to the gym to play basketball and run was fun but wearing shorts made me want to puke because of how aware i was of my thighs. Aside from the bp i definitely notice that every day im working hard to include more activities so hopefully it pays off soon
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Posted 14 May 2022 - 09:44 PM
StarvingLlama*-*, on 14 May 2022 - 06:25 AM, said:
Thanks doll. Having ur support means a lot. Whn i read your posts i wish we could be friends irlOmg I had no idea you're so pretty
I wish you good luck with quitting BPing you've got this<3
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Ty for saying im pretty also, thats so nice :')
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Posted 15 May 2022 - 06:08 AM
quasimodogirl, on 14 May 2022 - 9:44 PM, said:
Thanks doll. Having ur support means a lot. Whn i read your posts i wish we could be friends irl
Ty for saying im pretty also, thats so nice :')
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Aww thank you that's nice of you to say
And you're welcome!
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Posted 16 May 2022 - 01:02 AM
5/15/22
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even from the second i woke up my thoughts were laser focused on purging. i had to be at work in 2 hours and i decided to binge and purge anyways. Gastroparesis has its perks and therefore i will usually binge for several hours before puking, like two or three, but desperation in this case made me forgo my ordinary behavioral pattern
Rly weird. As u can see by my outfit i really didnt put effort into my appearance today either cuz of this. At the moment that im writing this i feel wiped out since i puked after work. I had REALLY wanted to do chores before b/p but the most i accomplished was a little bit of tidying and as far as hobbies went i really only got to listen to a lil bit of new music.
Even though i dont feel emotionally sad re: todays events it does make me sad to type out because it sounds like i really have no control. I feel happy almost every day truly but i think it's dependant on obeying all my compulsions. Sucks.
I hope theres people out there reading tho. If not it is ok cuz i have a new therapist this week and maybe it isnt a waste of time to be logging diligently. Thats all for sunday tho
even from the second i woke up my thoughts were laser focused on purging. i had to be at work in 2 hours and i decided to binge and purge anyways. Gastroparesis has its perks and therefore i will usually binge for several hours before puking, like two or three, but desperation in this case made me forgo my ordinary behavioral pattern
Rly weird. As u can see by my outfit i really didnt put effort into my appearance today either cuz of this. At the moment that im writing this i feel wiped out since i puked after work. I had REALLY wanted to do chores before b/p but the most i accomplished was a little bit of tidying and as far as hobbies went i really only got to listen to a lil bit of new music.
Even though i dont feel emotionally sad re: todays events it does make me sad to type out because it sounds like i really have no control. I feel happy almost every day truly but i think it's dependant on obeying all my compulsions. Sucks.
I hope theres people out there reading tho. If not it is ok cuz i have a new therapist this week and maybe it isnt a waste of time to be logging diligently. Thats all for sunday tho
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