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fαye

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Posted Yesterday, 01:41 PM

fαye, on 27 Dec 2021 - 12:34 PM, said:

186.6

186.2...

happy to see a little difference. :wub:

i had a bm but it was miniscule. nothing close to how much i feel is inside my stomach.

when will i see a big loss? idk, but i'm trying to not stress about it anymore. <3

trying to eat more volume food to wean off concerned relatives. i like it, too, i think.

intake:

thousand island, fat free - 60

croutons & sunflower seeds - 80

spinach and other greens - <40

lettuce - <10

2 tbsp carrots - 10

1 cup boiled beans w/ corn & chile - 300

500

edit: feeling awful-

my boyfriend has taken interest in a vtuber -- and she's so triggering to my eating disorder/disordered eating

first, it's a 2D avatar so it's impossible to ever look like her beautiful anime drawing/persona lol

second, she flaunts her character in nsfw drawings all over her twitter.

third, her stream is full of her talking about her boobs and talking about sex in general... which just makes me think of my boyfriend thinking of her like that, too.... which usually i'm fine with but something about it being HER gets me so fucked up.

she has a wishlist that shows what people have bought her in real life, including bras for people with bigger boobs. hers are probably perkier than my sad sacks of fat.

not only that, we literally take the same multivitamin wtf... kill me now??? why does she have to have the SAME ONE???

she also lives in the same state in the USA as me... loves the same places in california as me... even likes the same anime as my boyfriend and i. how could my boyfriend not like her? holy fuck.

hearing him say "i know we don't really like her considering how fake she is (she had a different persona back then), but i just love to look at her content, and i like how she makes sexual content of her vtuber character,"

...made me want to fast for weeks hahahahahahaha

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#335 Duplo

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Posted Today, 04:49 AM

I'd rather he fancy a vtuber than a real woman, if you see what I mean?

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#336 Inside-Outside

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Posted Today, 08:43 AM

I used to be in an LDR for 5 years and my bf cheated on me the whole way through. It's a toxic behaviour and you may think "no it's fine because I'm not like other girls who get jealous over things like that" but you need to draw the line where you're uncomfortable. Have you ever looked at other people like that? Have you ever said similar things/true feelings to your bf? If so, how has he reacted? It seems like he's trying to mould you into the perfect e-girl that he wants 😬 reality check: he ain't ever gonna get an anime waifu irl so.
I just think you deserve someone who looks at only you/if you agree to be in an open poly relationship then that's ok too. It shouldn't be a one-sided thing. Idk I got bad juju, I only realised this when I left his ass and am with my current partner of multiple years now. Granted, I'm fat now because I'm happy, but I ain't happy with being fat hahahah. Sorry if this is out of my place