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#21 dangerous_pumpkin18

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Posted 31 December 2020 - 02:04 PM

Somehow I’m still over here at 138.6 I’m losing nothing and feeling like I can’t even control my body. It makes no sense. I’m staying under my calorie limit & burning over 400cal a day and I’m still stuck. It’s pretty annoying when you can’t even starve yourself properly.

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Posted 04 January 2021 - 04:28 PM

Done being stuck between 138-140. I am in control of this body and I can do this. Back to low restriction this week no fucking around. I will post more on my accountability thread (regardless of if anyone sees it) & I will get out of the 130s before the month is over. Back to intermittent fasting (20:4) Monday-Friday with only liquids allowed until the 20hrs is up. Water only until 2pm. Nothing after 8pm

Intake:
Not Chik’n bouillon-30cal
Monster ultra-10

Sweet potato(200g)-172cal
Steamed broccoli(1.1cup)-32cal
Avocado(2.5oz)-125cal

Kombucha-60cal

Outtake:
-329 through workout
(Apple Watch says 565 active cal but I never put that all in)

Total net cal for the day: 100

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Posted 05 January 2021 - 06:56 PM

Fasting hours: 20.5

Intake:
Carb balance tortilla-70
Miyokos spread-100
Sweet potato-200
Avocado(1/2)-100
Hummus-60
Broccoli-21
Bouillon-30

Total in-581
Exercise cal-380
Net cal-201

Back to liquids only until tomorrow at 2:00pm! Hope to see a drop by the end of the week

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Posted 06 January 2021 - 05:31 PM

Another 21 hour fast today followed by an hour of yoga (my back was bothering me a lot)

Intake:
Miyokos spread on tortilla- 170
Potato leek soup-160
Miyokos spread on tortilla again-170
White choc-50 (i don’t even know why I ate this it was way too sweet & I haven’t been eating sweets like at all)

Total-620
Exercise-390
NetCal-231 (why do I hate that it ends in a 1!?)

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Posted 07 January 2021 - 07:43 AM

Well I don’t want to jinx anything but it seems we’re finally headed in the right direction. Don’t even want to share my weight bc I’m afraid it’ll go back up just by me announcing it. Currently fasting until 3:30. Will do more of a workout today as well. Planned intake is 612. Net cal SHOULD be ~230 preferably less!

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Posted 07 January 2021 - 05:34 PM

Alright official intake:
No cow protein bar-190
Potato Leek soup-60
2 Buffalo chick’n patties-320
Activia dairy free-120

Total in-690 (higher than I planned bc I burned part of my dinner)
Exercise cal-590
Net cal-100

I was annoyed my total intake was higher than I planned but my net cal turned out lower than I planned too and did more exercise that planned originally. I checked weight multiple times throughout the day and I was down a few ounces. Not much but better than nothing. Need to lose so much more!

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Posted 08 January 2021 - 06:49 PM

21 hr fast today

Intake:
Yogurt-120
Waffles-230
Miyokos spread-120
Tortillas-140
Cupcake ughhh-136
Total:801
Exercise:503
Net cal:298

Higher than I wanted it to be and I know it’s not even that high but the fact that my total is over 700 & net cal is over 250 gives me anxiety. I know logically I can’t actually gain this low but my body is so fucked up that I can’t help but think anything is possible! We’ll see what the scale reads tomorrow.

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Posted 09 January 2021 - 12:55 PM

136.8 this morning! I can’t restrict as much on the weekends because I’m around other people who are aware of my past history (but not aware of my current relapse). Today’s intake limit is 930

NoCow protein bar-190
Tortilla&miyokos-140
Cupcake(whyyyyy)-150
Beyond burger-260
Tortilla-70

Exercise-454
Net cal-476

Will likely do another work out before bed if my back will allow it. Tomorrow I can restrict more in my normal range since I spend half the day by myself. Tomorrow my planned intake is 610. Aiming for net cal in the 200s. I can’t fuck up now that I’m finally on a downward trend. I’m still fat as fuck but I’m finally feeling in control.

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Posted 10 January 2021 - 03:30 PM

Intake:
Protein bar-210
Tomato soup-80
Tortilla-70
Tomatoes-6
Beyond burger-260
Tortilla-70
Sriracha-0

Total-696
Exercise-405
Net cal-293

Starting my usual 20 hour fast as of 5:15. Tomorrow’s planned intake is 636. Hoping for at least 400 burned again. Really wanting to make my way out of the 130s by feb!

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Posted 13 January 2021 - 08:05 AM

I’ve kept my net cals under 350 all week so far and intake under 800. For some reason my lower belly is just hanging onto fat like crazy. It’s disgusting! I weighed in at 136.6 this morning though and that’s the lowest I’ve been in a long time. I upped my fiber & am taking my med as prescribed so it’s helping me stay regular again (if ya know what I mean!)

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Posted 14 January 2021 - 02:50 PM

136.2 this morning. Maybe I can make it to 135s by the weekend. That would be 10lbs lost so far and no one suspicious yet (luckily). My parents are currently dieting using Noom so they’re too busy talking about their own dieting goals to worry about the few times a week they see me.

Intake
Fasted for 21 hours

Tortilla-70
Miyokos-100
Avocado-150

Waffles-230
Yogurt-120

Total:670

Exercise so far-421
Net Cal-249

Starting my next 22 hour fast now. Tomorrows intake plan-680. Weekend I’ve planned out to be lower which is the opposite of what I said I usually do. Saturday planning for 585. Sunday 460. I actually have my calories planned and logged all through next week.

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Posted 15 January 2021 - 07:28 AM

135.4 this morning. BMI 22.53
Officially 15 lbs from my first goal weight of 120

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Posted 17 January 2021 - 01:42 PM

I don’t know why it’s so difficult for my body to lose the weight. I don’t know if I just have shitty metabolism from years of fucking up my body or what. Gonna do a 4 day fast this week to try to reset. Seems like such a cycle. Lose a pound or 2 and hit a plateau. Every. Single. Time!

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Posted 19 January 2021 - 07:48 AM

I gained over the weekend up to 137.2. After a day of fasting and over 700 calories burned from a 5.5 mile walk I’m down to 136 again. Going to continue my fast and walk again today. I slipped up and had 2 cherry tomatoes and raw broccoli last night but ended up freaking out and purging it. I haven’t purged since high school and even then it was just once or twice. I’m not gonna make a habit of that. Just need to stay consistent with my fasts and up my liquids to fill my stomach. Planning to end my fast Friday evening. This better make a difference!

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Posted 19 January 2021 - 02:29 PM

Idk why I bother posting about my fasts. I suck at long fasts. It probably doesn’t help that I’m burning like 700 calories through exercise. I broke my 43 hour fast with a tortilla and a 1/4 cup of soup bc I felt like garbage after my walk. That was 195 calories. So I’m in the negative for net cal but still feeling like an absolute failure. I can make it through a 22 hour fast without any problem. Somehow I’m not fucking losing on those intermittent fasts.

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Posted 21 January 2021 - 05:57 AM

135.8. Didn’t lose anything yesterday. I’ve gone back to my normal 20:4 fasts though since I’m just more successful that way. Tired of feeling like a failure. My legs are sore and I have a blister on my toe but I’m still going to complete day 4 of my 5 mile walks. I’m gonna stick with walking until it gets too unbearably hot outside again. I seem to burn the most that way anyway and it keeps me busy when I go as soon as I get home.

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Posted 25 January 2021 - 09:04 AM

Well I was down to 134.6 yesterday but am back up to 135.8 again. I think it’s just water weight although I did eat more than I’d like to admit yesterday. I’ve continued my 5 mile walks though and am burning up to almost 700 through exercise daily. Back to intermittent fasting and low restriction during the week. Hoping to be 132 by the weekend but it’s doubtful. I seem to constantly yo-yo. Two pounds lost one pound gained. All the time. I just want to consistently lose lose lose!

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Posted 28 January 2021 - 07:44 AM

My body won’t let go of 135.6. I’m struggling right now with a ton of digestive issues and am at the point where I’m afraid to eat anything bc I don’t know what it will do to my stomach. I should be happy about that right? Wrong! I want to lose all the damn weight but I’m tired of being in pain everyday to the point where I don’t know if I’ll make it to work or not and I only work half days!

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Posted 03 February 2021 - 05:57 PM

Today was a bingey day (aka a “normal eating” day) and I hate myself for it. I’ve still not gotten out of the 130s bc my metabolism is just shot from years of abuse. I tried to high restrict this week to see if that helps and then I’ll bump it back down to my usual. The weather has been pissing me off and messing up my walking streak. So windy and cold I hate it. On top of all of that I’ve been having a major flare up of digestive issues and I have to go for a ct on Monday to check on things. It feels like a Crohn’s or IBD flare (I’m not diagnosed yet) and I’ve been dealing with it for weeks.

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Posted 09 February 2021 - 05:36 PM

I’ve dropped my intake again and upped my exercise. Walked 6 miles today and burned ~915 total through exercise today, about 500 was from my walk. Intake was 739. Net cal=-176. I actually didn’t really gain at all from my “normal eating” days. Hoping to get another 6 miles in tomorrow and the rest of the week as long as it doesn’t rain!

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Posted 10 February 2021 - 07:54 PM

Low fiber diets suck. I haven’t had much of an appetite anyway and have been mostly drinking nutritional shakes. Pretty sure I would’ve lost more today if I’d just been able to go like normal.

No rain today though! Walked 6.4 miles though despite dull stomach pain all morning. My legs are very achy and my hips hate me. Managed to burn a total of 1097 between my afternoon walk, cool down, and morning at work. Which yes I count as a work out bc well...3 year olds! Intake was 794. Net cal -306.

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Posted 11 February 2021 - 04:46 PM

134.8! I keep seeing this number and then going back up. Please stay down! Walked 7 miles today and burned 1080 total active cal. Intake was 845 today. Net cal is -235. Hoping to be down a few ounces tomorrow.

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Posted 15 February 2021 - 08:05 AM

I bought a new scale bc I’m honestly doubting how accurate mine is. This new one will be able to track my BMI as well which will be nice. Hopefully it’s there when I get home! Hopping back into walking today as long as the rain holds off. May just stay close to home just incase. Planned intake is 557. Hoping for at least 600 active cal so I can have a negative net cal.

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Posted 12 May 2021 - 06:23 AM

Let’s update this I guess. Currently sitting at 132.8 after being stuck between 133-134/135 for a moooonth! Intake has been around 600 each day this week & I'm sticking to it. Haven’t given in to cravings and I’m pretty proud of myself for that this week. Net cal has stayed between 150-200. Hoping to drop into 120s by next week. Fingers crossed

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Posted 12 May 2021 - 08:24 PM

Total calories: 670
Calories burned: 566
Net cal: 104

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Posted 13 May 2021 - 02:45 PM

Intake: 753 (trying to remind myself that’s still low even if it feels gross to me)
Burned: 636
Net Cal: 117

Hoping to be down a few more ounces tomorrow at least

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Posted 14 May 2021 - 05:53 PM

Not a good day ugh. I was in the 600s but gave into a sweet craving and immediately felt like shit after. Scale said 133.0 when I got home from work but that was after drinking almost 32oz of water & drinking a protein drink.

Intake: 832
Burned: 568
Net Cal: 264

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Posted 19 May 2021 - 04:01 PM

Been high restricting between 700-1000 this week but keeping my net cal around 300-600. I’m just trying to do anything to jump start my metabolism. I know some people say starvation mode doesn’t exist but I’m pretty sure I’ve completely fucked my metabolism after 15 years of this shit. I’ve been doing a bunch of work outs daily burning at least 300 from Pilates and if I’m walking in the morning it’s another ~400 burned but my body just cannot get past 133. Still at 133.4 again today. This has been the worst plateau ever and I feel like such a failure because I clearly can’t even starve myself correctly.

Tomorrow’s intake will be lower.
Planned: 610
Planned calories burned: 500
Net cal SHOULD BE: 110

I’m off work next week and will mostly be by myself so I’m going to do OMAD and fast the rest of the day. Will probably also try to up my work outs next week too.

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Posted 19 May 2021 - 08:17 PM

Intake: 1019
Burned: 824 (did an extra Pilates workout bc I felt really guilty about how high my intake was)
Net cal: 195

Going to try to double my cal burn goal tomorrow like I did today.

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Posted 19 May 2021 - 10:17 PM

love ur outfits and ur progress is amazing!! can i ask how tall u are?

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Posted 20 May 2021 - 08:28 AM

fatbitch_, on 19 May 2021 - 10:17 PM, said:

love ur outfits and ur progress is amazing!! can i ask how tall u are?

Thank you! I’m 5’5”. I’m trying really hard to not get annoyed with my seemingly never ending plateau.

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Posted 20 May 2021 - 08:06 PM

Not proud of my intake today. Weighed in at 132.4 (the weight I keep getting stuck at!) I did weigh myself again in the afternoon after eating and it was still 132.4. I know it’s not the smartest to weigh in the afternoon bc food weight but I actually purposely weight both morning & multiple times in the afternoon just so I can keep track of food weight. Often times if my weight is the same as it was earlier in the morning as it is after eating & drinking a bunch of water then that means my weight probably wasn’t as high in the morning & I’ll usually end up lower the next day. Idk it makes sense to me lol
Intake: 1139
Burned: 846
Net: 293

I keep saying what my intake will be and then I keep failing. Right now I’m just trying to work out as hard & as often as I can though & I was feeling sick during my first Pilates workout this afternoon. I’m at least not eating anything overly processed though. Next week WILL be back to low restricting. I plan to work out earlier in the morning since I’m off work and then do a second work out late afternoon. I already have my meal allowance planned out thanks to the meal delivery service I use where I get smoothies & soups/grain bowls from.

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Posted 21 May 2021 - 06:13 AM

132.0 this morning. Will probably check again later but this is the lowest I’ve been in yeaaars

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Posted 24 May 2021 - 06:10 AM

Fasting today through Thursday afternoon. Currently 12 hours in. Trying to still get a work out or two (or 3 in) but I’m just so distracted. Luckily I’m meeting with a new psychiatrist today to discuss my options for treating my ADHD. I have literally switched between at least 5 or 6 different work out videos because I can’t keep my focus on just one.

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Posted 24 May 2021 - 02:26 PM

20hrs in. Feeling pretty good. Just water today. Interested to see my weight tomorrow. Unexpected period caused me to gain over the weekend even while restricting and ruined my most recent lowest weight.

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Posted 25 May 2021 - 11:23 AM

Just about half way through my 4 day fast and still feeling good. Yesterday was just water and about a quarter can of monster ultra (I ended up not wanting it) today has been water & some green tea. I started my new adhd med today and was nervous I’d end up having to eat something because I know when you take them on an empty stomach they can make you sick. I remember my adderall doing that to me when I was first taking it. No nausea today though but also haven’t noticed any difference in symptoms either. Anyway I’m feeling good and have already dropped from 135 at the start of the day yesterday to 132 today. I know it’s just water weight but loss is loss and I hope it continues!

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Posted 26 May 2021 - 04:09 AM

Proud of myself for this fast. It’s the longest I’ve gone in a long time and I’m now down to 130.8! I could finally be out of the 130s by the end of my fast! I may end it early bc I’m feeling a bit sick from only water. But if I do end it early it won’t be until dinner tonight. So I’ll still have had approx 70 hours or so. I’ll likely only allow fruit & veg to start slowly and continue to low restrict. I just needed to force myself out of this plateau and out of the 130s!

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Posted 26 May 2021 - 09:40 AM

I’ve decided fuck it! I’m not ending my fast early! I can finish this out. I’ve come this far and I’m actually feeling pretty great. I’ve even extended it to tomorrow afternoon. The only reason I’m not extending to Friday is because my sister has off tomorrow & Friday so I won’t be able to take it like I have been this week. That sounds horrible to say but I’ve been damn good at fake eating this week without her questioning a thing! I know I shouldn’t be proud of myself for that but I am! I’m already down a few more ounces from this morning. I am so damn proud of the fact that I haven’t been tempted to have anything but water. I even tried adding a half cup of kombucha yesterday bc it’s fairly low cal but I wasn’t even interested in it. Gotta keep it going!

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Posted 26 May 2021 - 03:49 PM

I went from feeling awesome to floating through space every time I stand. I’m supposed to be going out for a bit tomorrow and it’s extremely hot here so I think it’s best I end my fast tonight in order to not pass out tomorrow. I’m still over here trying avoid anyone being suspicious. I allowed myself a protein drink and some raw broccoli. Still under 200 intake and in the negatives for net cal. I can still be proud of myself for how long I went though and I know logically I will still lose weight.

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Posted 27 May 2021 - 11:56 AM

129.8 as of this morning. Still feeling a bit off from my 3 days of fasting but I think it’s also due to walking around in the heat today and the fact that I might as well have been dry fasting bc I did not keep up with my water intake at all. I’m going to keep today’s intake around 400 though. Mostly fruit, veg, and a protein drink. Next week I’d like to fast again depending on what my weight is by Sunday. I don’t trust that my body won’t put me back in 130s just by breathing air

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 02:31 PM

Like I said. I don’t trust that my body won’t put me back in 130s and we’re back at 131 this afternoon and 130 this morning. I’m sure it’s water weight but still I hate how easily I put any kind of weight back on even eating under maintenance.

I’ve already planned that I’m going to do another Monday evening to Friday afternoon/evening fast next week. I’d start it Monday morning but with my sister & I both being off work I won’t be able to fake eating with her around. I want to start doing weekly prolonged fasts because that’s the only thing that works and oddly enough, despite the floating through space every time I stand up (my fault for not staying hydrated), I felt great physically. My IBS symptoms were at such a minimum while I was fasting. If I could get away with only eating on the weekends it would be perfect.

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Posted 31 May 2021 - 05:50 PM

Officially started this weeks fast as of 5:45 today. Going until Friday at 5. Will try to do water only for the first day but may also include 0 cal electrolyte drinks depending on how I’m feeling. My mistake last week was not hydrating enough. I still made it longer than I had in a long time but I know I could’ve gone longer had I hydrated correctly. Will weigh in tomorrow morning & update my fast SW then.

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Posted 01 June 2021 - 01:34 PM

Started off at 131 this morning. Down to 130 this afternoon. Only water so far and my vitamins (bc I’m not stopping those just for my fast). Need to up my water the rest of the night.

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Posted 02 June 2021 - 04:54 AM

We are 40% of the way through this 94 hr fast and feeling good! Down to 128.8 this morning which is my new (current) low. I have lost 16lbs total since the start of this and am just happy to have finally gotten past my plateau. Will check weight again this afternoon of course as well

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Posted 03 June 2021 - 04:57 AM

Over 60% of the way through my fast and I’m at 128 even this morning. Will likely be lower by the afternoon. Tomorrow at dinner time I’ll break my fast with a smoothie & some soup. I have my meals planned for the weekend and then it’s back on for next week. We’ll see how long I can keep it up

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Posted 03 June 2021 - 03:44 PM

Broke my fast this afternoon unfortunately thanks to nausea from my meds. They don’t do well on an empty stomach. Still in negative for netcal and under 300 total intake. Going to do a second work out before bed & will do another 20 or so hour fast into tomorrow. Also going to still try my long fast next week anyway it seems to be the only thing keeping me out of a plateau

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Posted 09 June 2021 - 08:43 AM

I did not end up doing my weekly fast. I’ve gone back to omad & am still slooowly losing this week. Still 128 but not gaining. I’ve found some low carb & healthy whole food vegan meals that I’m going to start making and planning & those will be omad. I’ve still stayed under 800 calories but would prefer to stay under 600 if possible. I need to have energy to work out bc I can’t stop now. I’m continuing my Pilates and still burning about 500-600 a day through exercising. I start a new job in a week & a half and it’ll be earlier hours so hopefully I’ll still have time to work out. I’m thinking it will also be a more active position since the kids I’ll be taking care of are a little older & won’t just lay around like the child I watch now. I’ve also had my concerta upped and that’s been going well too. I can’t take it without having at least something in my stomach so I’ve been taking it with a tiny bite of protein bar in the mornings. Will check my weight again this afternoon after being “emptier” from my morning.

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Posted 15 June 2021 - 07:30 PM

I’m just getting really annoyed at myself for not being able to get through a fast again! I told myself I was going to fast until Friday starting last night. It was going great. I felt fine and made it until about 6pm. I don’t even know why I ate anything. I wasn’t even hungry & I had already faked dinner so wtf. I think part of it is because my birth control pills are late by a couple days and my body feels like it needs to be eating nonstop. I hate it. Anyway, I’m restarting my fast as a 72 hour fast. I’m going to start up my weekly fast again next week and I’m going to actually do it! I have a doctor appointment coming up in a few weeks and I need to get out of this 120s plateau!

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Posted 28 June 2021 - 03:30 PM

Well I was fasting until Thursday but the child I nanny insisted on a tea party today and insisted on making sure I had snacks. She would not let up or take no for an answer. Luckily it was only a tiny pretzel pack (50 calories) but it’s always like once I eat one thing I need to eat everything so cue me choosing the most ridiculous low calorie “meals” for the day. Pickle bites(15), monster ultra(10), 2 carb balance tortillas(140). Intake: 230, burned: 705, netCal: -473. I’ve still been sitting between 128-129 and cannot understand why it’s happening. Hoping to get out of it soon (I keep saying that)

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Posted 01 July 2021 - 02:31 PM

128 even this afternoon after doubling my calorie burn yesterday. Hoping for 127s tomorrow.

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Posted 19 July 2021 - 03:48 AM

Ugh I am so mad at myself. I’ve still been plateaued between 128-129 and I feel like garbage. I got a new tattoo last week so I haven’t been able to work out as hard & to top it off yesterday was a horrible binge day. I immediately regret it & am paying for it this morning with extra nausea & stomach pain. Planning to fast this week and will only allow maybe 1 item for dinner. I’m just so disappointed in myself because i felt like I was seeing progress and now when I look in the mirror I just want to throw up because all I see is FAT bulging everywhere. I have a month from today to be out of 120s before my birthday. I need to commit.

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Posted 29 August 2021 - 02:02 AM

I really suck at staying on top of this anymore. It’s also 5am and I haven’t slept yet bc my dumb ass thought it would be a good idea to have half a soy iced latte, take my concerta, AND have half an alani nu energy drink yesterday. My head is killing me because I’m so tired but I can’t get myself to sleep. I just got up and weighed myself though and I’m 127.5. Gonna get back on my intermittent fasting schedule more consistently. I did successfully complete a 65 hours fast last week though which is the longest I’ve committed to in what feels like forever. Just get me to 120 please! 7 stupid pounds to go until I hit my first goal. Then it’ll finally be a 25 lb loss since I started. I should’ve been there by now

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Posted 12 September 2021 - 06:09 AM

Finally down to 125.8. Hoping to be 123 by next weekend *fingers crossed*. We just moved yesterday and are renting my parents house but they don’t move out until oct. It just hit yesterday that I don’t have my own private bathroom attached to my bedroom anymore. Not a huge deal but now I’m trying to figure out where the fuck I can put my scale. My room has carpet. I’m about to put it inside my travel trunk bc that’s flat but idk how accurate it will be. Nobody has noticed my weight loss or even had the guts to say anything if they did even though I’ve lost 20lbs since November (ugh why has it taken so long!?) The good news about moving is that I’ve been too distracted to eat. I fasted for about 50hrs this past week only allowing a 50cal applesauce squeeze so I could take my meds without puking them back up. Fasting is going to get harder on my weeks off work but I’m going to try to stay busy and hope no one notices.

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:01 AM

I’m an idiot and have been in a bind with staying on track. I’m so angry with myself. It’s been difficult since we moved into my parents house & they did not move out until this morning. They were always around so skipping dinner wasn’t an option. Then it was my dad’s birthday and since I’ve started my own little vegan/GF bakery he asked me to make the cupcakes. No problem I love that my non-vegan/non-GF parents enjoy my food. Nobody else ate the left overs soooo my fat ass finished them this morning. I was meant to be fasting from last night until Friday but now I’ll have to restart that fast.

Good news is I’ve got off this week & next so I’ll be by myself without anyone to track whether I’m eating. My plan is fast today-Friday afternoon. Then low restriction (~600) mostly veggie weekend and back to fasting Sunday night-Friday again. I’ll finally be able to keep the scale in the bathroom again as well & not have to sneak it out to use it. Hoping to be out of 120s by the end of the month. I feel like such a broken record saying that. Wish me luck!

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Posted 20 October 2021 - 03:55 PM

I’ve been trying to keep busy this week. I’ve been failing at my fasts because of not being busy and I’m feeling pretty guilty about it. I started the week at 129.2 and am down to 128 as of today. I made sure to get out and stay busy this morning and did a late night dance work out last night. I was feeeling it this morning in my hips & knees. Intake today was still higher than I’d like after completing a 20 hr IF.

Total in: 1030
Total out (so far, may do another dance work out): 819
Net Cal: 210

Anyone else not believe MFP when it claims “if everyday were like today you’d weigh ____ in 5 weeks” if you complete diary? I swear it’s such BS. I wish they’d let me complete my food diary when I’m under 1000 instead of trying to tell me I’m not eating enough. Like hello that’s the whole point.

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Posted 21 October 2021 - 08:41 AM

127.8 this morning
Decided to cut my IF short today to give my body a break but going to stay below 600 for intake. I don’t really have fear foods. As long as I stay below my calorie goal I feel okay. I also don’t eat a set type of foods at specific times of day (ie: breakfast foods, etc)

Intake so far:
Morning snacks
Halloween snack pack hippeas: 60
Poshi cauliflower snack pack: 10 (these are weirdly sooo good! I love pickles & pickled veg these are kinda like that. Basically just steamed & marinated cauliflower in vinegar & salt/pepper)
Cashew butter: 100

Breakfast/brunch
Wonder Italian bread: 160
Can’t believe it’s not butter vegan: 60
Monster ultra Fiesta: 10

Total so far: 400

Planning to do a work out in a moment but currently have a sleeping pup on me. Will be doing a bunch of walking later tonight at horror nights as well. I know I should give my legs a break because of that but I also know I can’t help but push my limits even if I regret it the next day.

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Posted 21 October 2021 - 09:10 PM

Proud of myself! Stayed under 600 like I planned. Burned 400 calories doing a bunch of dance work out videos. Plus another ~400 the rest of the day from walking almost 6 miles.

Updated intake: 467 total in
Late snack miyokos cheese stick: 60
Half a packet of pickle bites: 7
Mini ginger ale can: 0

Net Cal: -343

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Posted 23 October 2021 - 07:44 PM

Yesterday’s intake was a bit higher than intended but I’ve been restricting so low that I was struggling to function. I had a horrible headache.

Friday intake=983
Burned=664
Net=319

Saturday intake=873
Burned=629
Net=244

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Posted 25 October 2021 - 06:43 AM

Yesterday’s intake: 860
Burned: 546
Net: 315

Weigh in yesterday: 127

Haven’t checked my weight today yet, I wanted to wait until after work. So far I’ve only taken in 110 calories from a Pirq protein shake. Only planning to have 190 more from Amy’s soup when I get home later. My plan is to only have soup & a protein shake each day. If I can’t stick to that then my intake must be below 600. Hoping to double my calorie burn goal everyday too if I can. I’m back to work this week so avoiding food is much easier. Really wanted to be out of 120s by the end of October but I don’t think I can make it happen. Aiming for 115 by thanksgiving at least then! Fingers crossed. My body is just so weird sometimes

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Posted 26 October 2021 - 03:27 AM

I want to fast all day but I have to take at least something in so that I can take my meds otherwise I’ll end up so nauseous at work. I have a small protein drink with me again but I’m afraid if I drink that then it’ll lead to a spiral of wanting to eat everything when I get home. It makes no sense because that’ll be hours from now but still. Also I am completely exhausted! My dog has been waking up between 3-4am every night and I have to be up at 5:30 for work so I haven’t been sleeping well. Plus the kid I’m dealing with is a nightmare. I only have 8 more days of this job luckily. As much as I want to go work out like crazy when I get home I think I’m gonna have to take a long nap instead because I am struggling

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Posted 30 October 2021 - 08:07 AM

124.8

Did I read that right? For the past year I’ve never been able to get below 126. Did I finally freaking break through!? I knew the scale couldn’t possible be correct when it read 126.8 I’ve been eating way under maintenance. Fingers crossed it keeps going down. If it does I could possibly be out of 120s by thanksgiving

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Posted 02 November 2021 - 12:50 PM

Still around 124.5 I don’t think my scale has been accurate I’ve fasted most of the day & have been staying around 600 or less this week. Today’s intake has been a protein shake (110), Amy’s pea soup(150), spinach carb balance tortilla with hummus & hot sauce(85). Planning to make “pizza” later using a carb balance tortilla as a crust(260). Total should be ~605 with a net cal of around 70. Might do another work out before bed bc I’m slacking on my workout intensity because I’m just exhausted from my last week of work. Still aiming for 115 by thanksgiving

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Posted 05 November 2021 - 04:16 AM

124.2 as of yesterday afternoon. I’ve been stay between 500-600 at most and honestly I feel like I’m finally out of my craving phase. I’m in better control now somehow. I am worried about the holidays though. My parents are staying with us for the winter and I’m hoping I won’t have them breathing down my neck to eat. I’ll be working from home so I think maybe I’ll try to do some meal prep of very light lunches & dinners even though I’d really prefer to only eat dinner and that’s it. I already have my thanksgiving calories planned out which is probably crazy but whatever. I just don’t want to be forced into eating or have anyone tell me I need to stop.

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Posted 06 November 2021 - 04:09 PM

Weighed in at 123.8 (after an early “breakfast”). I’m sooo close to my very first goal of 120. I want to hit it before my family comes down for thanksgiving. I need to up my exercise routine again though I’ve been so tired so I’ve been slacking. I’ve been dealing with lots of back pain too. Going to do a work out before bed & then tomorrow morning too.

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Posted 09 November 2021 - 07:01 AM

122.6
Yesterday I felt like I ate way too much (around 800 cal) so I was worried the scale would go up today. I’ve been dealing with some stomach pains and I’m not sure what the cause is or if it’s just my usual IBS flaring back up. My sister made a comment about me eating soup for lunch & dinner (I didn’t even finish the soup from lunch because of my stomach). Yet she sits there and eats the same things everyday too so who is she to judge. I’m waiting for her to start commenting on my weight. I’ve lost over 20 since last year now. As much as I don’t want to, I’m going to have to make sure I’m eating something around her, especially this week while she’s off work.

Today’s planned intake is around 700.
Protein shake(170) & apple sauce(80) so I can take my morning meds

Lunch will be mini waffles(170)

Dinner will be salad(263)

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Posted 11 November 2021 - 04:52 PM

Went way over what I planned to have today. Intake is 1025 and I’m feeling disgusting. Tomorrow will be lower! Going to stick to applesauce(50) mini waffles(170) & then soup for dinner(190). Planning to actually do a workout tonight before bed because I’ve been slacking so bad. I haven’t gained but also haven’t lost. Hoping that next week for most of the week at least, I can get away with just having something super small so I can take my meds & nothing else during the day. Need to get out of 120 before thanksgiving & I’m only 2lbs away from that! Fingers crossed

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Posted 15 November 2021 - 05:59 PM

I was freaking out over the weekend that I somehow gained 3 lbs basically overnight but I fasted most of the day to get an “accurate” result and am still 122.4. Intake has just been for dinner tomato soup(80) & tiny potatoes with hummus(57) with half an applesauce pouch(30). Also did a little work out taking the dog for a walk & putting together my whole desk on my own (my hands are killing me!)

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Posted 17 November 2021 - 10:09 AM

121. I’m one pound away from my first goal which I wanted to meet before thanksgiving. Finally!

Todays intake:
About 1/3 of the oatmeal I made(63)
Tomato soup(80)

Tonight will be potato soup which I’ll allow 2 servings of (160)

Total should be 303

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Posted 25 November 2021 - 11:59 AM

I’ve technically met my first gw today finally. I’m weighing at 120.1 today. Don’t plan on eating much today (at most 900) have fasted so far today.

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Posted 26 November 2021 - 08:54 AM

When you weigh in at the doctors at 124.8 (with clothes & shoes) which is the nightmare plateau you were stuck at for WEEEEEEKS. I know it’s not accurate and still a good 10lbs less than in July but still. I could cry. Especially since it flashed 122.4 first

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 07:23 PM

I got my booster yesterday and have the worst body aches. My joints are hurting horribly even my fingers! I feel okay otherwise but I’m annoyed because I’ve been slacking so bad on work outs with my current work schedule. I’m pretty sure I’ve lost any form of muscle I had built & to top it off I’ve had 2 days in a row that I consider binge days. Both around 1200 and I’m sure any weight I’ve lost to reach my first gw has gone out the window. Tomorrow I’m going to stick to 500 or less and play it off like I’m not feeling well from my vaccine still. Hate having family in town for holidays and they’re going to be here until Feb ugh. Wish my body wasn’t so sore. Otherwise I’d do a work out tonight when everyone goes to sleep.

I’ll get back on track this coming week. Planning to stay around 400 & mostly liquid (soups, electrolytes, & veggies). I need to do better.

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Posted 29 November 2021 - 01:53 PM

Been fasting all day & feeling good. I’ve just been sipping on a V8 sparkling energy drink throughout the day (delicious by the way!) Will break fast after work with a salad. I think my weight finally evened back out after thanksgiving & high restricting a few days though. Will check weight after work before I eat. Would love to finally get out of 120 by the weekend

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Posted 04 December 2021 - 05:52 AM

Well I did it. Got out of 120 by the weekend. Not by much but 119.2 is the lowest I’ve been in possibly 10 years?

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Posted 04 December 2021 - 11:23 AM

I think I’ve finally hit the point of restriction & relapse that I have no idea what hunger cues are. I planned out my intake today. It was around 600. Went to make my sandwich I was planning to do aaaand took one or 2 bites before deciding I didn’t even feel hungry. I’m not mad about it of course just wish I hadn’t wasted my time making it.

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Posted 13 December 2021 - 07:31 AM

Yesterday I ate way too much (around 1200) and it’s been awhile since I’ve done that. I’m paying for it today with my IBS. My stomach hurts so bad and I feel so nauseous. Of course I have a dentist appointment this morning too so I can’t just sit home and let it pass while I work. This is part of why I restrict so low. My body can’t handle the influx of calories. I’m going to keep it super low today & just have soup later. Lots of water & electrolytes. Hopefully it passes.

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Posted 18 December 2021 - 07:29 AM

I think I officially can say I’m out of 120. I had been seeing 119.2-120 for a good week or so but this morning I’m finally seeing 118.4! I can’t remember when I was this low but I’m still not at my Christmas goal of 115.

My dress for Christmas came and I thought it looked so small but it fits perfectly. Nobody has noticed or mentioned my weight loss and part of me is nervous that my family will finally notice. It’s weird. I want them to notice but also I don’t because I don’t want to be stopped yet. They know my history but it’s been about 10 years since they think I’ve started to “recover.” Maybe they just know they can’t force anything on their 31 yr old daughter anymore so they say nothing.

I still have at least 3 lbs to attempt to lose by Christmas morning. I don’t think I’ll get there but I’m going to restrict as low as I can get away with for the upcoming week.

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Posted 21 December 2021 - 07:25 PM

I’ve probably ruined everything today. Every time I say I’m going to restrict as low as possible I jinx myself. I binged today like 1800 calories. That’s the highest I’ve eaten in forever and I hate it. I was so close to 115 and I’m sure I won’t make it by the weekend. I feel like shit now too. Bloated and disgusting. Back on track tomorrow.

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Posted 27 December 2021 - 01:22 PM

Why is it so difficult to just lose 3 lbs!? That’s all I want to reach by the end of the year but no it’s literally lose one lb and sit at that new weight for WEEKS. How is that even possible?? I’m teetering between 117-118 for a good 2 weeks now wtf.

Intake today:
Breakfast
Matcha latte-75
One Cocomel-20
A sip of protein drink-~5
A tiny bit of applesauce-4

Lunch
2 pieces of bread-220
Vegan mayo-70
(Idfk what this meal was)

Snack
Notty fluffernutter cups-140

Dinner
????
Hopefully nothing!

Total intake: 534
Burned: 450
Net: 84

Will be doing a workout before bed and plan to go for early morning walks the rest of the week. Hopefully at least 3-4 miles each morning. I think part of why I’m not losing is that I’ve been slacking on my work outs. Gotta get back on track with that.

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Posted 28 December 2021 - 12:57 PM

Intake

Breakfast:
Half a matcha iced latte-40

Lunch/snack
1/2 tortilla w/ cedars hummus-116
Notty fluffernutter sugar free cup-70
Mini coke zero bottle-0
1/2 Black olives snack pack-15

Total in so far=241
Burned through exercise(5 mi. walk + stretches/cardio cool down)-700
Net=-459

Planned for dinner:
Super greens soup-120

Working on trying to drink more water. I’m slacking!

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Posted 06 January 2022 - 09:19 AM

I cannot stand these plateaus! It’s awful knowing I’m eating way under maintenance and not losing. What is the deal!?

Planned total today=639
Actual so far-470

Usually I fast for the morning but I’m switching it up & fasting in the afternoon I think.

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