#155 
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Posted Today, 05:59 AM
i hate them all for gods sake, can’t everyone just shut the fuck up and leave me alone? i do something or say something then im sweared at being called a ‘bitch’ or a ‘slag’ like fuck you fuck off please fuck off
what brought this on? well i had Emrys in my lap who was asleep and she wanted him but i said no because he’s going to wake up she comes to kiss him obviously leaning quite heavily on me and the cat I told her to move you’re going to crush him she doesn’t listen and does it again except leaning in more and he’s awake moving and it’s just a mess I pull her hair to get her off me and she does the same and swears upon me fuck you
worst of all this is all done when a stranger is in our house who’s fixing something
its so embarrassing..
not only this my moods so shit because im shitting myself for this exam as i have so much to revise for it but i have not started anything it’s my fault it’s my fault
im risking everything and omg if I repeat the year fuck fuck fuck
i was going to revise and yk what happened? there’s a online website w everything Arabic to English translation AND THE SITE IS SHUT DOWN like fucking hell good timing
and now the wifi was shut earlier too which further wasted my time fucking hell
what do I do I might fail like what 2 no 3 no 7 exams ;; i can’t do it I want to die so badly
im further pissed by everyone in my class who has fucking zero notes for these exams like why the fuck are you all incapable of not researching? or catching up? I’m included in this incapacity keep that in mind
the one thing I hate the most being asked
”did you lot revise?” Why do you want to know? Does it give you all comfort if everyone is doing what you’re doing which is not taking the time to revise? The moment i or anyone responds it’s like shit, everyone would rather you be in the same boat as them instead of being the minority
ughghgh I don’t care I’m cutting myself coming back it’s been too long like what 2-5 months since I last did it? Maybe more idk idc
i had
coffee [this pic was from ages ago but mocha +91] and a tuna sandwich which i had to blur its inside bc it looks disgusting in picture form
2 biscuits 83*2
and a arla yoghurt [146] + old picture
also I forgot to mention I had monster yesterday? I didn’t add it in idk why ;;
but it was 1/2 of monster monarch and like a sip of monster assault which lol I could buy coke for cheaper bc it tastes the exact same
god my life feels so out of control with my weight, my eating, food, thoughts, school, people who i meet on the daily, exams
all of it is out of my control, I can’t do this I can’t I really really want to die this is all too much
all I need is a good cry but I don’t remember the last time I cried it’s been so long
exact Kcals I know I had is 403
Unknown kcal comes from that tuna sandwich so idk 250-300?
total ish :- 600-700~
weight:- 39.2 good for nothing piece of shit fucking hell
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