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Posted 14 September 2018 - 10:10 AM
Hey everyone! This probably won't be too glamorous right now because I'm way too lazy to add some cute stuff, but I'll do that soon! I figured I'd make one of these because I'm hoping to lose about 30 pounds before Christmas (last I checked I was about 144, so I'm running off of that). I'll probably post body checks in here and use it for daily accountability, because I desperately need people to hold me to things and nobody wants to do that any more irl. As you can see I'm pretty new to MPA, although I've been browsing the forums as a guest since probably about 2013? Still trying to get the hang of actually posting myself. Anyways, stats are below, please feel free to comment/help me out and motivate me however possible, I'd seriously appreciate it!
HW: 160
SW: 160
CW: ??? (man I need a scale)
LW: 134
Height: 169 cm/almost 5'7"
GW1: 135
GW2: 125
GW3: 115 (by Christmas)
UGW: 105
UGW2: 95
I'm starting with something really easy to get back into the rhythm of things, I've been "down" to about 1000-1200 over the last little while (yikes). My maintenance is about 1700 I think, so I'll be trying to cut down to 700-800 at most for a few days, totally liquid diet, to try and get used to it and throw in some fasts in there once I'm back on track. Later tonight I'll let you guys know how today is going, so far so good at 400!
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Posted 14 September 2018 - 01:10 PM
Nalssin, on 14 Sept 2018 - 12:41 PM, said:
Following, GL!
Thank you!! So far I've stuck with it, around 530 right now (had some yogurt but hey, it's liquid-ish and plain greek so low sugar and filled with protein), so that still leaves me like 270 for my soup tonight!!
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Posted 15 September 2018 - 12:17 PM
14.09.18
- Mind over Matcha Smoothie from Booster Juice (skim milk, no blueberries): ~340 kcal
- (10) Kale and banana smoothie cubes with a 1/4 cup 2% milk and water: ~70 kcal
- Happy Planet fresh Tuscan Tomato Soup, 1 cup + 1.5tbsp parmesan cheese: 170 kcal + ~31 kcal
- Oikos plain Greek yogurt: 120 kcal
- Bar nachos: ~500 kcal
Total: 1,231 kcal
SO I was doing pretty well at first and was at like 731 kcal before we all went out to the bars last night, but at least I didn't drink anything so no empty alcohol calories. I might be overestimating the nachos, because there was six of us and I can't see the whole thing having been like 3000 kcal, but I don't know how much I ate so better to be on the safe side. A little disappointed in going over but I also danced for a few hours, drank like nine cups of water, and walked for an hour and a half so I might have burned it off but I don't count exercise calories because I don't trust myself to measure them properly. Nothing yet today and it's 3:16pm, fingers crossed I can hold out until dinner time but I might make myself one of those smoothie cube smoothies because they're pretty low cal (40 without milk) or maybe eat more plain greek yogurt because it's got like 17g of protein so it lasts me awhile. Need to buy a scale and some more matcha green tea because those booster juice smoothies are killer for calories and sugar and I have my own whey protein so I should be making them at home.
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Posted 15 September 2018 - 05:38 PM
Posting this now so hopefully, I STOP BINGING.
15.09.18
- Pizza: 790 kcal
- Raspberries: 343 kcal
Total: 1,102 kcal
I have no idea why I ate that many raspberries, especially when I was going to be in my 700-800 window. I seriously thought I'd be better off for tomorrow because my parents are coming and I KNOW I'll be binging so high. I didn't even do exercise to work it off like yesterday. I wish I had been lower because now I'm going to end up so screwed for tomorrow. Ugh. Hopefully posting this means I'm DONE for the day. Anyone else have bad days and then just sometimes be like "screw it" and binge on everything because it's "already ruined"? Because that's how I feel right now. Seriously hoping I can resist.
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Posted 15 September 2018 - 08:01 PM
- Chapman's ice cream: 150 kcal
Literally why can't I just stop eating? I used to fast for an actual week at a time. Ugh.
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Posted 18 September 2018 - 11:42 AM
16.09.18
- Eggs Benedict from Cora's: 1400 kcal
(oh my fucking god) - Baguette Crisps: 550 kcal
- (4) Oatmeal Raisin cookies: 300 kcal
- (8) tbsp hummus: 280 kcal
- PC Yogurt Bar: 80 kcal
Total: 2,610 kcal
This was my binge day, and I knew it was bad, but looking at it written down, well it's a big yikes lol. I wrote it down last night so I'd be prepared but... still. Luckily the next day was a bit better.
17.09.18
- PC Yogurt Bar: 80 kcal
- Tortellini: 338 kcal
- Classico Sauce: ~150 kcal
- (4) tbsp parmesan cheese: ~83 kcal
- 1/2 cup orange juice: 60 kcal
Total: 711 kcal
It still wasn't great but at least with a TDEE of 1700 bare minimum I made up my binge with this deficit, so I shouldn't gain. Damn, I need a scale. At the clinic right now and secretly hoping they have a reason to weigh me but scared of the result. May have overestimated some stuff yesterday but wanted to be extra safe. Today I'm thinking I'll have to raise my intake (maybe even as high as 1400, which is under my TDEE but I'm still terrified of something that high), because I have a big speech later and a ton of work to do and I just don't function well restricting, and I'm hugely sick on top of it so my energy is already down. Conflicted because I probably have an infection and need antibiotics, but the idea of antibiotics (which could make me gain weight) scare me so much. Ugh ugh ugh.
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Posted 18 September 2018 - 11:54 AM
queenie.ca, on 17 Sept 2018 - 7:52 PM, said:
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Wow. Is the first picture your SW? because it's so similar to my SW, it's like looking at myself lol. You look lot skinner than me on the second picture though we're pretty much the same weight. You look really good.
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Posted 18 September 2018 - 12:55 PM
Preservative, on 18 Sept 2018 - 11:54 AM, said:
Wow. Is the first picture your SW? because it's so similar to my SW, it's like looking at myself lol. You look lot skinner than me on the second picture though we're pretty much the same weight. You look really good.
It is my SW, or pretty close to it! I may have been fasting for a little bit by then, not sure. I don't actually know exactly what my SW was though, 160 was just an estimate because I entered uni around 150-155 and it was early October, so it very well could have been the same as yours! And I'm sure you look better than me, that's probably mostly just lighting and angle.
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Posted 19 September 2018 - 07:21 AM
I'm fucked. I'm so fucked.
Antibiotics are hell, but sure enough I have a severe lung infection and I already have lung disease so if I skip them I'll be so so screwed. UGH. I hate my life. So far I'm 6/40 (FORTY. SHE GAVE ME F O R T Y) in and I could already cry. For those who don't know, not only do antibiotics raise your weight (think of the fact that so many companies use them on meat so meat is advertised as "antibiotic-free" and that's supposed to be a good thing), they also send your ghrelin (hunger hormone) through the roof. My pharmacist said I should expect to consume several thousand calories in a day, and that's normal. Hell no. HELL NO. Although I'm so hungry all the time already. This is going to be a rough ten days. I got probiotics and I have my vitamins so if I'm diligent with those hopefully I can keep my good gut bacteria going and I won't get the random weight gain (like $60 worth of meds just for this LOL tg my antibiotics were free gb canada). But still. Oh my god. Panicking hard about this.
Luckily yesterday I managed to keep my intake sort of down but it's still a disgusting amount, but at least it's under my TDEE. As long as I can do that for the next 10 days, or at my TDEE, I'm just going to have to consider that a success.
18.09.18 (what a satisfying number omg)
- My specific subway sub (6-inch tuna, w/ grated cheese on italian with caesar dressing, tomatoes, cukes, & olives): 650 kcal(yuck)
- Snack size matcha monsoon at booster juice: 170 kcal
- Banana: 105 kcal
- Skyr yogurt bar: 80 kcal (my fave things ever)
- Welch's gummies: 80 kcal
Total: 1,085 kcal (gross, but the best I could do)
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Posted 19 September 2018 - 08:50 AM
queenie.ca, on 18 Sept 2018 - 12:55 PM, said:
My SW was about 175 lbs, at least that's I remember. I wish I took pictures of myself back then for comparison but I didn't because I never ever though I'd lose so much weight ever... Do you have a lung disease? Are you okay? Is it serious?It is my SW, or pretty close to it! I may have been fasting for a little bit by then, not sure. I don't actually know exactly what my SW was though, 160 was just an estimate because I entered uni around 150-155 and it was early October, so it very well could have been the same as yours! And I'm sure you look better than me, that's probably mostly just lighting and angle.
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Preservative, on 19 Sept 2018 - 08:50 AM, said:
My SW was about 175 lbs, at least that's I remember. I wish I took pictures of myself back then for comparison but I didn't because I never ever though I'd lose so much weight ever... Do you have a lung disease? Are you okay? Is it serious?
I could have been around there honestly, I didn't even want to check because I was so ashamed. I'd literally been bingeing thousands of calories daily for like two months, ugh. I took pictures to keep myself motivated, I have practically weekly/every two-week ones from October to March/April, but I stopped over the summer. It helped because I didn't have a scale (still don't here, working on that though), so it shows me I'm still making progress. As for the lung disease thing it's not too serious most of the time! They're just not totally sure how to classify it, as it's kind of on the verge between asthma/COPD in the fact that my asthma doesn't always respond to treatment, which puts it in the serious/COPD category, although that's about it. I take a lot of daily meds to help manage it and it doesn't affect me too much, it's just frustrating because if I do heavy exercise without prepping on emergency meds I can trigger an attack and can't get myself back down to normal so exercise is really hard (which is why I mostly just restrict and do light exercise like walking, swimming, and skiing whenever I can). Also I have to take daily steroids which is killer because that obviously doesn't help weight loss, so most of the time if I'm feeling good enough I try to skip those.
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Posted 20 September 2018 - 07:09 PM
Sure enough, appetite is through the fucking roof on antibiotics. Barely managed to make TDEE today (although I way over-estimated everything because I'm iffy so I actually think I'm probably like, at least 300-500 lower than reported), and yesterday was a binge, although it honestly could have been way worse because I nearly consumed 3500+ calories but my digestive system is shot without any good bacteria so eating unhealthy makes me feel so sick. Which is kind of a blessing. Had a gross lunch yesterday and today and felt like I was going to throw up, so hopefully tomorrow I can be healthier and feel better too.
19.09.18
- Mind over Matcha smoothie - 340 kcal
- KFC popcorn chicken - 472 kcal
- East side mario's pasta - 1010 kcal
- East side mario's home loaf - 300 k cal (didn't eat the whole thing but idk how much so I'm just marking it all)
- (3) tbsp butter - 300 kcal (no way I ate this much butter but I didn't measure)
- Side garden salad - 180 kcal (didn't finish either but didn't measure)
- Strawberry shortcake - 239 kcal (no way it was, it was literally two bites only, but I couldn't find info on it so here we are)
Total: 2,841 kcal DISGUSTING ASF (but probably actually in the 2200s not like that's much better)
20.09.18
- Blueberries, 1 pint - 217 kcal
- Poutine - 860 kcal (literally no chance, it was not this big and was probably 450-500 at most but can't find any info so)
- Crackers - 275 kcal (didn't measure so overestimate)
- (8) tbsp hummus - 280 kcal (NO chance I ate 8 tbsps but no idea how much I did eat)
- Yogurt bar - 80 kcal
Total: 1,712 kcal (probably more like 1200, and that's before exercise which was at least -100 kcal, because I walk literally everywhere)
All in all it's pretty disgusting and I haven't eaten this badly in so long I can't even remember (I literally don't think - besides a charity event in the summer where I was forced to for a photo op - I have ordered fried chicken in actual YEARS). Going home tomorrow and going to fast for as long as I possibly can because being home always leads to bingeing around my family because they encourage it and watch my eating like a hawk. Just PRAYING I don't gain. I literally shouldn't, I mean I'm only like 400 under my TDEE for the whole week (11,442/11,900) and that's without tomorrow which is PATHETIC but considering how many awful binges there are and things going on at least I know I can still fix this in the coming weeks. Also hoping I over-estimated some stuff a lot. Ugh, I'm such a failure.
(In all actuality my weekly TDEE is probably like ~13,700 kcal and without over-estimation and factoring in some but not even all of the exercise I probably ate ~7,250 kcal which would put me in the range of losing but I don't want to get excited in case I'm wrong)
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Posted 21 September 2018 - 08:01 AM
queenie.ca, on 19 Sept 2018 - 11:27 AM, said:
That sounds super rough. I don't have a scale at my dad's house so I can only weigh myself every wednesday, when I'm at my mom's... Take care!!I could have been around there honestly, I didn't even want to check because I was so ashamed. I'd literally been bingeing thousands of calories daily for like two months, ugh. I took pictures to keep myself motivated, I have practically weekly/every two-week ones from October to March/April, but I stopped over the summer. It helped because I didn't have a scale (still don't here, working on that though), so it shows me I'm still making progress. As for the lung disease thing it's not too serious most of the time! They're just not totally sure how to classify it, as it's kind of on the verge between asthma/COPD in the fact that my asthma doesn't always respond to treatment, which puts it in the serious/COPD category, although that's about it. I take a lot of daily meds to help manage it and it doesn't affect me too much, it's just frustrating because if I do heavy exercise without prepping on emergency meds I can trigger an attack and can't get myself back down to normal so exercise is really hard (which is why I mostly just restrict and do light exercise like walking, swimming, and skiing whenever I can). Also I have to take daily steroids which is killer because that obviously doesn't help weight loss, so most of the time if I'm feeling good enough I try to skip those.
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Posted 14 August 2018 - 10:11 AM
Hi. I'm feeling rather paranoid about this haha. I'd like to post pics as well but I'm scared someone might find this. Right now I'm struggling with binge eating. Started having an ed about 2 years ago and I lost 11kg in about an year. (slow, I know, but it was so damn hard, even if it took me so long) This july I gained about 5 kilos. I wont wear anything besides large pants and I feel ashamed to go out with friends. It's not that obvious that I gained but my legs are so damn big.
(my lowest BMI was 13.9 and I looked so good 
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I started an accountability in my phone and it's already better, but I thought making one here would motivate me even more.
I'm not sure how my diet will be from now on, as restriction leads to binges, and maintenance means no fat loss...I guess I'll just hope for the best
I try to practice yoga before every meal to make sure I dont eat mindlessly and it does kind of help.
This post ended up so long, ugh.
Today I binged and my overall calories are probably ~2700. (my TDEE is around 1700)
(very random gif but water is so calming)
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Posted 14 August 2018 - 02:12 PM
Debating whether I should have an almond croissant tomorrow morning or not 
They're so expensive and I'd have to wake up early as well as they sell fast. I'm kind of scared they might trigger another binge. 
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Posted 14 August 2018 - 06:45 PM
I hope it's ok if I follow? We are the same height and restricting too low also leads me to binge plus I'm maintaining currently and that's no so easy either lol. Anyway, it sounds like you're doing good and I hope you have the croissant tomorrow.
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Cause if you are
Those are freaking delicious. And they sell out like crazy here, too
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In-a-cloud, on 14 Aug 2018 - 6:45 PM, said:
I hope it's ok if I follow? We are the same height and restricting too low also leads me to binge plus I'm maintaining currently and that's no so easy either lol. Anyway, it sounds like you're doing good and I hope you have the croissant tomorrow.
You're more than welcomed to follow 
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Posted 15 August 2018 - 04:05 AM
Gloriousgauge, on 14 Aug 2018 - 6:51 PM, said:
are you talking about the almond croissants from Starbucks?
Cause if you are
Those are freaking delicious. And they sell out like crazy here, too
There's no Starbucks in my country and I've never tried a croissant from Starbucks but looking at pictures it seems to be really similar to what I have here.
Went on a trip recently and had a carrot cake from Starbucks, it was horrible.
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Posted 15 August 2018 - 05:56 AM
Woke up almost at lunch time, which is always great
Didnt have much fruit at home so I had more oats than usual (30g) with some blueberries and blueberry syrup
155kcal
Then I had some nuts and dried fruit as a snack 118kcal
Had lunch soon after breakfast and I had some canned fish which ended up being a lot of calories but oh well at least I hit my protein goal...and the bones of the fish have calcium as well.
Had the fish with some bread as well. Yummy but kind of salty.
(not my pic)
~683kcal , 55g protein
956 calories so far which is quite a lot.
Felt kind of bingey but now I'm better I guess.
I'm so scared I wont ever get skinny again...Every day I gain more weight. If I restrict one day, I binge the next one and gain even more. This used to happen when I was skinnier as well, but never actually gained this much. The gym might be to blame as well. I also noticed that I sometimes feel like its ok to binge because I can go and do some cardio later. Then I only burn about 200 calories and I give up because its so hard.
Feeling really hopeless today.
Just went grocery shopping and got some fruit and a diet Pepsi wild cherry, which used to be my favorite. Im slowly trying to get back into my disordered habits haha. I used to drink a few bottles of diet soda a week which isnt a lot, but then I got sick of them and I also dont like the idea of drinking so many weird chemicals but I guess having one now wont kill me.
Didnt manage to get coffee this morning since my dumb ass self didnt put water in the coffee maker so it kind of burned and I decided to skip coffee which made me feel like a boiled potato or even a mushy tomato.
Had one a few minutes ago so I guess I'm better
No plans for today which makes everything so much harder.
Not much to do at home besides eating
Might add a body check soon, not sure
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Posted 15 August 2018 - 08:19 AM
Resizing pictures takes so long so I'm just going to add spoilers.
Had some oatmeal for dinner and lots of fruit, including two kiwis that were really nice and made me quite happy
Ate kiwis, raspberries, strawberries, half a nectarine (aesthetically pleasing fruit combination in next spoiler haha), bananas and some oats. (413 calories). So far I have eaten 1369 calories today and I'm feeling pretty good. 
(is there an easy way to make images smaller? T^T)
And theres my pretty Diet Pepsi can! Drank only a few sips because I didnt really feel like having more
Might go to the gym and burn some calories
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Posted 15 August 2018 - 01:32 PM
Ended up eating some unexpected fish (probably perch) which has a lot of protein and not that many calories but I ate it with some bread so yeah... I ate about 1800 calories and then I went to the gym and I burned about 200 calories doing cardio for 40 minutes and another about 100 doing all kind of activities. I'm going to sleep soon so today I probably had 1500 calories net which is...not too bad but considering my TDEE is about 1700...thats not a significant progress
At least I didnt binge!
Debating over that croissant again Tomorrow morning I'm going to the gym so I might go get the damn croissant before that.
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I dont have any calming pills and if anxiety kicks in and I cant take deep breaths I’m FUCKED
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Posted 15 August 2018 - 04:14 PM
Also had some fish so I could take a pill for muscle spasms, probably no more than about 30kcal
It’s too late to wake up early tomorrow and enjoy an almond croissant
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Posted 16 August 2018 - 04:07 AM
Managed to find a way and lay down to sleep. Ate two mini sponge cake bears at 2am, really yum, about 118 calories each. Pretty good for cake cravings
Woke up at 12am and had some oatmeal with strawberries, blueberries, blackberries, raspberries and a teaspoon of blueberry syrup with 2 kiwis. I think I burned my coffee maker pretty bad yesterday, it still stinks like its burned and I dont think it would be healthy to drink coffee out of it
No gym today I guess, since I probably damaged one of my chest/abdominal muscles. So far I have consumed 538 calories today
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Posted 16 August 2018 - 10:24 AM
Ate mostly sweets today. 135calories for lunch and 261 for dinner
Might have some bread with hummus later
1165 calories so far...not great but I guess it's fine.
Not having a great day, might go for a walk
Feeling kind of depressed and something is off with my right eye, as well as with the whole right side of my head. Reading is also kind of hear, I see all kind of dark spots.
But it doesnt really matter I guess
My parents always scold me if I have some sort of health problem
Sometimes I go to the doctor with some kind of pain or problem and they do abosolutely nothing
No one gives a single fuck
What a horrible day, really
I hope I burned enough calories at least
Might go have that damn croissant for breakfast tomorrow and then go spend the rest of the day in a park or something, even though it's kind of too hot outside
Staying at home is so, so bad for my mental health and I dont even do anything at home
At the same time, I dont have any friends to go out with most of the days so it kind of sucks to just wander around and look for a place so stay at for the whole day without spending too much money either
Wish I could go to a party tonight
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Posted 17 August 2018 - 05:49 AM
Went to that place in the morning
they DIDNT have the almond croissant, so I got an almond ring which is like a croissant but shaped like a ring
Not as creamy, extra and fancy as the croissant but it was fine and also cheaper and lower in calories for sure (pictures in the spoiler)
I guess it's around 300 calories
The filling was some kind of marzipan
Had that with some black coffee 
For lunch I had bread, hummus, boiled egg, tiny bit of cottage cheese and some veggies (416 calories)
Then I had like 600 more calories of bread and hummus I think I had about 11 slices of bread with hummus today 
The slices werent huge but still, I'm impressed
Also had some sponge cake tiny bear with choco filling and salted peanut m&ms that I cant find on the internet so I guess they are exclusive to eastern Europe
Really salty but I enjoyed them a lot, might buy some more
There used to be white snickers here as well...I was so obsessed with it
So far I had 1633 calories today and I have some stuff to do and I'll go to the gym as well so it's fine
A bit scared of going to the gym as I might get the stabbing pain in my chest again
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Here's a picture of me about 2 months ago
I looked so good
I ate normally, enjoyed food in normal quantities and didnt feel dizzy or anything
Then depression hit me and I binged
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I guess today ended up to be more of a maintaining day, which isnt too bad. I'm glad I didnt binge despite all the bread with hummus I had
Just went from the gym, where I burned about 300 calories, and I'm having a banana and salted peanut m&ms along with 27ml of a kiwi spinach smoothie
Last night I was so hungry, I really struggled to fall asleep
I was literally drooling while thinking about food
Tomorrow I'm hoping to have some yogurt and maybe something else for breakfast, an iced latte for lunch and a nice dinner
Holy shit I just saw a weird white spot ok whatever
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Ah, yes. Do come in. Have a seat, grab yourself a cup of tea while I tell you what I'm doing here. Should I put a "mention of sexual assault" content warning here? Don't worry, it's nothing graphic, but you know. For your comfort and all that.
Right!
Some people find that their real selves are underneath the fat and I guess that's true for me in the sense that I feel my real self is underneath the curves, the big boobs and the squishiness that betray me as "female". I am non-binary, and though I am that and I'll tell everyone their identities are valid no matter what they look like or how they like to express and present themselves, I feel an overwhelming sense of despare at the realisation that my obese body makes it infinitely more difficult to present more neutrally and it's making my gender dysphoria much worse. I want to get top surgery and I feel like I just can't until I'm thinner, cause with my breasts gone, the massive amount of excess weight on my hips is just gonna make me look like a freak. All bodies are beautiful, yada yada. Nobody's value should be dependent on their appearance, but my body disgusts me, and I'm making a conscious decision to stop prioritising self-acceptance for a second because my brain can no longer handle the physical state of myself. To be quite honest, I don't mind being fat the way I used to. A decade ago, weightloss was much more about being aesthetically pleasing, pretty, desirable. I've abandoned that, but gender dysphoria and the way it influences my relationship with weight is a whole other critter. I feel it's harder to reason myself out of, cause this is no longer about arbitrary standards of beauty, but about the very core of my identity. Am I making any sort of sense here?
Either way, here we are, and here's my space to keep you all in the loop on how this entire thing is working out for me as a way to remain focused on my goals. Of course this calls for some statistics and goals!
Some Stats™!
SW: 227.1 lbs (as of yesterday, Monday Sept. 17)
CW: 225.5 lbs
HW: 240 lbs
LW: 125 lbs
Some Goals™!
UGW: 125
Aaaand just have like, 10 pound interval goals starting with 220, I guess? Heck, I'm not gonna make a "GW 1, GW 2,..." list with every -10 pounds between 225 and 125 cause hello, waste of space. Sometimes I'm a very efficient person. Sometimes.
So let's just say, our first goal is to actually get down to 220, which is going to be a BIG deal, cause the last time I weighed 220 lbs was two and a half years ago. I'm actually kinda hoping to get down there somewhere in the next week.
A section called "BLERGH, EXERCISE."
Listen, I've always been a very lazy person. I mean, perhaps lazy is the wrong word. It wasn't so much that I rather sat around doing nothing than working out, it's that I get REALLY self-conscious and messed up over the idea of my body moving. Like, in any kind of way. Just it existing and taking up space, expanding it, making it more visible by being less still... It might be a leftover thing from experiencing a lot of sexual violence, who the hell knows. Probably a combo with how disgusted I feel when I look at myself and projecting that onto other people imagining they must be disgusted too when they notice me. Anyway, moving my ass even if it's just going for a walk, is a BIG deal for me. I went for a 45 minute walk this morning though, and I think I just want to start by making that a daily early morning thing. It's just walking. Everyone can put one foor in front of the other, it doesn't look that weird. I can put some music in my ears, stay in my own area, go at a time of day that not too many people are out, just to remedy the "oh my god fuck, everybody's watching me" a little. Seems like a plan.
So hi, this is me, this is the "plan", probably also expect some life updates and rants when particularly shitty or exceptionally great things happen. Come say hi, ask me questions, let's be friendos.
Cheerio!
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Let me enlighten you what me around my current weight actually looks like, versus what I looked like when I was muuuch thinner. The fat pics are somewhere between 230-240, the lingerie pic is from around 140lbs and the last one is me at like.. fluctuating somewhere between 128 and 130. (I will always have big thighs, fml 
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We can do this. I am also starting this journey a lot heavier than most.
Here's my accountability if you want to check it out https://www.myproana...ip�/?p=64941769
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I also get extremely self conscious if I exercise where people can see me. Even walking, I just pace back and forth in my apartment rather than go outside where people will judge me. Plus, if I start feeling sick or whatever I can just lay down in my bed and you can’t do that when you’re out and about or at the gym or whatever.
I used to weigh 222 lbs and today I’m 107. You can totally do this. Stay safe.
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Tulips3045, on 18 Sept 2018 - 07:27 AM, said:
Hello. I'm following you.
We can do this. I am also starting this journey a lot heavier than most.
Here's my accountability if you want to check it out https://www.myproana...ip�/?p=64941769
Hi! Thanks so much, following back. it's nice to have people around who are also starting out higher. 
Śkėłētøń Kêÿš, on 18 Sept 2018 - 08:52 AM, said:
I feel you on so many of these things. I’m also enby, but my body shape is very heavy on the hips and thighs and I am never read as anything but female. I’m trying to lose enough so I look androgynous, even if I look like an androgynous 10-year-old (I’m pretty short haha) at least I’d look androgynous and wouldn’t have to deal with so much dysphoria.
I also get extremely self conscious if I exercise where people can see me. Even walking, I just pace back and forth in my apartment rather than go outside where people will judge me. Plus, if I start feeling sick or whatever I can just lay down in my bed and you can’t do that when you’re out and about or at the gym or whatever.
I used to weigh 222 lbs and today I’m 107. You can totally do this. Stay safe.
Hi! wow, that's so inspiring! Gives me lots of hope tbh. May I ask how your skin is? I honestly don't know what to expect in terms of potential loose skin. I have a friend who has some after coming down from 300 but I don't know anyone who came from closer to my range and I'm like, sorta kinda anxious about it sometimes and then I imagine it will be SUPER bad, but I have no frame of reference. 
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Saerlith, on 18 Sept 2018 - 10:06 AM, said:
Hi! wow, that's so inspiring! Gives me lots of hope tbh. May I ask how your skin is? I honestly don't know what to expect in terms of potential loose skin. I have a friend who has some after coming down from 300 but I don't know anyone who came from closer to my range and I'm like, sorta kinda anxious about it sometimes and then I imagine it will be SUPER bad, but I have no frame of reference.
My skin is a bit loose in certain areas, especially my stomach. It’s not crazy bad but it also hasn’t improved much either. The only thing that seems to help is cocoa butter 2x a day, plus dry brushing once a day followed up with coconut oil. I think if I had done this from the start, I may not have had any loose skin at all, so definitely try to moisturize as much as you can. Also, drinking water like it’s your job helps, which is something else I failed to do when I first started losing weight.
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Śkėłētøń Kêÿš, on 18 Sept 2018 - 11:16 AM, said:
Saerlith, on 18 Sept 2018 - 10:06 AM, said:
Hi! wow, that's so inspiring! Gives me lots of hope tbh. May I ask how your skin is? I honestly don't know what to expect in terms of potential loose skin. I have a friend who has some after coming down from 300 but I don't know anyone who came from closer to my range and I'm like, sorta kinda anxious about it sometimes and then I imagine it will be SUPER bad, but I have no frame of reference.
My skin is a bit loose in certain areas, especially my stomach. It’s not crazy bad but it also hasn’t improved much either. The only thing that seems to help is cocoa butter 2x a day, plus dry brushing once a day followed up with coconut oil. I think if I had done this from the start, I may not have had any loose skin at all, so definitely try to moisturize as much as you can. Also, drinking water like it’s your job helps, which is something else I failed to do when I first started losing weight.
Alright thanks, that's really helpful!
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Good morning friendos,
Yesterday was great! Netted to the tune of 560 calories in fruit, veggies and some granola and ended up doubling exercise by going for another 45 minute walk in the evening.
Result: - 1.1 lbs from yesterday, so that puts me at 224.4, yay! Can't seem to get my stupid signature ticker to update though. When I click it, it gives me the updated version, but so far it still says 225.5 in the signature and I'm really fucking annoyed. Maybe it takes some time to update?
ANYWAY! This is day 2 of going back to restricting and if I remember correctly, this is going to be hard as hell before the hunger goes away tomorrow. Wish me luck!
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) Oh, oh! The courgette (or.. welp, zucchini for y'all Americans) was baked in cinnamon. Honestly: 
edit: oh look, the ticker updated
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Wuddup crew.
223.8 this morning which is half a pound down from yesterday. Technically I'm not complaining but I'm used to losing a lot faster in the first week? Like yesterday and the day before were great, at 1.6 and 1.1 pound losses and it normally stays around at least 0.8 every day in the first week or so. Then again, I did eat a lot of food in quantity yesterday. Had lower calorie intake than the day before, but it was a lot more weight, so I'm guessing there might be a bit of food weight involved here. Either way, It's fine. As long as it's going down it's fine.
Thing is that I realise I'm already hardcore flipping out about small things and I feel like I really wanna drop this weight but I also don't want to spiral completely out of control the way I used to, so it completely consumes my life, cause I'm fucking 30 and I need to be able to look for a job and hold that down and all that jazz, and I already have SO much shit on my plate, it's just objectively not a smart idea for me to become completely, utterly obsessed and spiral into starving myself so much low blood pressure prevents me from walking for a single minute without my vision going dark, ya feel? So I need some rules for myself as to when I can "worry" and when I can't, and I'm gonna tell myself that I can NOT freak out as long as I net under 1200 calories (which will inspire me to like, exercise a lot more). Lose It puts my net allowance at 1569 currently for the fastest track it allows. I'm trying to stay like at least 500-1000 cal under that atm, but we're only gonna brand something a fail and a fuck up if I net over 1200, alright? Alright. It'll give me space to revover for a bit if I feel like I'm going too hardcore, it'll give me space to have occasional "allowed" higher days so I don't go and binge cause I'm keeping myself under restrictions that are impossible to maintain. It'll give me some good "strengthening" days, like: it won't be either a super low cal day/break from exercise OR an exercise-intensive day/somewhat higher calories. I can have days where I give my body rest, straighten out my metabolism a little, so I can get punchin' again the next day (and I do have a bit of a thyroid issue so it's extra important for me to keep the motor running at a good pace I guess?)
IN OTHER LIFE NEWS!!
Finally, FINALLY, after over a decade of searching, I'm with a psychologist who recognises it's necessary to put me through a series of diagnostic tests. She first had my IQ tested which turned out to be about 130-ish, which confirmed her suspicion that because I'm really intelligent, I come up with a lot of strong coping strategies which make it look like I'm doing relatively okay and am functioning to an acceptable extent, while in reality I have a TON of really complex, deep-seated issues that I constantly need to deal with, manage, compensate for.. which is causing me a ton of stress and costing me a ton of energy. She was like "yeah this is why every therapist and shrink you've seen so far is like "I don't really get what you're doing here, you don't seem 'troubled enough' to seek such a drastic amount of help" and it would basically have been better had you been literally dumber, not been smart enough to rationalise and compartmentalise all your issues into really strategically smart coping mechanisms, and had just completely spiraled and snapped years ago". Literally, society would have been in a rush to help, there would have been programs available for me, health insurance would have paid for treatments, I'd have had a right to a special employment status that would make me more easily employable cause employers would be given benefits for taking on the extra "trouble" of hiring someone who has a more difficult time funtioning and adjusting and my issues would be taken into account and cared for at my job,..... All of which I don't fucking have now. Cause my brain is too clever. Cause I can fake being mentally "normal" too well. What a fucking joke.
BUT SO, now I finally get to do a fuckton of tests! Need to do the first 10 today, then next week I have to do a whole batch of super extensive questionaires and then after my appointment October 5th she's gonna look into more specific tests surrounding PTSD, body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria. FUCKING FINALLY. I was getting SO exhausted of always being Struggs To Func (©Jonathan Van Ness ) and shouting at everyone I could find for help, and always being shot down cause I don't seem disturbed or disordered or crazy enough. CAN YOU FUCKING IMAGINE how often people have just concluded I was attention whoring cause in their impression, nothing was wrong with me and I was still trying to claim I was struggling with a bunch of shit? DAMN.
I'm gonna make soup now. I think I wanna have a lot of soup today. Like nice, filling soup, some feta cheese. (I'm going for the more keto-inspired calorie distribution I guess. Carbs make me hangry). Probably do some strength training this afternoon after I fill in some of these test things. Whoop.
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DID I NOT TELL YOU IT WAS FOOD WEIGHT.
Dropped to 221.6 today, HONEY. Also literally lost an inch of my waist and thighs since the start of the week, whaaaaaaaaaat. I legit have two pairs of trousers I couldn't wear last weak which FIT ME NOW.
Catch me weeping with utter bliss
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Posted 22 September 2018 - 12:59 AM
Tulips3045, on 21 Sept 2018 - 07:56 AM, said:
Congratulations
Śkėłētøń Kêÿš, on 21 Sept 2018 - 11:40 AM, said:
Nice! You’re doing awesome!
THANKS!
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Down to 220.9 today. I'm not really "satisfied", I guess, though in theory, as long as the weight goes down, things are good, I guess. I'll just have to learn to live with regular days of having food weight cling on since my meals tend to be so big. The calories are fine, but if I make me a salad it's easily nearly a pound of food on my plate, at least twice a day.
I'm doing surprisingly well on water intake, actually. I know I haven't really mentioned it, but if I don't actively mind what I'm doing, I literally just don't drink, let alone water. But I've been hitting 2 - 2.5 liters a day just fine this past week. Go me!
Made pea soup yesterday so I'm gonna go have some now, probably also going out with friends to a fair this afternoon so there will be a lot of walking involved today. I just wanna break 220 by Monday. That would put me at my lowest in over two years. It seems so surreal to me. I'm Belgian so technically I weigh in kilograms, and breaking 220 would finally put me under 100 kg and into double kg digits for the first time in SO long. I can't imagine what that will feel like...
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Oh. My God.
I hit 220.
I was fucking scaaaaaaared. We went to the fair and I had a burger, which like.. didn't put me over my calorie limit but.. it was a burger, ya feel? And then in the evening I had a tiny, tiny poop and I weighed before going to bed and it was like.. 222, which I wasn't really freaking out about at the end of the day, tbh. But then I was watching some videos in bed for a while and I had to pee MASSIVELY like, twice. So I get back on the scale afterwards and it's STILL 222??? So now I was flipping like wtf is going on, and then this morning it was STILL fucking 222. OBVIOUSLY my scales are a broken bitch? So I took out the batteries, put them back in, and THEN it gave me a bunch of weights between 218 and 220 so I just decided to go with the highest number. It DOES mean I definitely broke 100 kg though, FUCK YES.
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good job! I have gender issues as well. I'm a trans woman living with this E.D.
It can be hard b/c I don't get the same treatment as other E.D. patients.
I face discrimination in recovery. Doctors have opinions too and tend to be weird about my trans identity.
Good luck you can do this.
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AnorexicDuty, on 23 Sept 2018 - 09:33 AM, said:
good job! I have gender issues as well. I'm a trans woman living with this E.D.
It can be hard b/c I don't get the same treatment as other E.D. patients.
I face discrimination in recovery. Doctors have opinions too and tend to be weird about my trans identity.
Good luck you can do this.
Sorry fam, that really sucks.
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Today was a weird day. I ended on like 900 cal but the final 250 or so were REALLY late. Around 9:30 pm or so? While normally I don't eat after 5. Ugh. Double worried about food weight now.
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Ugh, I'm having some weird allergic reaction to idk what. Suddenly just got a really hot face this morning (not sth I ate cause haven't eaten yet) and it's all red and patchy. I think it might be my sweater? Started like 2 minutes after I put it on and my neck, back and shoulders are full of red spots too. Idk what it is though. I've worn that sweater for two years, we haven't changed laundry detergent or whatever. It's not even fresh out of the closet cause I slipped it on last week for a day and then put it away on the "worn but still wearable" chair. Meh.
Still 220 today. Remind me not to eat late.
BIG NEWS!
I have friends who live pretty far away and I see them like once a year, at their annual Halloween party. It's the most amazing shit ever. They dress up their entire house and backyard, they have bonfires, everyone's in costume, everyone brings snacks and drinks, literally everyone who's there is a musician so there's tons of guitars, tin whistles and percussion and everyone's singing songs all the time, and then we all stay overnight and it's a big beakfast thing. So, listen, I'm counting on just eating ALL the food that night and not giving a shit and we'll fix the damage afterwards, but I wanna look my best on October 31st, yeah. I think I wanna drop at least another 10 pounds by then. (no way it's gonna keeo going as fast as it has, I gather, so I'm not banking on more, though if it is more, awesome). I think I'm gonna dive in with a liquid fast this week so that means lots and lots of soup. YASS, GO SOUP. WHO DO WE LOVE? S - O - U - P. SOUP I just wanna spell it "soop" though? It looks funny? What if I make Halloween soup. Imagine how much cooler "spoopy soop" looks. Come on.
Edit: I took the sweater off before writing this post and now by the end of it, the redness is already starting to go away, so it probably was that. How fucking weird?
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oh my god. oh my god. 219.1 this morning. FUCKING YESSSSSS.
I made mushroom soup yesterday and it was SO fucking good???? can't even believe.
Change of plans on the liquid fast: mom suddenly planned to stay home from work and make lasagna, which means I can't fake I've already eaten etc cause she'll be around all day, plus she'll expect me to eat dinner with them since my brother and his boyfriend are coming around tonight so I guess I'm putting all my calories in that tonight and not eating for the rest of the day.
I ordered new scales cause the one I have are kinda fickle and I have to get on like 10 times in a row to see which number it *most often* gives me and I'm a little sick of that, but now I'm low key scared they'll be calibrated a bit differently and they'll measure heavier..? ugh.
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cigsandsmirnoff, on 25 Sept 2018 - 04:56 AM, said:
i THOROUGHLY enjoyed reading through this, and i usually hate reading accountabilities. i’m nonbinary too so the whole dysphoria thing really gets to me lol. gonna follow this, you’re doing great and you’re writing style is funny ass hell lmao. keep up the good work and be safe! keep slayin the game
Hello, welcome! Watch the entire trans/enby community gather in this thread I should really make longer posts, actually. I really enjoy writing and I do like to sit down and craft something nice. So far I feel it's mostly just been "WEIGH THIS, ATE THAT, LOW KEY SCARED, OKAY BYE" and I just want it to be that PLUS a nice funny diary type of deal? I should really make more time for this tbh.
Either way, great to have you around!
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So, listen, I know it's only halfway through the day, but I've done a lot of thinking and I need a Moment™, yeah?
So hi, it me, I lost 8 pounds since last Monday and I'm V proud. I was planning on a liquid fast this week, which is already going to fuck cause my mom wants to make lasagna (and bitch, my mom's lasagna is the shit they serve in whatever type of blissful afterlife you believe in). Consequence: I'm not gonna eat anything except for dinner tonight. Seems fair, cause that means I can actually eat A FUCKING TON of lasagna and still not go over my calorie-stress-out limit. Thing is: we're eating quite late cause my brother works quite late, and by "quite late" I mean like 2 hours later than I'd ideally stop eating so for fuck's sake, am I gonna have to do this whole "oh noes I'm so fucking worried about food weight " again? It's an ongoing problem and also this message board doesn't have a sufficient range of emojis for me to express all my nuanced feelings about this topic.
Anyhow! It's been 6 hours since I got up (SO late cause I only went to bed at 3:30 am and my brain really hates me for it), I'm not actually super hungry, but I DID spend over an hour making a glorious batch of soup (SOUP!) with like 4 different types of shrooms and a buttload of fresh herbs and it smells. so. fucking. delicious?? I so wanna have some and I'm like, I CAN have some, but I sorta wanna wait till everyone's here so we can all have it before we eat the lasagna cause then everyone can be like "oooooh, aaaaaaah, this is so goooooood, what's your seeeeeecret?? " and I can feel accomplished about something for half a second? Novel idea, I know (I'm also not sure how I feel about this roll-eyes emoji looking so suspiciously content about the thing it's frustratedly roll-eyesing about?) So.. Now I have to wait for another nearly 4 hours and it's making me sad as fuck, cause my shroom soop is to MY prefered afterlife what my mom's lasagna could be to yours, okay.
Also, MASSIVE CHANGE OF PLANS haha lol cause when is it not. Since I'm eating my mom's nirvana-esque lasagna, this whole liquid fast thing is out the window before it even properly started amiright, so I was at the store this morning and thought "WELP, LET'S THE FUCK NOT THEN", cause I saw salmon. And also shrimp. So I'm having a fish week. Like, loads of veggies and low cal soupie things, and the important macros (not carbs, lol. Carbs can go home) and hence most of the calories, are gonna come from fish? So hi, protein and the Nice Friendly type of fat, ily. I should buy keto sticks just to check how deep in fat loss I am? Especially since I'm staying off the carbs so much.
HAHA WHAT.
Me: "so, my mom's lasagna, right..?"
Also me: "Fuck carbs lol".
Soooo, I'm gonna go distract myself from the delicious scent of woodsy fungi and thyme coming from the Big Pot of Shroom Soop in my kitchen for another 4 hours. I'd ask y'all to pray for me if I weren't such a fucking atheist I guess. Cheers
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Hi! 217.6 this morning. The new scales weigh about 2 pounds under my old ones but I'm sticking with the numbers on the old ones and just using the new ones to check whether it's going completely out of whack or not.
I'm feeling super ill and I'm probably gonna be down with a massive cold for a bit so this might cause me to up calories a little and lose more slowly. I'm not planning on staying sick longer than I have to just cause I'm not giving my body enough food to adequately and efficiently get better.
I want to be as thin as a tulip.🌷
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I guess a little background on myself..sorry beforehand this might be all over the place.
I was diagnosed with OCD and ADHD when I was young. I would get really obsessed with what was going into my body and what was coming out. I was put on medication to help with that and it helped but my obsession with food or lack of food did not go away. When I was a teenager I was hospitalized and after diagnosed with an ED. I met my husband in college and he helped me get my thoughts under control.
I wanted to do it for him. Fast forward 12 years. I’m divorced now. I was depressed for a long time and gained a lot of weight. I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life at 190. I’m tired of feeling this way. I want my old body back. At my lowest weight I was 110/115. I would love to get there again or even reach my ugw of 99lbs.
I started fasting on the fourteenth of this month. I want to do it for as long as I can.
Just tea and water. After that I will start restricting to only raw fruit,water,tea,coffee,and coconut milk unsweetened. I sometimes use pure maple syrup to sweeten my tea but just a tsp.
Allowing myself 500 calories or less.
I have been walking my uphill and downhill everyday. I want to burn all the calories I take in.
I want to use this accountability post to keep my motivated and consistent.
I will be logging my daily foo intake or non intake. My victories and failures.
If you read all of that, thank you and you’re awesome 😄😉
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Tulips3045, on 17 Sept 2018 - 7:17 PM, said:
Same! -- OCD is partly the reason I developed an ED. Welcome....I was diagnosed with OCD when I was young. I would get really obsessed with what was going into my body and what was coming out...
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I drank ice water throughout the day. Made a pot of tea after I worked out. Burned 600 calories. Drank half my cup of tea.
So far I don’t feel hungry. Working out especially crunches just kills my appetite. I love to do it before bed so I don’t feel hungry.
I plan on weighing myself this weekend. Just thinking about it makes me feel anxious tho.
Started a different medication today and I think I will have to start taking a sleeping pill cuz I am wired tonight.
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I drank ice water throughout the day. Made a pot of tea after I worked out. Burned 600 calories. Drank half my cup of tea.
So far I don’t feel hungry. Working out especially crunches just kills my appetite. I love to do it before bed so I don’t feel hungry.
I plan on weighing myself this weekend. Just thinking about it makes me feel anxious tho.
Started a different medication today and I think I will have to start taking a sleeping pill cuz I am wired tonight.
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Posted 20 September 2018 - 09:07 AM
I think I will end my fast on Saturday. I will start restricting to 400 cals or less.
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Posted 23 September 2018 - 09:10 AM
Friday: Since I felt like crap didn't have a problem fasting that day. I still managed to get my workout in and burned 453 cals.
Saturday: I decided to break my fast I ate a mango. 150 Cals.
My elliptical machine came in so I burn 200 calories. Felt to bad to get a real workout in.
Today so far. I am feeling a bit better. Started the day on my elliptical burned 300 cals
Drank a cup of coffee with creamer a little sweetner.
Not feeling hungry yet but I don't plan on ever going over 400 calories 500 to the most.
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Posted 25 September 2018 - 04:20 PM
So I have decided to start on the snake diet. I started my fasting today and I plan to do it for 30 days. Nothing to drink but snake juice and work out everyday. For at least 50 mins.
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Tulips3045, on 25 Sept 2018 - 4:20 PM, said:
Thank you Ladies.
So I have decided to start on the snake diet. I started my fasting today and I plan to do it for 30 days. Nothing to drink but snake juice and work out everyday. For at least 50 mins.
Okay this might be cause I'm Belgian but what in the world is snake juice? 😂
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Fasting and restricting under 500kcal seems a tad much though, not very sustainable- of course it’s up to you, i’m just worried you’ll burn out xx take care love
Also what the frick is snake juice? Haha
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Okay this might be cause I'm Belgian but what in the world is snake juice?
Its a part of a fasting plan where you drink water with added salts.
They call the water,snake juice.
I like it so far. If you follow the plan you are supposed to be able to lose thirty lbs in 30 days.
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You’re doing good gal
Fasting and restricting under 500kcal seems a tad much though, not very sustainable- of course it’s up to you, i’m just worried you’ll burn out xx take care love
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I had a great work out. Burned 400 cals and did 100 squats and 70 crunches.
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I worked out after. Needed to ease my mind. 80 crunches and 80 squats. Burned 200 cals.
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I don't know if I will today...maybe I'll rest.
Feeling a little tired.
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My mom advised me not to get carried away with it.
Then they started joking about how skinny I used to be and what happened to me. I would probably give up in a month.
They actually started placing bets on how long I would last.
Just made me feel so worthless.
I left came home and slept. I didn't break my fast. In fact I don't feel hungry at all.
I'm going to lose this weight, no matter what.
I'm not stopping until I feel happy again.
I'll never give up
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Sorry I didn't update yesterday I was feeling really down. Went to a big family get together and everyone was so happy I was trying to lose weight.
My mom advised me not to get carried away with it.
Then they started joking about how skinny I used to be and what happened to me. I would probably give up in a month.
They actually started placing bets on how long I would last.
Just made me feel so worthless.
I left came home and slept. I didn't break my fast. In fact I don't feel hungry at all.
I'm going to lose this weight, no matter what.
I'm not stopping until I feel happy again.
I'll never give up
That is awful that they did that to you. I am so sorry. Just remember that youre doing this for YOU! Not for anyone else! Stay strong.
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That is awful that they did that to you. I am so sorry. Just remember that youre doing this for YOU! Not for anyone else! Stay strong.
Thank you so much. That means so much to me. It has added a little more fuel to my flames.
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I wasn't really hearing her cuz I know they told 190 last time. I didn't hear the nurse wrong.
But I decided to call and ask anyway and find out, somehow either she told me wrong or I heard wrong cuz I was 210. I had a mild panic attack becuz holy cow, I'm a fat whale. Can't believe I let myself get that big.
On the up side,
I've lost 12lbs. Yay!!!!!
Never will I let myself be that weight again.
Still fasting. I was really motivated after that I worked out for two hours. Did 200 squats and 100 crunches. I plan on doing more later. Before bed.
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My mom got really sick and has been living with me. Anyways dont want to go into detail and I really shouldn't use it as an excuse but I fell off so bad...OMG.
Whoooosahh!!! I'm back and I not stopping this time.
I am going to do more restricting and maybe some light fasting. My OCD has gotten worse because of anxiety but lord why do I still eat so much. I stopped purging because there was nowhere I could do it...not looking back...only looking forward. Right???
Yeah so..i think 600cals a day is good. On my busy days which are Monday and Wednesday I plan on fasting. Nothing but water and juice on those days.
Well Lovelies, CW 198.
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Freak wish my boobs weren't so big.
I bet they weigh 10lbs by themselves
You know what hold up let me see if I weigh them... Well damn I was close 9.1
Damn shame
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My mom got really sick and has been living with me. Anyways dont want to go into detail and I really shouldn't use it as an excuse but I fell off so bad...OMG.
Whoooosahh!!! I'm back and I not stopping this time.
I am going to do more restricting and maybe some light fasting. My OCD has gotten worse because of anxiety but lord why do I still eat so much. I stopped purging because there was nowhere I could do it...not looking back...only looking forward. Right???
Yeah so..i think 600cals a day is good. On my busy days which are Monday and Wednesday I plan on fasting. Nothing but water and juice on those days.
Well Lovelies, CW 198.
GW 115
UGW 100
Freak wish my boobs weren't so big.
I bet they weigh 10lbs by themselves
You know what hold up let me see if I weigh them... Well damn I was close 9.1
Damn shame
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I am currently at 147lbs and want to reach 140lbs or lower till the 16.07. We will go on a sailing trip, meaning being in a bikini all day in front of my hot bff and strangers. She is just a few pounds lighter but carries the weight better and looks beautiful. I want to feel confident on the trip and enjoy my time rather than focussing on my body not being my ideal shape. I gain on around 1500kcal a day and multiple websites tell me to eat under 1300kcal to lose so let's try that. IMy BMI is 26.9, pls kill me now...
So this is my accountability to reach that goal, as I tend to lose motivation after a few days when trying to lose weight and it just won't come off.
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20.06 results: I drank black tea to speed up my metabolism and took my vitamin B pill to also help my metabolism. Drank my Modifast shake and went for a nice swim in our local river bath, burning around 150kcal, plus biking to work, bath and home will be around 130kcal. I feel hungry but will stay strong. I had a large dinner so all in all 1290kcal intake. Minus 200kcal from jogging 24min :-D
21.06 results: Weight this morning: 146.8lbs. Drank my protein shake for lunch and went swimming + walking (up and dow river) for an hour, ate 3 big bruchetta and did 15min of on-spot jogging. I ate / drank 1050kcal and burned 577.
22.06 results: Weight this morning: 146.6lbs. Let's hope this is fat not just water *crosses fingers*, drank my shake (170kcal), looking forward to my lunchbreak and one minipic salami (80kcal), for dinner I had 2 mozzarella balls (615kcal) and some tomatoes. Then I had a really small binge and ate 170kcal chocolate. Still just over 1000kcal which is fine for me.
23.06 results: Weight this morning whopping 146.0lbs! BMI now at 26.7. I ate 910kcal so far, had a shake (215kcal), Mozzarella (610kcal) and one Minipic (83kcal). Biked to work back and forth for around 25min. Hope the weather stays nice enough for a swim after work, it's just too hot! I ate some bits and bobs as well, totaling me at 1300kcal but at least it was all day keto which i tend to still lose weight on.
24.06 results: Weight today 145.6lbs! YES! Ok so I just took my Vitamin B pill and just drinking some black tea with a bit of milk and sweetener for breakfast. I only have to work in the morning so going to enjoy my free afternoon. We'll have pizza tonight so just a smaller lunch for me today, must be under 400kcal. Pizza is going to be around 1000kcal for a classic italian margherita
25.06 Today was a shitty day. Cried a lot, had to make big life desicions that will change everything. I ate around 1300kcalish, I didn't count well today. Fuck this world and fuck men. Especially mine.
26.06 Weight today: 145.4lbs. I had 1500kcal, proteinshake, a giant pizza margherita and some small biscuits and tuna, but also burned around 500kcal bouldering for 75min.
27.06 results: Well my scale couldnt decide between 144.8, 145.0 and 145.6lbs so I guess I have another try tomorrow. Had a black tea with some skim milk and sweetener, a protein shake for lunch. Sadly brought a protein shake that is not filling in any way and tastes super bland. Had a small portion Hash Browns and 2 eggs totaling at 950kcal. Walked 150kcal off and did the first day of Chloe Tings Summer Shed 21 days and burnt 227kcal.
28.06 Weight this morning 144.2 I had a very big lunch with 900kcal, took a long nap with both my cats and did Chloe Ting's day 2. Had a few Gherkins for dinner.
29.06 Weight this morning 144.6lbs, knew there was some food weight off as well yesterday but still losing girls! I had a big Spaghetti Carbonara dish for lunch, 2 rice waffles with chocolate and a 150kcal protein shake after my CT's day 3.
30.06 I plan on eating 1400kcal to include a "high" kcal day again for my metabolism. Will have dinner with my husband at an italian restaurant.
30.06 144.2lbs again and this time it should be for real as I had heavy foods yesterday Had one small piece of bread (110kcal) and a Shake (150kcal) for lunch. Gonna get myself a Lasagna for dinner with my husband to celebrate our 4th anniversary.
probably also doing a quick workout for arms as CT's is a Rest day today.
1.07 I plan to eat a big lunch with my mum at IKEA and nothing for breakfast or dinner. Also do CT's day 5. Hope to stay under 700kcal.
2.07 We'll have hot stone with husbands family (grilling your own meat on the table) so I plan to have one shake and the dinner.
3.07 Went boulderings with my bff and husband and did CT's day 7.
4.07 It's monday morning and I was scared to weight myself, I had as bit more to eat (around 1400kcal) each day and am scared the number has gone up. I'll try tomorrow. So I ate 1200kcal yesterday, had no time for CT's.
5.07 I will take a break from weighting myself till friday. I got my period and can feel and see the extra waterweight on my body. I'll continue my diet but I don't want to get demotivated again. So today I plan to only drink shakes and I'll have to find a different way to do chloe tings workouts because I had a nail surgery on my right foot and can't stress the big toe for 3 days. Guess I'll do lots of on knee pushups and squats.
6.07 I had a almond protein shake, some roastbeef and creamcheese and a shake + 2 eggs with mayo for dinner. Did the CT's workout as good as I could with my toe still hurting a bit. I just did some slight alterations when something came up that involved my toe being used too much.
7.07 Weight today 144.8. Still not where I was but I think it's water weight too from having my period break from the pill. Ugh had to eat a croissant at work. Which means I had around 1200 - 1300kcal with my lunch now. So only water and tea for dinner. But I ate plenty of protein so no shake needed. Going to work by foot so 30min walking, 15min bicycle riding and CT's workout for today.
8.07 Weight today 144.2 again! Hope to get under 144.0lbs tomorrow. I plan to drink only shakes today (3x 170 - 220kcal) plus so CTs Workout for 1h. Also walk to work and back 35min.
9.07 1 shake and 2 fajitas in the evening + CTs Workout for 1h
10.07 Maybe try to waterfast?
11.07 600kcal (variation of 2468 diet) + CTs Workout for 1h
12.07 800kcal + CTs Workout for 1h
13.07 1000kcal + CTs Workout for 1h
14.07 600kcal + CTs Workout for 1h
15.07 800kcal + CTs Workout for 1h
16.07 Hopefully 140lbs but 142lbs would be fine as well
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Height: 5'2
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CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
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Starting at 147lbs.. Ugh
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
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Height: 5'2
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CBMI: 26.4
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147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
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Posted 22 June 2022 - 09:12 PM
OMG you guys: 146.0lbs!!!! Oh I hope this is actual weight lost no just water!
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My current free workout:
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Height: 5'2
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CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
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Posted 23 June 2022 - 09:59 PM
YES 145.6lbs!
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Height: 5'2
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CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
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I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
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scale couldnt decide between 144.8, 145.0 and 145.6lbs I'll try again tomorrow.
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Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#7
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Posted 27 June 2022 - 09:25 PM
OMG 144.2lbs you guys! But keep in mind I did eat just a bit of solid food yesterday so might be a bit of food weight in here as well
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
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#9
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Posted 28 June 2022 - 09:28 PM
Knew it was some food weight as well yesterday. 144.6lbs, still very proud of myself and still losing weight!
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#10
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Posted 29 June 2022 - 05:18 AM
Was some food weight as well (had nearly no solids the day before), but only 0.4lbs heavier Thanks
sincerely_paris, on 28 Jun 2022 - 11:14 AM, said:
You’re kicking ass! Proud of you!
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#11
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Posted 29 June 2022 - 09:12 PM
144.2lbs again and this time it should be for real as I had heavy foods yesterday
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#12
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Posted 01 July 2022 - 11:29 AM
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I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#13
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Posted 05 July 2022 - 09:28 PM
Will weigh in again on friday I guess.
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#14
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Posted 06 July 2022 - 09:16 PM
So my weight shot up to 147 last sunday but is now back to 144.8lbs. I suspect it was / is waterweight because I had my period break with the pill and now seem to gain weight during period. Funny because when I was not on the pill I'd lose about 1kg before getting it and now it's reversed?
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I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#15
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Posted Yesterday, 02:55 AM
you're doing great!
he/him
stats:
progress:
78kg 77kg 76kg 75kg 74kg 73kg 72kg 71kg 70kg 69kg 68kg
67kg 66kg 65kg 64kg 63kg 62kg 61kg 60kg 59kg 58kg 57kg
56kg 55kg 54kg 53kg 52kg 51kg 50kg 49kg 48kg 47kg
HW
LW
GW2
GW3
GW4
GW5
UGW
total loss: -13.1kg/-29.7lbs (7/7/22)
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Posted Yesterday, 03:39 AM
elthebastard, on 07 Jul 2022 - 02:55 AM, said:
you're doing great!
Thank you very much!
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#17
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Posted Yesterday, 03:40 AM
Ugh, I can't be the only one who hates when ppl bring food for lunch in the office? Had to eat a croissant to not look rude but I wanted to eat no carbs today...
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
#18
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Posted Yesterday, 11:13 PM
144.2lbs again, hope to get under 144.0lbs tomorrow.
I am from switzerland and english isn't my first language, so pls ignore typos
My current free workout:
https://chloeting.co...shred-challenge
My accountability diary:
https://www.myproana...bs-till-160722/
Height: 5'2
SW: 147lbs (BMI 26.9)
LW: 109.7lbs
CW: 144.6lbs
CBMI: 26.4
Goals:
147lbs - 146 - 145 - 144 - 143 - 142 - 141
140 - 139 -138 -137 - 136 - 135
134 - 133 - 132 - 131
130 - 129 - 128
* 125lbs GW *
~°* 120lbs UGW *°~
accountability thread! (500 intake per day)
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Posted 04 July 2022 - 01:55 AM
starting this accountability thread for this new diet im rlly RLLY MOTIVATED THIS TIME,, VERY MOTIVATED to not binge or go over no matter my net it doesn't matter, im only focusing on my intake to lose as much weight as possible before august 2!!
my goal is to be 120lbs by august 2 and go from to 24.5 20.9. im currently 140.8 as of july 4 so its kind of a long shot BUT I RLLY FEEL LIKE I CAN DO IT w all the exercise im getting this month. im currently 2 days in and have lost about 3lbs and its going well SAUR
day 1
479
day 2
500
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