Tamarind's Accountability
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Goals:
160.0 lbs. || 155.0 lbs. || 150.0 lbs. || 145.0 lbs.
Brief about me:
I was AN-B/P in high school and diagnosed as bulimic after graduation (yes, I gained weight lol)
I am currently a healthy weight and consider myself EDNOS
I would like to stop binge-eating (or at least dial it down and purge well when I mess up) and reach my normal, healthier weight of 145 lbs.
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Resources
Tips for success:
♥ Risk-management: Plan intake
♥ Risk management: No fear/trigger foods
♥ Risk management: Avoid food, food porn, advertisements
♥ Binge-block: Wear tight clothes
♥ Binge-block: Always have plans
♥ Stress management: Write down intrusive thoughts
♥ Stress management: Weigh every day
♥ Stress management: Style hair and apply makeup every day
♥ Stress management: Journal, log, draw, etc.
♥ Stress management: Stay social
♥ Stress management: Go to sleep around ~9PM, wake up around ~7AM
My motivational body checks:
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Tuesday 1:08AM
I am sitting in a university dining hall right now.
When I get back to my dorm, I am going to take out my contacts and go to sleep. ♥
In the morning, I will weigh myself despite how bloated I may be.
This is quite scary for me, but it's the necessary first step.
Starting right now I am going to focus on my goals ♥ Weigh 145 lbs., draw more, learn to sew, & learn another language.
I am sitting in a university dining hall right now.
When I get back to my dorm, I am going to take out my contacts and go to sleep. ♥
In the morning, I will weigh myself despite how bloated I may be.
This is quite scary for me, but it's the necessary first step.
Starting right now I am going to focus on my goals ♥ Weigh 145 lbs., draw more, learn to sew, & learn another language.
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Tuesday 7:59PM
I want to go to a dining hall and binge so bad, but I know I will hate myself if I do, so I'm going to sleep now x
Intake today was 0 but weight was high so I don't feel happy.
I want to go to a dining hall and binge so bad, but I know I will hate myself if I do, so I'm going to sleep now x
Intake today was 0 but weight was high so I don't feel happy.
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Thursday 8:03 AM
It has been 24 hours since I have slept, and I won't sleep until tonight at 8PM.
I have binged once since last post but it was very bad.
I didn't purge. It's quite difficult to find a place on campus where I feel comfortable throwing up.
I will fast today since I am staying in to do homework. I really need to study my maths.
Tomorrow I will work on eating within the range that will keep me from binging but still let my weight drop every day (300-600kcal).
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Thursday 6:36 PM
I'm not tired but haven't slept in 36 hours.
I am afraid I won't fall asleep and will go into 1 quiz and 1 test tomorrow having not slept for 48 hours D:
Anyways, intake today was diet soda and 1 piece of sugarfree gum. Let's call it 10 kcal.
I am going to bed now.
xx
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Friday 8:49PM
Bad binge. Considering purging right now but my hall is crowded.
I am really nostalgic for the days when my dad would say I was becoming too thin or he was scared to not see me eating.
If I do these things now, no one will care or notice. Is that why I've stopped?
I feel like the good part of my life is over and now I'm just a fish out of water.
I cancelled a date tonight because I felt too ugly.
I would recover but I have to become thin first.
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