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Posted 01 January 2018 - 11:22 AM
It's been a really long time since I've followed one of these diets, but I'm really interested in HSG after finding it. Even though I've been trying to recover, this time of year is always really hard for me and I tend to not eat at all or eat atrociously low. Things are just not very good in life right now and it would be easy for me to barely eat anything or fast for days. This diet will help me not restrict super low. I was going to just post this stuff in a private blog, but I think this being here in the Accountability section will help me make better efforts to not low restrict.
I'll also be updating this thread with general life stuff and how I've been feeling and whatnot.
Once the HSG diet is over, I'm not sure what I will do with this thread, but if I continue with something else, I will move most of this stuff into the second post.
So here are my main reasons for doing this:
-New Year, new Monday, new goal
-It's a rather short diet, only three weeks. It will make me feel better about reaching a goal in the first month of the new year.
-The calorie amounts are higher and will encourage me to eat more, even though I'll still be on a deficit
-The deficit won't be too severe so I will not lose very much. There's some water and food weight from my weigh in, but I really should not lose much more than two pounds of actual weight. My TDEE is only 1400 so I really will not be losing much.
-I feel like crap after all the food from the holidays and this will help me get back on track with eating better
-I have been eating a lot of things with gluten it them when I shouldn't be. This makes me very sick. This diet will help me avoid gluten since most of the things I eat with gluten in them wind up being very high in calories.
Personal Rules when following HSGD:
-include fruits and vegetables even though the diet says not to count them
-get as close as possible to the daily calorie amounts, no eating significantly less
-check weight every day
-update this thread every day with food intake, weight, etc
-NO GLUTEN. At all.
2018 Starting weight: 102.0 lbs
Current weight: 96.0 lbs
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 11:23 AM
HSGD Round Two
started 29 January 2018
restarted round two on 5 February 2018
I will be weighing myself every morning shortly after waking and before eating or drinking anything.
Unlike the first round of HSGD, I will NOT be including fruits and vegetables, truer to the original version.
I will still log fruits and vegetables in the daily posts of course.
No junk like candy, chips, cookies, etc. is allowed. Halo Top is fine lol.
The first number in each day's calorie log will be number of calories I've had that aren't fruit and veg, the second number will include them.
Starting Weight: 99.0 lbs
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Weight: 99.0 lbs
Calories: 898 (1214)
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Weight: 99.7 lbs
Calories: 730 (1270)
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Calories: 840 (1010)
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Calories: 1000 (1170)
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Results from HSGD round one in the spoiler.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:00 PM
Day 1
Energy drink: 10
Protein cookie sample: 25
Bowl of chili: 300?
Vegetables with balsamic vinegar: 65
Quest Hero bar (vanilla caramel): 170
Banana: 105
Quest bar (chocolate chip cookie dough): 200
Total: 875
My mom made chili for dinner. I have no idea how many calories are in it and it's really stressing me out. Going to document it as 300 even though it's possible it was less. I really don't think it could be more than 300. Ugh, this is why beef is usually one of my biggest fear foods. I wish I knew what the fat percentage of the beef was. I wish I knew the exact quantity of what I had. The chili did not have beans it it, but there was a lot of tomato. Didn't put any cheese on it and didn't have any cornbread either. Resisting the cornbread was the hardest part, but I need to be really strict with myself about the gluten thing. 
After the chili, I made half a bag of stir fry vegetables. Used cooking spray instead of oil and topped the vegetables with balsamic vinegar afterwards. They were really yummy and very filling. This was the kind I'd bought:
Today was also the first time I've had a Quest Hero bar, I kept seeing them around and finally gave one a shot. It tasted good but was a little too sweet for my liking. I usually like having protein bars that have at least 20g of protein, but with the chili being mostly meat that's already a lot of protein for the day.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:04 PM
At this point in time, I still have another 330 calories for the day. This is going to be really difficult. I feel really sad and depressed today and eating is the last thing I want to do. It was already a struggle having as much as I did earlier. I wish things were better between my love and I. That probably sounds so stupid that my eating revolves around him, but he just has a really good effect on me when things are going well. Sadly things aren't okay right now. He texted me earlier saying he wants to just be friends, this kills me. It makes me sick, it makes me want to throw up because of how upsetting it is
I do believe that things will get better, but this is just so hard to endure right now. Only two months ago...two months ago today, we were so happy with each other. Why did things have to turn for the worse as badly as they did? I tried so fucking hard to make things okay and it's like it doesn't matter to him. I wish I mattered to him as much as he matters to me.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:07 PM
Salamander, on 01 Jan 2018 - 5:06 PM, said:
I never follow accountabilities but i really admire you and so this is gonna be my new way to stalk you. If thats okay with you of coarse.
Aww thanks, that's really sweet And yea, it's totally fine. I just might do a lot of whining here, fair warning.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:11 PM
Fleur Delacour, on 01 Jan 2018 - 5:07 PM, said:
Aww thanks, that's really sweet
Oh good.
And dont worry about the whining. Just be yourself. Thats the kind of content i appreciate.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:22 PM
Salamander, on 01 Jan 2018 - 5:11 PM, said:
Oh good.
And dont worry about the whining. Just be yourself. Thats the kind of content i appreciate.
Aww thank you And yea, I'll do my best to just be myself here. I appreciate having a follower already, that will definitely make me want to make sure I update this daily.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:25 PM
Fleur Delacour, on 01 Jan 2018 - 5:22 PM, said:
Aww thank you
Then i am very glad to be following.
I have one question and then ill stop bothering you. Do you prefer feedback or you just want this space for your own updating and venting?
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:42 PM
Salamander, on 01 Jan 2018 - 5:25 PM, said:
Then i am very glad to be following.
I have one question and then ill stop bothering you. Do you prefer feedback or you just want this space for your own updating and venting?
Feedback and commentary is definitely fine. Actually I encourage it because me making this public instead of a private blog that only I can view is a challenge, and it will perhaps help me get over the fear of sharing stuff like this.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 06:45 PM
Just made myself eat a banana and another Quest bar (chocolate chip cookie dough). I hate how I've been eating two protein bars a day recently instead of one, but there were two bags of chocolate chip cookies, so the protein bar is a better alternative IMHO.
Will update my intake thread earlier, but the banana is 105 cals and the Quest bar was 200. Close enough for that 900 calorie goal for the day.
Ugh I feel sick and gross though. I hate hate hate eating while depressed.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 09:34 PM
Was sort of freaking out over food weight so I did something I usually try to avoid, and I weighed myself in the evening. Usually I shower in the morning, but since I start my first day of work tomorrow, I have this weird thing where I need to start off that kind of day with fresh sheets and I have to shower before sleeping in freshly washed sheets. And I usually prefer to weigh myself before I shower, I dunno, is this normal? Anyway, my evening weight check is 102.3 lbs. I was worried it would be more, but maybe some water weight is coming off or something. I definitely consumed more than 3 oz in food weight, especially with the chili. I've definitely been very bloated and my water weight from my period last week doesn't seem to have gone away.
Also I feel the need to post this here, but New Years Eve I had 500 calories during the day. That was going to be it since I'd planned on having a few drinks. My drinking was actually not bad last night at all for New Years (I am such a lightweight anymore) but wound up being a tad hungover anyway. I definitely have some water retention from that seeing how infrequently I drink anymore. Also ate an entire fucking thing of crab dip which was topped with cheese, not to mention most of the chips that came with it. That makes me feel far worse than the booze calories. I have no idea how many calories were in all of that, too many, that's for sure. Idk, I feel like that should be estimated around 1000 for the dip and chips and 500 in drinks. 2000 calories, yikes.
That I didn't fast today or only eat about 200 calories because of last night's damage is a big deal for me though. As much as I'd like to successfully complete HSG which seems counter-intuitive to recovery, a lot of it is about making efforts to not have freak out relapses where I barely eat anything for months. Having a structured diet that is higher in calories yet still restrictive I think will be better for recovery in the long run. Believe me, I strongly considered starting off the year with ABC, but once I get into doing something like that, there's no stopping me. Losing 2-3 pounds on HSG is a thousand times safer and healthier than losing the 15-16 pounds I'd likely lose from ABC.
My boyfriend texted me earlier and wished me good luck with my first day of work tomorrow. It really means a lot that he did that even though I am heartbroken that we didn't talk more and that it's been a while since he's said "I love you."
Also this is cheesy as fuck, but when I was in the shower I was thinking about how some on here with character accounts will refer to their SO by their character's SO's name, and I want to call my boyfriend Bill or Bill Weasley on here, but it doesn't feel right considering how rocky things have been between us. Yet another extremely dumb thing making me sad.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 10:12 PM
Anyways, i can see that it was a rough day for you and youre really struggling with the numbers. Its all going to be okay. <3
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 10:20 PM
Salamander, on 01 Jan 2018 - 10:12 PM, said:
With regard to showers and clean sheets: I cant tell you if its normal but i do the exact same thing. However, my train of thought is a little bit different because its an OCD ritual. But i gotchu.
Anyways, i can see that it was a rough day for you and youre really struggling with the numbers. Its all going to be okay. <3
I've never been diagnosed with OCD, mainly because when I can actually see a therapist I use the time to talk about more pressing issues (not to belittle OCD in the least, but stuff like suicidal thoughts, anorexia, PTSD, cutting, that kind of stuff winds up being more important to discuss when I go), but I would not be surprised in the least if I had it. My brother has OCD and to my understanding, it's genetic? I have certain rituals that are mostly too embarrassing to even talk about (I won't even talk about them publicly here) and they've been problematic enough in the past that they have seriously pissed off close friends or people I've dated once they notice the habits.
Like I know I am not going to get enough sleep tonight because of how long they're going to take in the dryer. I should have just washed them tomorrow, but I have to do it now, even though it's after 1 AM now. But clean sheets hardly scratch the surface of my issues or rituals.
Then again, I do have ADHD and a lot of people with ADHD will form habits that are very similar to OCD because otherwise they don't function unless something is part of a daily routine so it could just be that. I dunno, just rambling now.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 10:53 PM
Sorry to hear things are not going well with your SO. I think calling him Bill would be cute tho! Hopefully you can work it out.
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Posted 01 January 2018 - 10:56 PM
onelastchancegirl, on 01 Jan 2018 - 10:53 PM, said:
Hiya I am gonna start following
Sorry to hear things are not going well with your SO. I think calling him Bill would be cute tho! Hopefully you can work it out.
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Aww thanks! I like you so I am flattered that you are following!
And I think I might start doing that, as least for the more positive things about him.
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Posted 02 January 2018 - 05:15 PM
Day 2
Energy drink: 10
skinnypasta Butternut Squash Ravioli: 240
OhYeah ONE protein bar (blueberry cobbler): 220
Quaker Oatmeal strawberries and cream, 1 packet: 130
Quest bar (cookie dough): 200
Total: 800
First day of work! I never eat during the day so it was my usual surviving off of energy drinks and diet coke during the day. When I got home it took me a while to actually feel hungry. Not being on my ADHD meds means I have to put a lot of effort into mentally focusing on whatever task is at hand and it takes me a while to get into the mindset where I should eat. I have a doctor's appointment on the 22nd I think and hopefully I can get my script then, it's been so long since I've been without my meds.
It didn't occur to me that I'd be running around a lot more at work, so I don't know if I should adjust my daily intake those days. I really don't want to lose too much weight. :/ I have no idea how much I'm actually burning either, not lifting anything remotely heavy.
Still not sure what I will be doing after this 21 day diet. I would like to start working out and putting on muscle weight once my diet is better and I'm eating intuitively in a better way. The past month or so, mainly because of Christmas cookies, I've been eating way more gluten than I should have been. It zaps nutrients out of my body because I just get sick when I eat it, so I wind up in this weird cycle where I am eating a ton but not really gaining, and I feel far worse than I do if I were just restricting.
Speaking of weight, my morning weight was 100.8 lbs. So yea, there was and still is some real water retention going on. Last time I got a good gauge on my "true weight" I was 98-ish lbs. For a while I thought I was actually gaining as part of recovery, but apparently not. So yea, if my weight drops down into double digits again, it's entirely expected because of water weight.
Anyway, around 6:30 I had some gluten free butternut squash ravioli. I usually don't like pasta very much, and usually don't care to pay heaps more for gluten free alternatives to foods I usually don't even like in the first place, but the grocery store had some gluten free ravioli and gnocchi for super cheap so I picked up some of it, two boxes of each. It was surprisingly really good! I don't think the store plans on carrying it anymore which kind of sucks, but whatever, I'll enjoy it while I have it. Also the version I got says it's 240 calories, but the one on the site says 290 for some reason. Usually I count the higher amount, but since I did like 4-5 hours of walking around, I don't think it will hurt to count the lower one.
This morning Bill said that I looked healthier in the pic I sent him and that he hopes I'm doing better with my disorder. I'm starting to feel really bad about doing this diet. He doesn't want me to lose more weight, and honestly losing more scares me. Still I feel like this is the only way to get myself to not eat gluten, start out the year on a good note mentally, and honestly, restricting is the only way that I will be able to get myself to focus at work. I kind of doubt I'd be doing this if I had my medication for ADHD. I think he would be so disappointed with me if he knew I was doing this.
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Posted 02 January 2018 - 07:23 PM
Ugh, I still have to eat 330 more calories today. Eating is the last thing I want to do right now. :/
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Posted 02 January 2018 - 09:32 PM
Quaker Oats 1 packet of strawberry & cream oatmeal = 130
Quest bar (cookie dough, of course haha) = 200
Precisely 800 for the day now.
Like half my intake so far has been protein bars though. :|
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