timothee chalamet in beautiful boy?
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Posted 14 February 2022 - 12:42 AM
not sure if anyone can answer this but wanted to drop a topic just in case
i saw that timothee chalamet got down to like a 16.1 bmi for beautiful boy by eating something he compared to the protein goo from snowpiercer? not that i wanna eat it but im just super curious about specifics lol i cant find anything more in depth online
he lost like 18lbs which is crazy bc he was already barely in the healthy weight range lol
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Posted 14 February 2022 - 04:59 AM
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Posted 14 February 2022 - 05:21 AM
Sorry for the useless reply but Timothee Chalamet is literally as triggering to me as any ulta thin woman.
I wonder if he'll come out with more info about his "crazy diet" or whatever in time, like what we saw with actors like Joaquin Phoenix. Apparently his bmi was about 19 in Joker and he looked emaciated. I haven't seen what Timothee looks like in this new movie yet.
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Posted 14 February 2022 - 05:54 PM
LedaFae, on 14 Feb 2022 - 05:21 AM, said:
Sorry for the useless reply but Timothee Chalamet is literally as triggering to me as any ulta thin woman.
I wonder if he'll come out with more info about his "crazy diet" or whatever in time, like what we saw with actors like Joaquin Phoenix. Apparently his bmi was about 19 in Joker and he looked emaciated. I haven't seen what Timothee looks like in this new movie yet.
I’m actually way more triggered by very thin men (especially male actors who lose a lot for a role) than I am women. Not sure why either. Just watched Nightcrawler and Jake Gyllenhaal in that calls to me.
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Posted 15 February 2022 - 12:04 AM
katezwa, on 14 Feb 2022 - 04:59 AM, said:
Lol I literally watched that interview last week and was wondering the same thing. I thought maybe he was just comparing it to the protein goo because he ate some kind of bar/shake meal replacement? Something very nutrient dense in a small size.
ohh maybe i guess? if so he phrased it rlly weirdly lol i pictured him eating like tasteless tofu and i wanted him to explain how he avoided real food haha
LedaFae, on 14 Feb 2022 - 05:21 AM, said:
Sorry for the useless reply but Timothee Chalamet is literally as triggering to me as any ulta thin woman.
I wonder if he'll come out with more info about his "crazy diet" or whatever in time, like what we saw with actors like Joaquin Phoenix. Apparently his bmi was about 19 in Joker and he looked emaciated. I haven't seen what Timothee looks like in this new movie yet.
i hope so lol fingers crossed interviewers keep asking him abt it, i need the full story
katezwa, on 14 Feb 2022 - 5:54 PM, said:
I’m actually way more triggered by very thin men (especially male actors who lose a lot for a role) than I am women. Not sure why either. Just watched Nightcrawler and Jake Gyllenhaal in that calls to me.
i agree idk why! i think its bc i have that mindset where part of the reason i want to be thin is to be smaller than the men around me, so seeing super skinny men is like a red alert that i need to lower my gw lol jared leto in requiem for a dream lives rent free in my empty head
if i remember correctly timothee was 113lbs in beautiful boy which is crazy, there are literal female models who weigh more than him
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Posted 17 February 2022 - 05:41 PM
wednesday feb 16
white choc cookie (200)
shin light ramyun (340) finally bought more of these
white rice (110)
lil bit black bean chicken (190)
2 hash browns (240)
fried egg (90)
total: 1170
wfh day, honestly not as bad as it could have been but im still thinking nicotine is a good idea, im not a high road kinda girl anyway 
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Posted 20 February 2022 - 07:21 PM
sunday feb 20 | 159.6 | 29.2
been eating around maintenance the last few days, including today. not feeling great, i think maybe my period is coming soon idk
made plans next weekend to go clubbing, then again on the weekend of 3/11, then potentially doing a beach week around 4/10. aiming for 145 by then but i think im putting on muscle? i measured my waist and its the same as it was when i was 153, usually my waist is a p good indicator of my weight so i think body comp has changed slightly
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Posted 27 February 2022 - 11:53 AM
sunday feb 27 | 158.8 (-0.8) | 29.0
sorry to drop off the face of the earth, weirdly i've been less strict about counting calories and managed to eat less? averaging around 1300 this week with 3 gym days, stopped weighing myself every day and just rely on the tape measure which i feel is better for my sanity and makes more sense anyway
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Posted 28 February 2022 - 10:21 PM
monday feb 28
total: 970
+30m treadmill (-150)
net: 820
i just started my period yesterday and i have plans for clubbing saturday night 
praying the bloat goes down by then
lately i've been doing this thing where i dont rlly track what i eat as the day goes but then at the end of the night i'll tally it up and weirdly its been lower, i also started vaping again so idk if thats helping but i think its just a placebo bc i dont hit it that often
hoping to get down to 29.5 waist by saturday idk i feel like thats the most i can expect, gnna fast on friday to be sure but then they wanna do dinner before club ugh. i feel like i have 3 friend groups:
1. skinny friends who make me not wanna eat. they are fun but i feel like fatty mcfat when i am with them tbh
2. skinny asian friends who i still feel like fatty mcfat with but not as bad, i have a good time
3. normal size (no shade) friends who i feel much more comfortable around and i think i have the best time. this is who im going out with this weekend so i have less anxiety than i normally would about what im gnna wear, etc
idk if im just comforted being around ppl who arent smaller than me? its toxic af lol i also love hanging around my skinny friends bc i dont eat, like over new years weekend i tallied it up and i think i ate 1400 cals (excluding alcohol) over the course of 3 days
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Posted 12 March 2022 - 06:12 PM
friday mar 11
1x aperol spritz (160)
1x mezcal margarita (200)
i ate nothing all day before these so i was s p i n n i n g it was great
1 slice pepperoni pizza (250)
total: 610
hectic but a good day, i went straight into the city after work ready to fuck shit up but we ended up doing sth low key and it was great, went to a cute lil bar and just got a table and chatted, then went back to my friends apt, ordered pizza, chatted some more, went to sleep
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Posted 12 March 2022 - 06:19 PM
saturday mar 12
taylor ham, egg, & cheese on a salt bagel (600)
hot pot, too hard to list (800)
total: 1400
i gave up counting steps this weekend mostly bc i dont rlly like wearing my fitbit out (dont like how it looks) and i dont trust the steps data from my phone bc i sometimes have it in my pocket, sometimes in my coat, sometimes in my bag idk. i think i got a decent amount of steps in tho and also i was carrying a heavy bag for half the day lol, i need to learn how to pack lighter
in summary a good weekend! its things like this that make me think if i moved to the city id have a much easier time losing weight, i would just have so much more to distract me. id also be exhausted tho lol my social stamina is not up there
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Posted 15 March 2022 - 05:50 PM
spent the last two years gaining weight until at one point i was literally ounces away from being obese... now attempting to get back to my high school body but have only lost 7lb so far so i have a long long way to go
i play around with a lot of different versions of myself but at the moment im going for ~epic career girl~ i know what i want to do and i know what i need to do to get there, im just waiting for the time to be right. i promised my current job another 6 months (pending a possible promotion/raise) so i plan to use this time to finally lose the chub so that if i do move on in september, im not ashamed of the body i carry into my future
age: 22
height: 5'2
cw: ~158
gw1: 135
gw2: 120
gw3: 110
ugw: 95
for short term goals, i'd like to reach 153-154 by the end of the month which i know is doable, i just have to stop thinking about food all the time lol. also im gnna try to post pics of the things i eat that dont have nutrition labels or arent preportioned, i live at home so occasionally i have family meals and also i eat out at least a couple times a month
wish me luck! ednos cycles are a bitch
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Posted 15 March 2022 - 10:13 PM
tuesday 3/15
weight: no weigh in
waist: 30.5
chicken n sausage gumbo
cheddar sour cream ruffles
2 sq lasagna
1/2 blueberry muffin
bacon scramble
+25m treadmill
+10m stairclimber
total: 1200
working on getting my life more organized so i can be more productive, i spend too much time in bed watching tv and playing dumb phone games lol
trying to read more and also doing the nyt crossword, i can usually do the weekday ones but man the saturdays kill
lasagna pic in spoiler bc its rlly gross but im ~accountable ~
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Posted 16 March 2022 - 08:14 PM
wednesday 3/16
weight: no weigh in
waist: no measurement
1/2 pint ben & jerrys
shin ramyun
honey nut cheerios
total: 1500
shitty day lol i have a hard time controlling myself when i wfh
its not set in stone yet but i think im gnna see some friends on 4/23 so im gnna set a tentative gw of 148, i like to have these lil milestones in my head and i feel like i have to reach this one. if i dont get this weight off now i dont think itll ever happen and i dont wanna waste my youth being fat and hating myself
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Posted 17 March 2022 - 11:52 PM
thursday 3/17
weight: no weigh in
waist: 30.25 (-.25)
lays
chicken n sausage gumbo
+20m stairclimber
total: 430
tik tok is toxic but it keeps me from eating lol, you win some you lose some i guess. i got a flat this morning on my way to work, it was my first time
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Posted Yesterday, 10:54 PM
friday 3/18
weight: no weigh in
waist: 30.25
chicken n sausage gumbo
few bites ben & jerrys
jjajangmyeon
+10m stairclimber
+25m treadmill
total: 1030
no plans this weekend, just gnna run errands, clean, and catch up on s2 of euphoria lol i've managed to avoid spoilers so far, hoping its good!
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Posted Today, 09:40 PM
saturday 3/19
weight: no weigh in
waist: 30.25
1/2 pint ben & jerrys
jjajangmyeon
tteokbokki w/cheese & sausage
total: 1600
had a good couple days and blew it lmao. tmrw im going to see the new batman (finally) so that means movie snacksss i'll skip dinner to hopefully stay under 1200
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Posted 17 June 2021 - 10:21 AM
Made a decision to empty out 90% of my wardrobe
𝙋𝙧𝙤𝙨:
-Minimalistic
-More of what I'd actually wear
-Less indecisiveness
-More space
-Can buy new things without feeling bad
-Be inclined to make better decisions
-Purge stuff from the past/move on
-Not hold onto bigger or smaller things that I know I don't wear
𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙨:
-A lot has only been worn 0-2/3 times
-From thinner times
-Was gifted/thrifted and/or expensive so *guilt*
-Sentimental
-Diverse styles
The good outweighs the bad so it feels like this is a much needed improvement.
(I'll still be sad about it bc what is contentment anyways)
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Posted 17 June 2021 - 01:50 PM
Basically tldr; tired of my hair.
Cutting it off over and over again, growing it out again, and with that said, it's never reached the length I wanted.
Idc about being bald again at this point and yet I don't want to 'copy' D. which it wouldn't be but I am TIRED of doing it. Don't want to dye it again.
There is no fun in 'styling' anymore.
If I cut it to a length I don't completely hate, it'll just grow back out ᵘⁿᶜᵒᵐᶠᵒʳᵗᵃᵇˡʸ so that's off the table.
I've decided to not touch it:
-Not styling
-Straight up curly curls
-Wild/Untamed
(It's not like all my problems can be solved through some metamorphic change of hair/clothing/etc. but try and change my mind)
... Maybe one day it'll grow out long enough in the midst of all my fuckery and I can straighten it so that it hangs the way I can picture it in my head. Then probably end up shoving it into a top knot (bc old habits die hard).
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Posted 17 June 2021 - 09:51 PM
I don't know what's wrong (subjective but still) with me. My mood is going through a loop. Where I'm at in life is better than it was by a long shot; think B circa the last 5-7 years.
It's as much of a win as it is hollow.
Jaded as a characteristic isn't new and getting back to being bright eyed is a nice feeling yet that nothingness is what I need right now.
I feel like a breeding ground for hatred, like I don't let myself feel it that often that when I do like earlier, I'm filled with regret.
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Posted 18 June 2021 - 08:47 AM
Looks like B was hormonal and -as J puts it- doesn't know how to handle it so once a month becomes 'crazy.' It's like the dread keeps resurfacing only to be dealt with in the form of rage on my monthly. Makes me miss not having a period.
Despite my best obsessions, I won't be weighing myself until it calms down. On the bright side, I absolutely hate eating when I'm like this, have a sore throat, and can focus on drinking more water to deal with the bitterness of it all.
I wanted to bake some snacks for the girls in my class so hopefully I can find something they'll like that also looks pretty. The majority are very thin and eat junk in class so I'm not eating vicariously through them, but I feel like it'd be nice. Especially since they've brought the class snacks on more than one occasion. (Ate a bagel from E; was most of what I ate the whole day, and some chocolate covered pomegranate from JB, etc.)
𝙏𝙤-𝘿𝙤 𝙇𝙞𝙨𝙩:
-Finish laundry
-Clean bathrooms/kitchen
-Skincare Routine
-Wash + Dress the little one
-Wait on A's package (1/2)
-Make loads of espresso
-Walk on treadmill, light crunches, light squats
-Attempt to not fuck with my hair
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Posted 18 June 2021 - 11:17 AM
Even when I get to a more comfy weight I feel like all of the things that I want to 'fix' about myself won't make a difference. Weighing less will definitely help with that, but everything else will remain the same. (Unless there are any doppelgangers out there, I am 1 of 1, right?)
𝗦𝗲𝗹𝗳-𝗜𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗲
𝙋𝙧𝙤𝙨:
-Tiny ears
-Generally present collarbones
𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙨:
-Everything else
(/¯◡ ‿ ◡)/¯ ~ ┻━┻
Back @ ground zero
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Posted 19 June 2021 - 07:54 AM
Previously: 168.4
CW: 170.0 even
Currently: Bloated
I'm not entirely surprised. When I went to use my scale the other day, it kept calibrating to 2 lbs when there wasn't any pressure on it. I'm not sure if it's doing better (funny to think that my scale is also bipolar with a mind of its own) although it seemed to zero out this morning. More than likely bloated;
𝗬𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗱𝗮𝘆'𝘀 𝗧𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲:
Vegan Chorizo with Riced Cauliflower + Poblano Peppers - 375 cal
Smoothie - 315 cal
Black Espresso - 0 cal
Sparkling Water - 0 cal
Started to revisit Alice The Madness Returns last night which I'm actually pretty good at if I use deductive reasoning and don't think too much. That game used to give me so much anxiety when I was a kid and now I can play it without being overly nervous of fucking up so that's cool.
I'll probably revisit Genshin Impact when I'm not totally absorbed in school. It feels like I can only process so much at one time. Maybe that's for the best.
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Posted 19 June 2021 - 10:17 AM
Torn on wanting to become stronger and lean asf / being thin no matter the cost. After giving it some thought, I've come up with another list.
𝙋𝙧𝙤𝙨:
-I would feel better
-Have more energy
-Be able to do more activities with my family
-Focus more at school/work
-Feel good about myself (as far as being healthy goes)
-Be able to wear flattering clothes and not be overly focused on what they look like (getting rid of most of my closet's contents make that ˢᵒ much easier)
-Can pick my child up easier
𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙨:
-I have 𝗖𝗨𝗥𝗩𝗘𝗦
-Love/Hate relationship with being overtly feminine
-Being stared at in public (has happened regardless of weight but feels like caring about that should go out the window at some point bc ᶠᵘᶜᵏ people watching; I'm not in their head and I don't want to be)
-Being short makes me feel like any weight on my body condenses anyway (oompa loompa effect; dysmorphic tendencies)
I have been diagnosed as atypical anorexic from the beginning of my ED (was told by healthcare team that although I exhibit both characteristics of bulimia and anorexia, I appeared to be slightly above being underweight; was 90 odd pounds but bc my body is more muscular it didn't look as rough so *sarcastic* yay for me not looking like I wasn't passing out/dragging myself around home/school/work to do basic stuff), PTSD (sexual trauma/assault), chronic depression, social anxiety disorder (still funny to me how the acronym spells 'S.A.D.' bc it's spot on), and have struggled with addiction (from over-eating to over-exercising to alcohol/drug use; thankfully haven't used either shit coping mechanism for a long time, and some combination over the years, so it feels like this ~not-so-new~ list has me convinced that I should focus on getting 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿.
*Like I don't want to be too masculine or feminine; at the same time I want to be stronk and feel good (esteem)
I know that there's a part of my brain that wants to destroy myself, and by proxy (unfortunately) everyone around me.
I don't know what you would call this shift in mentality, but I don't want to call it a 'recovery.' I want to try something new without allowing myself to cave in to the 'you've done something like this before you know what will happen' intrusive thoughts that have slowly started to go away.
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Posted 20 June 2021 - 10:20 AM
My main focus is cardio, light strength training, and endurance. I don't currently have the drive to eat when I should (I usually eat 1-2 a day and usually is in the middle/towards end of the day). I'm pescatarian so most of my protein comes in the form of seitan, tofu, fish, eggs, and legumes.
I've been doing green coffee bean enemas, which I can't tell if it's helping or not but I do feel somewhat better (and caffeinated). I will weigh myself either tomorrow or later this week when my monthly is gone and the bloat isn't so bad for accuracy. I haven't changed too much in my normal routine in terms of diet.
I'm going to find a routine that I can work on from home (YouTube etc.) for strength training and other regimens and see what I want to start on, post the updates/results, and either move on to another one or ease into my standard light routine that fits into weekly schedule (so as to not get over-exhausted/put too much stress on my muscles/joints)
𝗘𝘅𝗲𝗿𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗲𝘀:
-Stretching (Before/After)
-60 min of Cardio
-15 Squats
-25 V-Squats
-25 Push-Ups
My friend D from back home wants to come visit and will possibly be here sometime in July so I kind of don't want to look like a sack of shit when she gets here. I want to at least have some definition or progress to look nice in my clothes/not be totally uncomfortable around her. Also, this is one of the girls that knows about my ED and has one but doesn't acknowledge it past the idea of 'I'm just living my best life.'
Idk I hope I don't freak the fuck out for no reason and can enjoy some sense of normalcy since I'm not using drugs/alcohol to cope anymore.
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Posted 20 June 2021 - 07:13 PM
This website flubbed my last order from them (last year; ironically when I saw my order history it said the last thing I ordered was literally the same month two days apart so looks like my impulsive brain won this round). Bit the bullet and ordered the exact same safety pin industrial that I wanted beforehand that never arrived and took me 𝗙𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗠𝗢𝗡𝗧𝗛𝗦 (and 5+ redirected phone calls but who's counting) to get a refund for it not showing up/being taken out of my bank account. I'm hoping that I can track the package and it show up this time bc I really did want this new bar so ~optimism~ do your thing.
On another note; ate the rest of last night's cabbage/green onion/fennel with a shrimp quesadilla + grilled cheese/tomato soup for the day. I had a sparkling water with caffeine too but my eyes have been burning nonstop as if to warn that sleep is inevitable. I feel like I ate more than usual today and should have stopped halfway in when I get full like usual but it feels like it was a nice show of 'support' for my s.o since he loves to cook. He knows I'm eating way less again especially since I'm able to leave the house now (pregnancy/school/other stressors). I noticed it seems that he's kind of heartbroken when I don't eat something he's made so Happy Father's Day (minus the argument this morning that thankfully smoothed over). Retribution? Don't know her.
Bad jokes aside (and more to come bc it is what it is), I still want to lose weight, to be toned, and generally healthy. Also when J commented on gaining muscle and not doing anything with it leads to more fat it fs stuck out to me that that's not the goal at all. I'll keep focusing on cardio to lose but yeah, this different approach and allowing myself to focus on my muscles as well is something I definitely want. It's also somewhat trickier than I thought it would be. Go figure
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Posted 24 June 2021 - 08:59 AM
It's storming and I'm finally out of school for the week so time to relax/clean up around the house. I still have two more tally sheets, two more rows to finish on my box sheet for this month, and need to edit together one of my evaluation videos to submit for proof of my work.
They told all of us during the morning meeting that they're no longer doing online work starting in August and I'm projected to graduate Oct 13 so hopefully I can meet all of the requirements by then regardless of the setback. When I enrolled, they didn't tell me the online portion was contingent on the lockdown and that they'd be taking it back before I got the chance to get my child care, etc. balanced. It's frustrating.
I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow morning given the weather and possibly winding down from being bloated. I actually did alright in terms of mostly drinking water/not eating too much at school. Usually, I'd feel sick around 3-4 (don't get to leave until 7:30 and get home by 8) but I didn't feel as bad this week. I'll need to do some cardio tonight and fix my homework.
It hasn't been an exciting week but I'm glad I can *almost* get some room to breathe. Friday can't come soon enough.
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Posted 24 June 2021 - 09:28 AM
Okay apparently curiosity killed me bc I wanted to know what the damage was and although I do feel better and didn't binge I needed to know. I'm embarrassed. I went to weigh myself and I'm sitting at 171.
I am 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗱.
My main meal of the day is: tuna rolls with cottage cheese and sliced tomatoes with cracked pepper. I also had half a cup of black coffee. I'll being drinking green tea, coffee, and water throughout the rest of the day.
The only reason I'm even eating is bc my s.o made this before leaving and will probably make something for dinner (respectfully in terms of my dietary restrictions).
I feel like not eating or purging everything, but I know that I'm worried about my teeth which is why I can't wait to go to the dentist next month (already had to cancel one appointment and set this one a few weeks ago so can't afford to miss it).
A couple girls in my class are bigger than me and commented on how flat my stomach is/skinny I looked when I had to lift my shirt up for an assignment (we were waxing my underarms) and I know that everyone looks better on campus without the forced uniform (scrubs) but like ffs I disagree. I hold most of my weight in my thighs and chest and 𝗜 𝗗𝗢𝗡'𝗧 𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗧 𝗜𝗧. I want a flat stomach and thin thighs/arms/less full chest. I want all of it to be elegant and even for 'carrying my weight well' it 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀 me so much.
Even if it's just a number it definitely seems to be directly correlated to my outwards appearance so the less there is the better.
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Posted 25 June 2021 - 09:42 AM
112+200+20; 332 Cal.
CW: 169.6
Alright so on a slightly better note, (it's always like this when I get back from school and can successfully eat less/do less) I weighed in this morning and was a tad under 171; thank God.
It's a little frustrating when there was a .2 difference from me stepping on multiple times getting 169.6 and then 169.8 which... Wtf? I was wearing absolutely no clothes, ponytail holders, clips, jewelry, etc. So there's that. Anyway, I'll hopefully be around 168 by the start of next week and I'm thankfully not yo-yoing between 175-181 like I had been for a hot minute.
Wasn't planning on it, but my s.o made me food before leaving for work so I'm eating tilapia with Himalayan pink salt, cracked black pepper, and a tbsp of salsa on a cup of whole grain rice. I'll make a cup of black coffee and add a shot of espresso so I can feel motivated enough to finish the laundry.
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Posted 25 June 2021 - 02:38 PM
05/23-06/25
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I had to do an assignment that ended up ripping all of my eyelashes off (eyelash extensions) and they finally grew back (ordered latisse and man it's actually an amazing product). I'm probably going to laminate + tint my eyelashes tonight since they're *almost* long/full enough to do so, I'm really excited about it! Also painted my toes/hands today for the first time in months so feeling like I'm on a (mini) self-care roll.
It's cool bc I'm not wearing any mascara + my bottom lashes have also gotten darker/thicker as a result.
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Posted 25 June 2021 - 08:49 PM
Decided to start using this chart and attempt this version of the abc diet for what looks like 7-8 weeks. If needed, I will make adjustments, however, for the most part will be using it as a guideline.
I crave structure.
Starting on Monday, I'll keep it updated on here for any difficulties, my overall stressors, and other life things. I don't plan on binging this weekend (although for the most part, no one does if they can help it).
I need to assemble my school schedule, homework, studying tools, and other basics like daily wardrobe over the weekend for the preceding week. I'm going to make this as clear cut/a no brainer as possible to avoid distractions.
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Posted 26 June 2021 - 09:09 AM
CW: 169.8
Haven't used the bathroom yet (tmi my bad) so not sure if I really did just gain overnight but I'm basically gaining/losing the same .2 - .4 lbs since being back at home. I ate some corn grits last night (a half cup) when J got home and instantly regretted it. It's frustrating to be stuck at/around the same number for what seems like forever. I'm going to stick to the deficit of the chart for Week 2; Sat: 400 / Sun: 350. I'm ready to start leaning into the guide and stop giving myself room to even consider 'failing.'
I won't know until I try, right?
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Posted 26 June 2021 - 09:22 AM
Jalapeno Cheese Grits
- 101.75 Cal.
Coffee W/ Rice Milk + Oregon Chai Black Tea Concentrate + Sugar
- 5+50+50+48: 153 Cal
Whole Grapefruit
- 103 Cal
Green Tea
- 0 Cal
Water
- 0 Cal
𝗧𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲: 357.75
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Posted 26 June 2021 - 10:30 PM
Bedtime Snack
Green Zucchini
- 62 Cal
𝗧𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲: 419.75
Got crabby earlier after cleaning the basement and needed a snack. My dumbass thought it was a cucumber. Either way it's pretty good
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Posted 27 June 2021 - 08:49 AM
CW: 169.8
Coffee (Creamer/Tbsp of Sugar)
- 5+50+48: 103 Cal
Green Zucchini (1/2)
- 32 Cal
𝗧𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲: 135 Cal
What in the actual fuck.
I didn't eat the whole zucchini yesterday so I'm going to finish it this morning. Other than that, I'm mad. I guess I should be following the guideline in terms of maxing out on 350 for today but I'm just so angry at myself for somehow gaining/staying at the same numbers, it's like, fuck it. I'll keep drinking water throughout the day. It's all just pissing me off.
Also, not to mention, I took some pictures yesterday so I could see if there's a significant difference when I've lost at least 10 lbs, etc. and... Let's just say that my body right now is disgusting.
Cellulite central
I went to the store, walked around a lot, did my usual routine, and besides the killer headache it was manageable.
Come on body, time for this cardio to force the fat off. Is it too much to ask that I can possibly weigh at least 20 lbs less by graduation? (October) That's like 4 months. I'm hoping to be down by 30 if I'm being honest but anywhere near 20 would be more realistic. I've done it before. This time just feels like a total letdown.
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Posted 27 June 2021 - 12:43 PM
Blueberries (1 1/2 Cups)
- 127.5 Cal
𝗧𝗼𝘁𝗮𝗹 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲: 135 + 127.5: 262.5 Cal
Nausea kicked in and we got some fresh blueberries (we get organic fresh picked fruits and veggies once a week from a local co-op) so I'm munching on these throughout the day.
Sidenote: those zucchini slices earlier saved my ass from getting sick.
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