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isabella ♥
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shopping is sooo addictive. i think i might actually have a problem. i used to be sooo frugal and wouldn't buy a thing, but now i've done a complete 180 😭 cause like you said, you get a nice distraction from binge urges whilst getting steps in. literally the dream??? and also the instant gratification from buying something. it's all about finding balance i guess lol you're definitely allowed to buy stuff but you also have to know when to stop. i'm actually omw now to return some things i impulsively & unnecessarily bought 😭
liliaceae
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week twenty-two; 12-18 september, 2022
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sunday, 18 september:---------
weight: 56.6 (-0.4)
total kj intake: 4450kj - 1000kj = 3450kj
stuff eaten:
breakfast: pancakes (2000) + tiramisu (1200) + coffee (200)
lunch: Mystery Juice™ (pomegranate? blackcurrant? currant? 550 estimate) + a little slice of some walnut bread thing? (500)
notes:
good evening everyone! i was really hesitant to check the scale beforehand but was surprised! i was 1000% convinced it'd go up. as i ate at 6pm yesterday so my 'real weight' is probably lower than that too.
unfortunately as i tried to plate the tiramisu it collapsed (hence the mess on the right ;w; ) i still took a photo of it anyways so i could show off my new plate in action haha
i've entered the phase of regretting some of my purchases: namely, the face masks, hand cream & (kinda) plate. everything else is fine, though.
rn the thing i'm regretting buying the most is the face masks as i don't think i'll end up using them due to their cost... which makes them a bit of a futile purchase LMAO
also kinda regretting the hand cream, as i do already have another + my hands are almost always clammy (likely from social anxiety and/or stress) so idek if i can even use the hand cream... as it may just turn everything into a slippery nightmare.
and my hands are clearly not in need of moisturisation in the first place lol. i do have the receipt + everything has remained unopened, but i'm too embarrassed to go back and request a refund
as for the plate, my dad noticed i bought it, and said that we could've just gone to daiso to pick up a whole set + more... making my purchase also a bit futile. if only i'd been a bit more patient... > < ;
p.s; changed my avatar- not sure if i vibe with this one, so i'm trying it out... for now i think it looks nice though?
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isabella ♥
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now i’m craving some tiramisu !! (it’s my favourite dessert. i used to eat it every night between the ages of 12 and 17 haha) did you make it yourself?
and i really like your new avatar <3
and i really like your new avatar <3
liliaceae
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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monday, 19 september:---------
weight: 56.6 (±0 kg)
total kj intake: 3970kj - 1000kj = 2970kj
stuff eaten:
breakfast: tiramisu (1200) + strawberries (150) + walnut loaf thingo (2000?)
lunch: 3 pieces of sushi (500) + diet soda (20)
notes:
neither lost nor gained, but i'm okay with that. i'm sure it'll continue going down tomorrow (if i don't end up bloated from the soda). i didn't overeat and stayed within my limit, even without exercise, which i'm proud of at least. planning to fast tomorrow.
re: the korean skincare; the receipt says it doesn't really allow for change-of-mind refunds, instead providing exchanges. rip
i'm too embarrassed to go back and try to return the products as there's probably like a 75% chance i won't be able to. i'm not able to sell them second-hand. i guess i have to suck it up and keep the products. i feel so immensely guilty for it.
i literally cannot believe i've been losing sleep over $11. how did it even get this bad? i definitely lost the battle against my spending anxiety on this one unfortunately :c
i spent too long writing something up, only to later delete it when i decided it wasn't worth posting. should've used it to go out and get my steps in. argh
on some good news: i'm going on a uni fieldwork trip soon! it's at no cost to me due to my scholarship covering it all. more details later when i get them. will be early/mid october though.
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isabella ♥
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could you maybe gift them to a friend? maybe knowing you did something nice will take the edge of the guilt.
liliaceae
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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tuesday, 20 september:---------
weight: 56.6 (±0 kg)
total kj intake: 1200kj - 1000kj = 200kj
stuff eaten:
breakfast: coffee (200) + curry (1000)
notes:
was feeling super weak upon waking up, so i had a bit of curry and felt better. i feel like it'd be better to eat something small than to risk passing out on the train... especially as i didn't eat much yesterday. by the time i got home i was insanely weak. i think i might try to sleep early...
i'm walking it off (or most of it) anyways so will still be ''fasting'' (per my super loose definition). still not losing but that's okay lol. i'm sure i'll lose after this fast, + holding onto food weight.
one of my irl friends suggested maybe splitting the liquid from the face masks into two uses, as apparently the masks i got have lots of spare serum or whatever. of course, to do that, i'd have to buy spare face masks, but they're like $3 for 50 pieces so i think i could get around it.
don't even know why i'm stressing over spending $35. maybe it also comes from a place of not really knowing what to buy... i'm not in particular need of anything. and anything i do want is allocated towards a goal weight reward lol. maybe that's the issue- i don't feel 'worthy' enough of spending money until my gw rolls around! bleh.
there's more i want to write, but i'm too exhausted to remember what it was... going well w uni assignments and work. still quite stressed, but i have a timetable and i'm trying not to let academics control my life... hopefully.
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liliaceae
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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wednesday, 21 september:---------
weight: 56.5kg (-0.1)
total kj intake: 5000kj - 1000kj = 4000kj
stuff eaten:
breakfast: emergency biscuit (750) + coffee (100) + porridge (500) + cereal (1200) + biscuits (1500)
lunch: strawberries (150) + fish & tofu (750) + salad (50)
notes:
had the worst sleep in my life, ever... seriously i keep breaking this record. woke up at 2:44 am... couldn't get back to sleep for another 2 hours, then woke up at 6am. in total i got 6 hours of sleep, so it's not bad, but my god it felt like literal hell. i woke up at six sweating and/or clammy, my heart was pounding and my head was spinning. ate a biscuit, lay back down, and it helped a lot. then got back up at 7 and had the rest of my breakfast. i ate a lot, but it's needed for the 40 min walk to uni so i don't feel bad about it.
no bm today; and i did drink water at like 3am, so it's probably affecting scale weight.
i had a very packed day today... back to back classes from 10am - 5pm. ahh at least thurs & fri are easy days for me...
i'm really, really hungry... blehhh @_@
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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thursday, 22 september:---------
weight: 56.5kg (±0 kg)
total kj intake: 7800kj
stuff eaten:
breakfast: coffee (100) + tiramisu (800) + mooncake (400)
lunch: lemon-lime bitters (30) + boiled candy (250) + pancakes! (2000) + dim sum (2000)
later snacks: ice cream (500) + cookies? uh... scones...? mother baked something... not sure what... (1500)
notes:
lol 5-day plateau. haven't had a bm in two days so i'm sure once it ends it'll just go down and i might hit a new lw lol
i went shopping w my dad and hoped to get some sugar free kombucha, but it was out of stock, sadly :c and there was halo top for $4 (!!!) but that had also run out. i was devastated. ah well
i'm not working today, but still went out and took 4,777 steps. that's good at least. won't subtract that from my cal count just in case.
my dad made some pancakes! he didn't add a lot of sugar and not much milk, which made them really thick on accident haha. it was really good!! but then everything went downhill from there lmaooo
then we got some dim sum... all seafood/vegetarian, which was good! i think i've actually been pescetarian (so like vegetarian + seafood) for 33 days now. i missed the month anniversary lol.
had a lot today, but tbh i don't mind all that much- it's a public holiday, so everyone's home and i can't really get out of eating. and besides i needed to reward myself after doing my chemistry quiz (that counts towards my grade) and getting 100% :0
my friends are planning to go out on sunday. i'm able to go as i'm not working that particular day (if i was, i wouldn't be able to make it) they always go to get food... hopefully they pick a place w a menu that has the kj counts so i can go in prepared.
good news: medical card came in. i can now arrange my own doctor's visits. bad news: i'm busy every day of the week.
liliaceae
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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friday, 23 september:---------
weight: - (post-binge)
total kj intake: 3200kj
stuff eaten:
brunch: tofu/tempeh (1500) + coffee (200) + yoghurt w berries (500) + half a scone-cookie thingo (1000)
notes:
started off my day in a terrible manner. i didn't manage to tell my mother that my father had something important and she started cooking before i could let her know... and was really huffy at me asking her to stop (for those who don't know, it's my job to play 'messenger' between my parents). now they're both pissed at each other and probably at me. the tension was at like 1000% istg. i tried to ask around and see if anyone was able to take me in for a bit while the situation calmed down, but nobody responded (it was 8am and everyone was probably asleep)... in the end, i just hunkered down in my room and hoped neither of them barged in.
just feeling also really crappy post-binge... ahhhh. it's okay though- i did well today and will be fasting tomorrow (hopefully!) - also hoping to fast through until sunday's meetup! again, i don't want to pass out at work or anything, so i'm going to take this slow; especially as i didn't eat much today. they want to go to a pizza place on sunday... i don't even like pizza (and 95% of the options would not cater to me due to having poultry/red meat) so i think i might just get a drink... or not show up. XD
i do feel really... 'clean'? for eating primarily safe foods though. tofu and tempeh + yoghurt/berries are good foods for me. lots of protein! feel a little guilty for eating the scone biscuit thingy but that's okay.
i didn't do much work today but i think it's fine, i've only got one assignment after all.
liliaceae
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week twenty-three; 19-25 september, 2022
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saturday, 24 september:---------
weight: - (end of day showed 57.9; probably ~57.5 pre-food/drink)
total kj intake: 2750kj - 2500kj = 250kj!
stuff eaten:
breakfast: tempeh (300) + yoghurt/berries (500) + coffee (200) + bubur sumsum (750) + biscuits (1000)
notes:
while i didn't fast, i did manage to walk from my workplace, all the way home! it took ~4.5 hours, and i took 25,031 steps! so i essentially burned off anything i ate (664cal) lol. my legs are dead, but i'm glad i managed to burn it all off...
i decided to go out tomorrow (hopefully; as long as my weight doesn't shoot up...) to... try to remain social, i guess. that being said i'm going to be arriving later ('accidentally' missing when they go to eat) so that i don't eat anything while i'm there.
not sure if i'll be able to resist food tomorrow morning (before i leave); mother brought home curry (me being pescetarian is the only thing stopping curry binges lol), and there's jelly in the fridge (and it's a safe food too!!) aaaahh.
