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Posted 17 July 2022 - 05:53 PM
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[ 18.07.2022 ]
don't be fooled by the collarbones
i'm fat as fuck, lol
starting weight: 113 lbs
starting bmi: 20.7
next goal weight: 110 lbs
next goal bmi: 20.1
god, i look absolutely disgusting
i can't believe i did this to myself again
but this photo needed to be posted
i needed to face how bad i've gotten
now i can really get my shit together
i'll make a progress post like this when i meet my mini milestones
and i'm not making any deadlines for myself either
just as long as i'm losing weight instead of gaining, i'm satisfied
xo
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Posted 17 July 2022 - 08:04 PM
but i guarantee you that nobody here thinks you’re a failure!
& you definitely don’t look anywhere near disgusting in my eyes. you were beautiful then & you’re absolutely beautiful now ♡
i’m manifesting better days for you ♡
take care darling xxx
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 08:04 AM
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isabella ♥, on 17 Jul 2022 - 8:04 PM, said:
hey love, i’m sorry recovery didn’t work out for you right now & i’m sorry you’re feeling so awful.
but i guarantee you that nobody here thinks you’re a failure!
& you definitely don’t look anywhere near disgusting in my eyes. you were beautiful then & you’re absolutely beautiful now ♡
i’m manifesting better days for you ♡
take care darling xxx
thank you for your kind words, bels.
i can always count on you to make me feel better.
hope you're taking care of yourself. ♥
–––––––– 18 JULY 2022
cw: 113 lbs, BMI 20.7
intake:
iced matcha latte [48]
greek yogurt with granola + strawberries [192]
dinner with in-laws [~450]
exercise:
30 mins of pilates
(late post)
had an unexpected visit to my in-laws place,
and my partner's mom cooked my favorite dish.
i'd be a total asshole if i refused it.
i served myself a ridiculously tiny amount of food,
and claimed i had a huge, late lunch.
so glad we don't live with them anymore,
otherwise that excuse wouldn't be plausible.
i may have wildly overestimated but it's better to be safe.
and at least i managed to squeeze in a quick pilates session.
xo
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Posted 19 July 2022 - 05:22 PM
–––––––– 19 JULY 2022
cw: 112.3 lbs, BMI 20.5
intake:
iced brown sugar latte [45]
tofu spring roll bowl [234]
soy chorizo + egg over yellow rice [290]
5 chocolate covered almonds [80]
i found my scale!
it was under the bed in our guest room. of course.
there was a bunch of linens surrounding it so it was hidden.
this is good because i can do my weigh-ins in peace now.
i wake up earlier than my partner and i used to disturb him
with my constant getting off/getting on the scale, lol.
now i have the privacy of our guest room.
looks like i'm slowly inching my way out of the 110's/BMI 20's.
it's annoying to have to do this all over again,
but i'll practice patience this time around.
if i continue to not eat like a total jackass, i should be under 110 in no time.
but it's comforting to know that most of this weight is only food/water weight.
xo
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Posted 20 July 2022 - 06:54 PM
–––––––– 20 JULY 2022
cw: 112 lbs, BMI 20.5
intake:
iced matcha latte [45]
mediterranean tuna salad [232]
rotisserie chicken, baby potatoes, tricolor carrots [215]
zero sugar vanilla yogurt + strawberries [81]
hibiscus cleanse tea [0]
felt too depressed to go to work today so i took a mental day off.
spent a little time by the pool but it didn't help the cause.
got bummed by all the skinny bitches in my apartment complex.
please give me a fucking break.
at least i'm still steady, but slowly, losing (water) weight.
being dangerously close to 115 lbs really sobered me the fuck up.
i remember the struggle i went through trying to get under 110-115,
and i really don't want to go through that again.
i'd rather struggle around the 105-107 lbs range at this point.
at least i didn't feel absolutely grotesque as i do now.
xo
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Posted Yesterday, 05:27 PM
–––––––– 25 JULY 2022
cw: ---
intake:
cold brew [5]
6 pieces salmon sashimi [~246]
chocolate banana smoothie [201]
hibiscus cleanse tea [0]
no food felt safe today,
and it was an awful mental health day.
got down to 111 lbs over the weekend,
but had dinner with my partner on saturday.
haven't weighed in since then.
I don't even care how awful low res makes me feel.
i just wanna get out of this body asap.
xo
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Posted Yesterday, 06:16 PM
Sending you energy, angel. I'm sorry it's so rough right now.
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